You are the BEST gift i have ever received ;

Mixed Emotions

I can't believe time passes so fast
It was all good with you around
Times with you i could not describe
I felt as if my heart were alive
I hoped you could feel it
The way that i did
It wasn't my imagination
Or muttering some incantation
You made me smiLe, laugh and grin
Words can't explain, it was like cookies n` cream
Staring into your eyes, so deep inside
I was trapped, i needed light
You gave me a purpose, a goal in life
I'm amazed at how you can make me feel this way
The way no others could
Fate isn't playing on me again, like how it did before
And i'm so glad that all this is the truth
A lifetime of happiness assured

Priscilla

Sunday, July 31, 2005
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family day for the Chuas today... was awaken by the LOUD screaming of mom again. haiyo...never-ending... when will the day come where she wont shout or holler at the top of her lungs? super lethargic laa cos i slpt at like 5am ydae.. and i was awaken by her screams at 930am which she said was late..like come on laa, 930 isn't late at all.. so i drag my ass out of the bed at like 940am... tired``

went to maxwell food centre for our brunch.. it has been a long time since my whole family sat down and had a meal together and we reali had a great time listening to some lame jokes contributed by my sis and dad... imagine, my dad! haha.. how funny can that get.. i was laughing so badly i thought my intestines will just burst out anytime..haha.. and it took me quite a while before i calm myself down and regain my normal self.. wahaha.. super funny.. the cai yi lin thing, copy-wadeva-i-sae joke, xiao ming...xiao hua, yue fei~! haha...alot alot... hilarious is the word. i tell you, we were so noisy cos of our laughter and thx to my elder sis who laughed so loudly as if the whole food centre is owned by us.. sis, pls be a lil more demure will u? haha

headed to sentosa after our brunch... hmmm... haven been there since may? quite surprised to find not many ppl there.. its such a rare scene at sentosa laa considering its a sunday today.. found a spot and placed our stuff on the poncho... both sis went down for a dip.. i duno why but i just dun hav the mood to play in the water... probably its due to my wound that reali make me so uninterested of sports now.. im just so afraid my wound will tear or smth if i do sports. and trust me, i wont wanna go thru the ordeal again even if u could grant me millions of wishes... that's how petrified i am.. the whole one week at the hosp was bad enough and i get frightened even by the thought if it.. ohh, pls spare me the agony... bcos of the op, i couldn't do lots of things.. just hope my wound would recover fast..also, hope the instant pains dun harass me again.. slept on the poncho most of the time there... super super tired like i said.. i reckon sunday is my slping day.. arghh, wad a pig. both sis went to bathe and we waited at the bus stop for them... the guys were getting impatient...constantly asking "haiyo, why they so slow.." haha... GUYS. saw shen qing shan, Ix Shen, the channel-u actor..wah he's super fit... great built.

was struggling whether to tell mom.. i think i told her cos i hav absolute faith in our relationship and i dun wish to keep it under wraps frm her. after telling her, i felt as if a heavy rock was lifted frm my heart... feeling so much beta... =))

went to east coast for dinner and home sweet home~!

smth meaningful:-
One day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is love? How can I find it?"His teacher answered, "There is a vast wheat field in front.Walk forward without turning back, and pick only one stalk.If you find the most magnificent stalk, then you have found love."Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with empty hands, having picked nothing.His teacher asked, "Why did you not pick any stalk?"Plato answered, "Because I could only pick once, and yet I could not turn back. I did find the most magnificent stalk, but did not know if there were any better ones ahead, so I did not pick it.As I walked further, the stalks that I saw were not as good as the earlier one, so I did not pick any in the end.His teacher then said, "And that is love."
On another day, Plato asked his teacher, "What is marriage? How can I find it?"His teacher answered, "There is a thriving forest in front.Walk forward without turning back, and chop down only one tree.If you find the tallest tree, then you have found marriage".Plato walked forward, and before long, he returned with a tree.The tree was not thriving, and it was not tall either.It was only an ordinary tree.His teacher asked, "Why did you chop down such an ordinary tree?"Plato answered, "Because of my previous experience. I had walked through the field, but returned with empty hands. This time, I saw this tree, and I felt that it was not bad, so I chopped it down and brought it back. I did not want to miss the opportunity."His teacher then said, "And that is marriage. You see son, Love is the most beautiful thing to happen to a person, its an opportunity but you don't realize its worth when you have it but only when its gone like the field of stalks. Marriage is like the tree you chopped, it's a compromise.

hmm, meaningful isn't it.. wad i can sae is in love, u just hav to hold on to the trust and belief u have.. u may not get the best, but it doesn't matter... wad matters is if two person hav feelings for each other and feel comfortable in each other's company.. every love u had, u'll learn smth from it.. and hopefully thru it, u noe how and wad to change about urself to bcome a beta person... u'll reali regret if u din pick the first manificient stalk u've come across.. even if the one u picked was not the most manificient, both could make it to be possible eventually.. that's the trust u need to have.. rather than feeling the overwhelming remorse and regret just bcos u gave it a miss the first time... regret is the worst feeling one will feel and u'll start thinking "if only... if only..." and the if onlys wont help a single bit...
the part on marriage...yes, indeed L-O-V-E is a beautiful thing to happen to a person... but i dun feel that marriage shld b a compromise.. bcos if it ever was, that isn't love..
cherish the one whom u love and who loves u deeply... their emotions may not show how impt u're to them.. but its needless to sae.. dun let regrets hav the opportunity to come into ur life just bcos of ur silly actions... CHERISH is the word...

10:12 PM
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Saturday, July 30, 2005
la-la-la

Mr n Mrs Pig/Piglet =D

-us-

His can lan de xiao rong =))

3:46 AM
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woohoo~! i had a great time today at the esplanade wif bb... we went there with the intention to see the fireworks as there was a NDP rehearsal... we reached at about 7 plus and it was already veri veri packed.. got ourselves a seat and waited til 8pm for the fireworks to appear.. it was super hot and moreover we were wearing long sleeves... alot of ppl were standing in front of us, thus making us feel warmer.. den there came tis father with 2 of his daughters... they(the kids) were so damn cute laa.. they go "why the fireworks stil haven come?" and stuff countless of time.. keep clapping their hands and they got very excited even before the fireworks appear.. haha... kids are just so naive and cute.. no worries at all.. how gd can life be for kids...

waited, waited and waited.. finally, the fireworks appear at ard 8.05pm... its SUPER DUPER DIPER DAPER DOPER nice~!!! reali reali nice.. the nicest i've seen in my life... POOM it goes and im reali frightened by the loud boom cos its reali loud.. but the loudness didn't undermine the nice-ness of the fireworks.. lol.. both bb and i felt that the sparks were dropping on us and they seemed so near to us! tt was such an incredible feeling.. when ppl started to evacuate esplanade and thought everything was over, it proofed to be wrong when the second round of fireworks came! shocked`` everyone who were still there went "wah, wooo, nice, wow" and so on... including me..wahaha.. was simply overwhelmed by the sparkling sparks laa... and the rocket thing went reali reali high up the sky... it seemed as if its impossible for anithing to reach them so high up.. u guys shld reali go and watch the fireworks again on National Day itself if u missed it this time.. u wont regret, trust me.

the fireworks itself were already very nice.. but wif bb ard, it made it more special and enjoying for me.. blessed` =D

1:29 AM
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Friday, July 29, 2005
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something extraordinary happened today... i was on my way back home frm sch in the mrt and i fell asleep until so soundly that i missed my stop at yishun!! first time... when i woke up, i thought i was at another planet.. everything seem so strange to me.. den i was jostled back to reality in time to get out of the train and take the other train back to yishun.. and thru`out the journey, i dare not even wink my eyes.. haha.. cos i think i'll probably repeat history(if i fall asleep again) and end up at jurong east the moment i wake up.. so, to play safe... i was wide awake, forcing my eyes to stay open all the way frm city hall to yishun.. haha... i said it was extraordinary cos i'd never in my life miss any stops due to slping in the train.. and i presume its due to influence frm my pig..wahaha.. ok la, shan't push the blame to him..lol..

in the train, there's this gal wif down syndrome. she was sitting at the corner seat opp me and she was constantly behaving in an eccentric way, seeking attention frm ppl in that particular cabin.. upon seeing her disability, it triggered alot of thoughts in my mind.. pondering if God is ever fair, wad's the thing in life that's fair to her.. the unfair part dat god has given her was her disabililty and i felt nth can compensate her for that cos her disability is gonna be with her foreva.. imagine she has to live wif it for the rest of her life and attracting stares frm ppl wherever she goes... my heart sank deeper when three pri students came in the mrt and started laughing at the gal's disability and whispering god-knows-wad into one another's ears.. the scene was totally disheartening to me.. they shld've realised how fortunate they are to be healthy and normal instead of scoffing at others.. dont they noe how hurtful that can get? haiz... to conclude, god isn't that fair after all...

11:15 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Thursday, July 28, 2005
la-la-la

slept at like 3.30am ydae? thx to my 'wonderful' and 'considerate' sis of mine..wahaha.. i was already on my bed at 2.15am, hoping to get some slp sooonnn. den, started chatting all the way til 3 plus.. we had a great time complaining about that mom of ours..haha.. super funny laa.. forever nagging one loh she..getting on OUR nerves..wahaha..

got up at lik 710 and am supposed to leave the house at 715am. ok, im a pig.. lalala` simply too tired laa..so deprived of my beauty slp.. and that pig supposed to giv me a wake-up call at 645am but i received none but he insisted he dialled my no..okie, so wad? ghosts intervening our calls? lol... it must b his prob laa..cos the records of missed calls in my phone doesn't include his..haha..

alright, there's a SARS readiness practice in our sch today and i reckon it was quite dumb.. went to the library in the morning wif wen den we were told "no landyard no entry into the library" and i was lik wth.. big deal... somemore the ppl attitude..haiyo.. lousy like duno wad.. ok, wadeva..

managed to go thru the flash exercise wif jocelyn meiyan and peiling..we were excited seeing the result of our work laa.. though its just like a circle transforming into a square.. wahaha.. cos we're all computer noobs! ok, we were glad that we noe how to make the thing move and transform into another at least... *grins*

xiao xiao de shou
da da de tou
xiao xiao de sheng ti
da da de ren

wahaha, that's for the pig of mine.. he understands laa.. lol.. stop laughing at my goosebumps! =D

11:14 PM
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woohoo~!! super duper happy! cos... Derrick Hoh Wei Jian got in the competition successfully!! wah.. reali feel so happy for him that i jumped for joy and was yelling at the top of my lungs.. lol...my sis was like "can shut up not?" wahaha, but i dun give a damn cos weijian is in!!

after knowing he's in, i suddenly got the energy, motivation and everything to do my stats hw which is like so damn late la... i just finished the assignment and mind u, the time now is 1.02am.. lol.. seriously, i think Mr Ong Poh Leng, my stats tutor, shld reali thank weijian cos if it wasn't him, i wldn't hav completed my hw... heehee..

super happy~ dum dee dee dum...wee~

1:05 AM
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005
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just saw my blog and realise i haven been blogging for like 3 days! woohoo.. that's like so unlike of me cos i blog almost everyday.. hmm..reason? simple. projects AGAIN.. now is cip.. we're supposed to create our very own webby using dreamweaver and flash, which is like so complicating for computer noob like me.. think my classmates are also stressed out by this dreamweaver and flash thing... arghhh! when will projects ever leave us.. *ponders* we've been spending like endless night just to refer to instructions and complete the webby.. super stressful laa.. by hook or by crook i MUST get it done by friday.. if not, i cant hav my saturday free..which means i cant watch the movie "bug me not" and go esp see fireworks and either k-boxing or harbin palace on sun!! ahhh! i just wana relax myself so badly..

however stressful and tired i am everyday, i'll just lit up at the thought or better, sight of bb.. he's getting lamer and lamer each day which i reckon is a gd thing cos i need some humour to destress myself u see... haha.. foreva so funny laa.. today he had his IS in the morning but mine is in the afternoon..den he called me while i was walking to the MRT..chatted all the way til marsiling when his hp left with 1 batt only.. that took ard 24 min.. haha.. den at bukit batok mrt station, i saw him! so quickly alighted the mrt and surprise him! wahaha... see, i miss u so much laa.. den he took train wif me to JE mrt den back to yishun...thx bb!

ur lameness=my happiness...wahaha.. can lan de xiao rong.. keep it up =D

2:06 AM
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Sunday, July 24, 2005
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ydae went to eunice's hse.. so long nv go le.. supposedly is go to teach her stats.. in the end, as expected, we chatted and catch up wif each other instead.. and seriously, i taught her NOTHING.. see, this happens when besties come together ya? =)) but it was reali fun laa.. she made chicken for me.. and also let me try her new recipe of tuna and mayo..or rather guang's recipe...heh heh.. nice`` thx pal.. taught her how to change blog skin.. den when she was doin it, i went out to her living room and slp.. so tired laa..cos i slpt at 4am the previous night.. ok laa..im a pig.. lalala` we reali chatted alot.. den she asked me things bout me n wen.. thnks for ur concern ya? we'll be fine and great.. hee.. i just wan u to noe one thing.. he's foreva my best bf and YOU will foreva be my best bestie.. that's for sure kays? will be seeing u on fri again.. yeah.. woohoo...

bb, am sorry for my actions just now.. i reali din mean to do that and i reali hate myself for behaving that way.. reali reali sorry.. its my fault.. nth to do wif u.. instead, u're foreva so patient and loving to me.. i felt reali bad..even til now.. haiz.. i wont let it happen again ok.. so sorry for making u angry or sad..

on a lighter note.. hmm, bb reckon it was an eating day for both of us today.. haha.. we went to taka cos i wanted to eat takopachi so badly.. ok 1st, we bought takopachi. cheesecake for me. zebra choco cake for bb. prata wif sausage for both of us. 2 cheesecakes for bb. pepsi frm kfc. ok, it was quite filling.. great feeling to eat these nice food since duno when~ went back to yishun. bb was hungry again,,, haha.. so he bought honey GLAZED chicken stick frm cold storage.. and since then, he has been glazing all the way,.. cos we were pronouncing the word "glazed" and he wanna perfect his pronounciation so when he ordered, he emphasized on the word.. haha super funny laa..

just wanna let u noe im reali reali happy wif u ard.. no amt of other things can make up or compare the happiness u've been giving me.. thanks for everything.. =))

one more thing. piglet will always always be happy IF ONLY pig is ard..

11:57 PM
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Saturday, July 23, 2005
la-la-la

a new blog skin, for a change =D
grateful for everything u've done.
i've seen the effort and all.
just wanna say a big big
T.H.A.N.K.Y.O.U

=))

2:33 AM
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Friday, July 22, 2005
la-la-la

woohoo~! finally the common tests are all over! think alot of ppl reali song yi kou qi juz like me.. but i think that there'll be more things to be completed when lessons resume on mon, like the tutorials for ALL modules, infa hand-in-classwork, cip macromedia flash web-page, econs article analysis and etc.. arghh~! wad is this man.. ok, shall not think about the assignments for now.. i need to relax a lil ya, considering the amount of effort i put in for the tests.. haha ok, im juz making myself feel beta by creating excuses.. wahaha.. procrastinator is the word~

went to cineleisure watch war of the worlds.. not bad laa.. except, it was quite gruesome at some parts.. am wondering if the earth will ever bcome like how it was in the movie.. if it will, its super scary ya..imagine ppl will just vanish frm this earth wif the simple gestures of the "machines".. oh my.. pls, i hope it wont..

esplanade again~ haha..its just so nice to be there.. i simply love the breeze.. reali calm down my nerves and just let my thoughts wander freely.. great feeling~

wad more can i ask for.. all this is gd enough.. its the best in fact..

to ahwo, stop the flip-flopping thingy kays,,haha its super super funny.. i reali wanna cure my laughing syndrome so it will juz do me harm..wahaha.. and one more thing, stop imitating ch!! ahh...lol.. AND, thank-you for promoting me to level 2.1 ya.. am stil far away frm 10 laa.. haha

1:29 AM
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Thursday, July 21, 2005
la-la-la

ahhh! so happi! cos wei jian got into the semi-finals for jue dui superstar!!! ahhhhh!! heart was thumping super fast.. thx for which ever god that blessed him! hope that he will be blessed in the coming rounds too.. =))))

thx for making my dream come true..

12:15 AM
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
la-la-la

went to the library wif wen in the morning again.. ahhh! so stressed bcos of econs.. actually wanna buy finger-food to fill our stomach before the exam but due to time constraint, we din.. instead, we headed straight to the exam hall.. arghh~stomach growling cos haven had anithing since 645 in the morning...

econs is finally over! after like so many hrs of studying and understanding the concept.. phew~ the paper was alright.. if u've studied, it shldn't be a problem laa.. initially, when i started section c, i was like wad the~ cos ppf and demand and supply curve were the two things i overlooked due to confusion in understanding.. but i calmed myself down and did q3 first which was easy...den started to complete the other qs of section c.. i planned to leave the q for demand and supply curve blank at first but at 300pm left wif 5 min, i read thru the q and drew a reasonable curve, at least to me.. haha.. shld b correct la...so am happy wif myself.. its reali ironic, those chap and concepts which i hav a strong grasp on, the q confused me. but q lik the demand n supply curve which i overlooked, i actually can do the q! strange... things always turn out the way i dun expect it to be..

that noob told me his ans for e test and i reali had a great time laughing my heads off. hey noob, tis is not on purpose kays..but its reali funny.. esp the china and spore graphs.. lol.. dun b discouraged laa.. will always help u out wif ur doubts k..

went to cineleisure to watch the movie "crying out love in the centre of the world" hmm, expected it to be touching and all, but it wasn't so.. quite draggy.. but overall, quite alright laa.. the cinema is foreva so cold! couldn't stop shivering... ponders over y we weren't able to finish the popcorns everytime.. oh well~

headed to esplanade.. sat down and enjoy the breeze..oh my, its so relaxing and cooling.. and i simply luv that feeling~! it had been some time since i enjoy such a nice breeze.. =)) the scenery is reali gd there.. and i juz lik to see the merlion "spitting water out" lol.. went to ThaiExpress for dinner..i only had a bowl of tom yam soup wif prawns.. super nice and spicy.. those who lik spicy stuff shld reali try the soup there... yummylicious~

i juz hate my uncontrollable emotions.. and i hate my cascading tears.. why do they foreva fall down at the wrong time? its not the prob wif u.. reali.. and i thnk u for ur worries and all.. but wad i wanna tell u is that, they're redundant.. wad reali matters has nth to do wif wadeva u thought... oh well, u noe wad rite.. wadeva the case, that's that.. eternity it shall be..

1:39 AM
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Tuesday, July 19, 2005
la-la-la

went to sch's library to study econs wif wen in the morning..oh pls, sae we're hard-working... think i'm gonna b the hot-dog bread addict soon..its juz so nice..

studying and studying..reali boring.. arghhh~ econs is the cause of this all.. the frustrating part was that ppl near us were juz sooooo noisy...i cant see the reason why they cant keep their mouths shut.. and i thought it was supposed to be a library?? oh my... it reali distracts my attention and i reali reali felt like shouting!! so damn irritating can.. its not that they cant talk, but they talked reali loud and ignore the ppl's intention of goin to the library to study.. we need peace.

before goin to jj's concert, me and wen went to the atrium to buy sandwiches.. and how fortunate, terriyaki chicken was only available to one.. so wen ordered tuna mayo.. i suggested we exchange half, but he juz so stubbornly refused..ok fine. he said i need more proteins than him..haha wadeva laa~ u're weak loh..and not juz weak..is super duper diper daper doper weak... so, u need the proteins more than me~!

concert was supposed to start at 630 and we're supposed to b seated by 6pm. but who noes, we were still queueing at 7.. so everything was delayed.while waiting, we played the rating game..wahaha...sooooooo funny laa! i wont forget how u imitated ch..lol..
jj is super fantastic! his vocals are reali unique and pleasant to the ears.. i'm loving it~ wen n i reckoned he sounded beta live.. wah tt's reali great! the host was quite lame laa.. but his lameness added to the lively atmosphere which was all good.. JJ is reali reali fantabulous.. =))

everything ended at 9.30pm.. racking our brains on where to eat AGAIN! ahh..i juz hate to decide wad and where to eat.. and i think wen had enough of me..wahaha.. he's so gd laa..nv complain stil help to think.. in the end, we agreed on 925's coffee shop since that boon wanna eat hokkien mee.. niceee``

no regrets is wad i wanna say. the possibility of that happening is bcos u're around. thanks for everything. =D

1:07 AM
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Monday, July 18, 2005
la-la-la

had stats test todae.. lucky it was open book..think most of the ppl din reali study cos we can depend on our notes and bks for ans.. haha.. it was an one hr test.. and time passed reali fast.. quite easy laa.. so yeah, one more test down..so now we're left wif the so-many-things-to-memorise econs and cip...

tml jj lin jun jie's concert at NP..woohoo... got the tix so gg to watch it.. excited~

hmm, i understand ur worries but everything is fine... reali..if it wasn't u, i wouldn't have complied.. my words are not said juz to comfort u.. its frm the bottom of my heart.. =))

11:33 PM
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Sunday, July 17, 2005
la-la-la

we shall be the standing figures at world of sports panel oh we shall be... lol.. apparently that boon was silly enough to come up wif this idea.. and even suggested there'll be shifts so that it wont tire him out totally.. wah..super funny... laugh n laugh n laugh my way home.. my laughter was uncontrollable in the bus..haha...think tt boon shld noe.. who can cure my laughing syndrome? oh i need help, desperately. so that ppl wont think that im reali insane and it will stop giving that boon excuse to sae i laugh at things at stage 2.. ok u guys wont understand the stage 2 thingy cos it was his idea..wahaha...he's trying to show the extreme prob of my laughing syndrome by indicating stage ten as the most humorous and yes, thnkuverimuch im at stage two.. can u see the link? he's trying to sae i laugh at the not-at-all funny things..haha... wadeva laa.. tat's y i need help desperately u see...

till then`

12:50 AM
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Saturday, July 16, 2005
la-la-la

best of both worlds cannot be attanined... ultimately, my happiness wil be diminished bcos of the unsaid but apparent reasons.. hai... wad to do... i'll try my best.

eternity it shall be =D

1:51 AM
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Friday, July 15, 2005
la-la-la

yeah! one test down.. today had infa test at blk 72 level 2.. wah.. when we went out of the lift, the area outside the exam hall was crowded wif candidates.. it was super squeezy.. and we were freaking reminded to reach at 8.10 am, but were only allowed in at 8.35am.. wad is this man! it was super hot out there waiting and as each lift stops at level 2, there were fewer space among us as more ppl were comin in.. hope this wil b the first and last time.. i tell u, u can go and try to "enjoy" that feeling for all u want.. think the examiners want us to faint laa.. haha.. infa was quite alright..paper was manageable laa..except i was careless.. ahh.. brandon commented "ur eyes so big for wad?" ok fine... its not a matter of the size of ur eyes, but the stress and pressure u're feeling during the test.. and i was always telling myself "ahh not enough time already Priscilla, u gotta speed up!" super stress laa..

hmm, i STILL cant figure out why the hell weilong can come up wif so many rubbish and nonsensical stuff.. ok, we were at canteen one having our brunch after the infa test and he freaking came up wif alot of stupid things.. one very hilarious part was when he speak wif a malaysian accent in his voice.. wahaha! its super super funny!! make me stop my eating for a while to calm myself down before continuing.. wah!! i reali wonder if there's one day when he's ever serious and solemn-looking.. ay, highly impossible laa.. but i reckon it's reali good to hav such a crapper ard to liven up the atmosphere.. one more thing, hey da she tou, thx for ur.....(u noe wad) lots and lots and lots of thanks =))
and i noe u come by almost everyday, y dun wanna tag! except, dun tag nonsense k..

10:38 PM
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Wednesday, July 13, 2005
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went for sakae buffet wif jarrel, guang, eunice and wen at heeren.. haiyo 3 of them late as expected.. the buffet was great... i starve myself since i woke up juz for e buffet.. and u muz b thinking i ate alot.. hmm, actually come to think of it, ok laa... i din eat alot.. but it was a great time there wif the rest of them... when we ate ard 28 plates, i suggested we challenged 40 plates.. haha so we were lik how many how many more plates to our target and kept ordering.. in the end, we got ard 40 plates laa.. cheers~ hmm tink my taste-buds different frm them.. i ordered spicy salmon which was one of my fav, eunice complained it sucks and wen said it was too spicy.. apparently, that boon there cant tak spicy stuff.. tell me u're lousy pls..wahaha.. yea i had my all-time fav i-scream, mochi!! yummylicious! the guys kept ordering agadeshi tofu countless times so i reckon they reali luv it.. no wonder they(wen n jarrel) hav fair skin u see.. juz lik the tofu.. lol.. reali enjoyed myself.. THX JARREL FOR THE TREAT AT SAKAE! u tak great care til the nxt time i see u kays..

went to k-pool at cine since they wanted to play.. i tell u, u can laugh til u roll on e floor if u guys were there, witnessing the hilarious scene.. apparently, jarrel n guang juz couldn't stop tripping the white ball over the ball they wanted to hit.. and guess wad, it was not on purpose.. tt makes it even more funny.. lol.. i cant join in the fun cos of my wound so..nonetheless, it was fun watching them play.. oh ya, spore idol leandra was juz at the table nxt to us.. and jarrel was lik, "how can it be her? so fat meh?" haha so bad la he.. she wasn't that fat except she had a tummy.. den after a while, me and wen went to walk walk.. guess wad! we saw terrence cao guo hui!! wah he's super handsome i tell u.. got a great physique.. oh my, he's juz so gorgeous..

hmm... why am i feeling sad to part? its not as if i wont b seeing u again.. i shld b glad that it had started.. but i duno y.. was overwhelmed by sadness when we part..hai.. thx for every single word u said.. it reali make me feel happy.. no others can gif me that feeling except u..

10:40 PM
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Tuesday, July 12, 2005
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i'm glad i held on to my belief.. no words can describe my feelings right now.. it happened all like a dream.. looking at u, i noe wad's beautiful.. juz so glad to hav u.. i hope in tis journey, u wont give up or let go easily cos i wont... i noe how much all tis meant to me right now and i hope u noe it too...

bcos its u, that's y i believe

8:51 PM
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Monday, July 11, 2005
la-la-la

the movie-Be With You is super nice.. catch it if u guys hav the chance.. the lil boy in the movie is soooo cute... highly recommended~

to the one out there,
reali thx for everything.. i appreciate every single thing u did and said.. am so sorry to make u go thru the ordeal twice kays.. the scene wil stay rooted in my mind.. wahaha.. hav faith in urself.. and i reali reali wont regret.. trust me.. stop wasting my tears k~ i wan u to waste my laughs and smiles instead =))

uniquely unique`

10:42 PM
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
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A couple were speeding over 100 mph on the road ...
Girl: Slow down. Im scared.
Guy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary!
Guy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Slow down!
Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
*Girl hugs him*
Guy: Can you take my helmet off & put it on yourself? Its bugging me.
(In the paper the next day):A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 survived.
The truth was that halfway down the road,the guy realized that his breaks broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know.Instead, he had her say she loved him & felt her hug 1 last time, then had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

ahh!! tis is super super touching!!
ppl, pls cherish the ppl ard u b4 he/she is taken away even before u hav time to react.. anithing is possible.. cos nth is permanent except change..quite true huh... so pls ppl, tak a lil effort to show care and concern to the ppl ard u.. let them noe that there's still ppl in tis world hu appreciate their existence.. it helps a great deal trust me.. juz a lil effort of urs can change ppl's world drastically..u nv noe wad such a small act can do.. it can create miracles actually..

1:33 AM
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Saturday, July 09, 2005
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MR ONG CHUN HUI! happy now? see ur name already? big enough rite.. pls stop ALL ur crappiness and nonsence kays.. tt time got one entry on MR TOAD is u wad..stil sae i din mention bout u.. cock-eye or wad.. and stop ur gei xian thingy.. if u dun blieve wadeva shit i tell u den dun ask since u hav ur own ans to the questions u asked me.. u duno how irritating that can be... u think our frenship for this 5 yrs is fake one is it.. or u think i dun care bout u this fren? i wont forget u de loh..neva means neva.. say wad tok to u waste my phone bills..do u reali think i'll think tt way? even if i slp late or my ears feel itchy due to the long hrs on e phone, i wont mind loh.. seriously i wont.. y do u doubt me den.. haiz.. duno how to sae den will get all this drilled inside ur head.. u think we're peanuts and b1&b2 all fake one is it.. no matter how much i cared about u as a fren u oso wont believe.. wad u wan me to do den? tell me...

12:21 AM
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Friday, July 08, 2005
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all is fine~! lalala`

yeah got jj's admission ticket to his concert in np~! went to library to slack wif wen and while away time before goin for my medical app at NUH.. time seem to pass so quickly.. went off at ard 3pm cos wen oso having lesson at that time.. the feeling of fear and anxiety is simply too overwhelming when i alighted the shuttle bus and made my way to clinic B.. scenes that happened a few mths back kept appearing in my mind.. it was making it worse..trust me.. i hated everything about it.. the smell, the environment and most imptly, the status of me being a patient goin there... i reckon i was rather strong to face all this myself.. cos the thought of goin for app alone was quite frightening.. nevertheless, i calmed myself down occasionally and tried to think of other things to occupy my mind.. went for my 18th and 19th x ray.. and i cant blieve that i've gone for so many in just a short time.. hope it doesn't shorten my life span though... went back to clinic B wif my huge file of x-rays and waited for my turn.. when it was finally my turn, i went in petrified, until i see an unfamiliar but smiling face greeting me.. it made me so much beta... cos the specialist who operated on me always give me pressure when i look at him.. somehow or rather, he had this look which.. eh i duno how to describe.. but the feeling is terrible and he aint making me feeling any beta.. ok, everything ended and went to buona vista mrt meet wen.. ahh~ couldn't get up the 1st bus as there were too many ppl.. so gotta wait for e nxt one.. so sorry wen that u waited for ard half an hr.. sorry~ tis sow din see me laa when apparently he was looking down at the escalator which i was standing on.. lousy...

headed to city hall to meet eunice n guang to go vch for op's band and choir concert.. it was great~!! both performances were wonderful.. hey joaquim chorale, u guys were reali great~!! thx for keeping up the standard of joaquim chorale..hope after this yr's batch of sec 4s leave, the nxt committee will strive on to keep the choir goin and also strive for greater heights.. i noe u guys can do it.. jia you! all the songs u guys sang tonight was simply nice and i reali enjoyed every pieces of songs sung.. ur beloved senior here will always keep u guys in my heart =))

all of us-guang, wen, eunice and me, were famished after the concert...apparrently all of us din hav anything before the concert.. i only had a packet of milk in the morning and sandwich at 1pm. -starvation is terrible-

went to esplanade!! eunice's fav place.. there was a slight breeze and soo cooling.. walking down there was a great feeling.. so relax and mind is perfectly at ease.. went to ThaiExpress for dinner.. nice food~!

home sweet home`

hey wen-ygnr-monkeyking-sow-ahwo, happy 17th bdae~!! hope u enjoy ur bday and that it'll b different frm the previous yrs.. jus wanna let u noe ure a great person and nv fail to make the ppl ard u smile.. thx for everything. EVERYTHING, be it ur crappiness, lame jokes, funny expressions, serious look, idiotic look..etc.. cant imagine if sow is not here to di siao me, tease me.. anyway, hope u enjoy urself on ur bday~! =))

2:37 AM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Thursday, July 07, 2005
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i duno wad came over me.. y did i react that way? i noe i din wanna do that.. and i din wan the situation to b like how it was.. hai... i was just upset wif myself and no one else.. hope u understand that am not angry wif u.. reali.. frm e bottom of my heart.. shldn't hav compelled u to do that.. seek for ur understanding..

the unspoken are all in my heart.. sorry is wad i wanna say.

-sorry-

10:37 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005
la-la-la

went to sch early today.. met wen 7am at yishun mrt.. wah..its super early for me can.. actually wanna attend the make up lesson for snw-dancesports.. but due to some reasons, i din go...so went to library instead. had hotdog bread for beakfast..its nice laa.. den read newspaper.. here begins my pig journey.. found myself a comfortable corner and sat there n zzzZZZzzz.. listening to songs at e same time.. was woken up occasionally by numbness in my legs and ppl knocking on the shelf i'm leaning to.. was reali feeling lethargic laa.. slpt frm 9-11.15 until wen came to look for me after his CATS lesson.. he asked me"y are u hiding in one corner?" haha cos he walked one round thru e second level cant find me.. but i wasn't hiding laa.. think it was his visual prob instead.lol..i so big cant see meh..

slacked in lib til 12.30 den went for CATS.. boring boring lesson.. it only lasted for ard 45 min.. how fun~ lalala.. dancesports was fun once again.. time seem to pass quicky while we're dancing.. quite relax laa.. its lik we dun perspire one.. great..

scc was ok...it was the monthly performance programme today..hmm.. expected smth better but it turned out otherwise.. think probably its due to the nervousness laa.. first time maa.. understandable..

wahaha, so happy.. its london its london~!! oh my r u kidding me... wen made a bet wif me.. i bet on london while he, on paris.. the bet-a movie ticket... yeah..lol.. first time since so many times my guess is correct! wahaha.. =))

11:12 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Tuesday, July 05, 2005
la-la-la

ahh~!! i had leg cramps in the morning AGAIN!! i reali hate it.. y cant they juz leave me alone? and probably find my foreva-sleeping-so-soundly(lik a pig) sis.. wahaha.. i reali reali hope i wont hav any anymore.. it always made me tear due to the excruciating pain..
-leave me alone will u?-

okays am finally done wif my ocom presentaion.. so damn nervous laa n think i stumble over alot of words.. shit.. forget it.. shall improve on my oral skills... i hav a comment to make.. weilong~! great job today.. at least u were not as nervous as e cip presentation.. n u manage to bring some laughter and smiles across the class.. thx for breaking the so stiff atmosphere ya? its gd to hav u ard.. BUT, do control on ur yakking k? if u dun wan another slap by me n ju..wahaha.. one more thing, u're smart today laa.. muz b so happy rite.. =))

wah~!! beckham went to nyp today loh~!! so envious.. eunice was so excited when she msged me.. ha can see frm her msg ya... den during my lect, taiyun called n he was saying "hey pris, u noe wad? bec.." and got interrupted by me.. "ya i noe, beckham is in ur sch~!stop telling me tt and mak me jealous!" haha.. he was lik eh how u noe? he stil dare to tell me seeing beck is not satisfying enough! wa lao!! okay, he n his grp of frenz dun reali lik him ya.. so... haha... its supposed to be confidential but it doesn't seem e least lik it was.. good for those who saw him or at least caught a glimpse of him..haiz... so sad cant see him.. its lik so rare for superstar beckham to cum to singapore loh! n i missed this great opportunity.. how gd~ eunice was like "i saw him! he's so handsome! so friendly! he's wearing all white" n bla bla.. wah...for e first time ever i wished i was a NYP student.. ok.. fine.. there goes my prince charming...

am so sleepy today..my eyes juz cant seem to open.. after lect, met ah wo.. he asked "u veri tired today ahh" ok wheneva am veri veri veri n its reali veri tired, my face dun look gd ya. hope my face wasn't that black to lead ah wo mistaking that am in a bad mood... am not laaa... veri soon, i was back to my usual self and started smiling endlessly..lol...

je-mb-y---> great.. haha. i luv e mrt i luv e mrt i luv e mrt... haha ok pardon me.. i juz lik to sit in it n see e diff ppl in e train n e diff things happening in tt particaular cabin.. its fun laa.. hope i hav a supernatural power that when i laugh or giggle it wont b visible to ppl.. wahaha... =))

to e sow of sows, u made me change my impression of u when u ans my q correctly!! wahaha.. ok, u shld show more of ur intelligence n knowledge(or is there any in e first place?) kays? and ur yawning logic sounds quite rational n logical..
i believed wad u said laa but mayb my expression tells u i dun.. so u tot i was being sarcastic when i ans u... but i WASN'T.. haha..

11:05 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Monday, July 04, 2005
la-la-la

everything happens for a reason.. and so, i shldn't ask too much about the things revolving ard me now.. is that so? but i can't help but to probe further.. why why n why? alot of whys in my head now.. and i cant seem to ans any of them.. tis is such a terrible feeling..

letting nature takes its course has always been my belief.. cos im a strong fate-believer.. so i couldn't blame for e things happening cos i believe they happen cos there's a significant reason to it.. many a times i trusted my intuition... but ironically, i doubt it tis time... i duno why.. but i duno how to express this unsureness and skepticism of mine...

tis is juz e beginning to everything... though obstacles exist to bring it to a further stage, but its oso e obstacles which put a stop to everything that very fateful yr.. they definitely put a strong test to ur endurance and all... so was it my fault den? haiz...

i reali hate the feeling of regret..

11:15 PM
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indescribable emotions
unsolvable thoughts
who'll be there to guide me?
no one i guess
i juz have to depend on my intuition once again

12:37 AM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Sunday, July 03, 2005
la-la-la

seeing ppl struggling for their lives and keeping themselves moving reali touched my heart... esp the young children.. they're so small and innocent..and yet, they've to face the cruelty of reality.. in contrast, they're the stronger ones compared to their parents.. comforting their beloved parents and telling them not to worry for them when they're in pain and silently tolerating all the misery.. it's juz so heart-wrenching seeing them at such a young age, fighting to keep their lives goin and unable to do wad the normal children are doin... instead, they've to spend their time on treatment day after day, hoping that their fate will change for the better.. only finding themselves waiting to no avail.. hai... wad have they done to deserve all this? shldn't life has better things in stored for them other than misery? crying is the only way they can expressed their sorrow and agony.. deep down, who reali knows wad they're goin through...

just hoping these people can stay strong and dun give up on their life..

-praying that miracles happen for them..

``sobbing convulsively

11:22 PM
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Saturday, July 02, 2005
la-la-la

watched encore of superstar.. ah!! wei jian is good~ his vocals n all are reali fabulous.. and, he has got short tongue~! haha so cute... hope he can get thru e elimination rounds successfully.. he lived up to his name of ex scc president in NP. great job~!

muz admit M5(the one hu got e highest score) has reali wonderful techniques n vocal too but too bad, he din made it thru.. to me, i think he's e best singer among the males... however, he lacked luck n mass appeal which are i can say, the most impt factors tt determine ur victory or loss in a competition. lik superstar, no matter how well u sing and how wonderful ur voice is, as long as u lacked e two factors, u're out of e game. how sad...

it's unfair laa..but in tis world, wad's fair? everyone gets their fair share of luck, opportunites, happiness and sadness.. it depends whether u cherished e chances available to u den.. so if u're at e peak of ur emotions, dun be too glad.. things may juz turn ard on u.. u nvr noe... tt's wad made me scaread n petrified... triggered alot of thinking in my mind.. it made me cherish the ppl and things ard me even more. cos am reali scared of losing e wonderfuls in my life now.. esp if u've once had it and the next thing u noe, its out of ur life.. its gonna be so devastating.. juz the thought of it makes me unbearably scared.. yes, memories are able to tak u thru ur life journey.. but, are memories good enough? it nvr will be.. never ever.. ppl come n go, wad matters is u make the effort to hold on to the belief u had, to make the wonderful ppl stay in ur life forever.. temporary isn't enough.. eternity is the word.. try n try.. u nvr noe the dream u had a few years back wil be fulfilled in time to come... everything is just so unpredictable..

it nvr crossed my mind to have all this now.. the sorrow i felt den, u cant understand.. burying all the unhappiness and sadness within me is bad enough but i was so unlucky to just witnessed the most hated sight juz a few mths back.. putting up a strong front is reali miserable.. i reali tried to let my emotions flow.. it did.. but it flowed within my own heart.. nvr letting u noe how much i cared and all bcos i noe it'll all be meaningless... but now, things hav gotten beta.. the question is, will it go back to how it used to be? i cant tolerate another wave of uncertainties...

u nvr noe how much all this meant to me... a great impact.. a great deal of memories..

bcos its u, that's why i believe...

9:12 AM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Friday, July 01, 2005
la-la-la

reached sch early again.. ok i think am reali deprived of sleep..but no choice cos if i reach early at least there's my sis hu'll wake me up n ensure am not late.. i juz cant depend on my alarm clock.. why is tt so..i wan an ans too.. haiz... i juz kept snoozing my alarm clock only to find myself late.. n i reali hate tt feeling..

ok i think i had a leg cramp ydae which was terrible.. i reali hated cramps esp when i'm having my beauty slp.. e funny thing is, i juz realised i had cramps while walking down e stairs back home, which was ard 12.15am? ya, after a day passed den i realised. lol.. stm is getting serious~!! ahh hope leg cramps can leave me alone foreva..

the movie, alot lik luv, disappointed me..i expected it to b nice and all but it turned out to be otherwise.. too draggy.. some wrong concepts..ha shan't elaborate.. so, i wldn't recommend tis movie to others.. save e money n watch war of e worlds instead.. think it'll be much beta, interesting n more value for money...

sometimes when things are goin your way,
u ask urself if the bad ones are coming...

10:12 AM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.