1:53 AM
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HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!!my bro's birthday today..and i guess its his happiest bdae which he'd celebrated ba.. just got home with many presents.. the key is the presents are kinda expensive.. he's blessed laa... sports and wellness is officially over..which means dancesports is over too.. hmm...overwhelmed with mixed feelings..to be happy or sad?? i reali had a good 12 weeks of dancing cha cha and salsa which in the learning process, i enjoyed myself alot alot.. thanks to our instructor and of cos the wonderful dance mates in the afternoon session.. i guess everyone went for dancesports with a super nervous and petrified feeling cos we're supposed to have our test to indicate whether we pass or fail this snw. BUT, it turned out otherwise.. instructor were lenient with us and allowed 3 couples at a time which was initially set at a couple a time.. oh my, this just made us so relieved.. dance dance dance.. actually it wasn't so much so of a test laa.. just to make sure we are familiar with the routine and can dance with the tempo/beat... super fun larhs! i think i'll miss them real badly.. dancesports has always been a fun activity which relaxes my whole body and mind.. compared to other snw like volleyball or wateva sports, dancesports is certainly much more relaxed.. need not run...need not perspire.. plus, we're ALWAYS in the air-con... see, how fortunate... oh my... i am so gonna miss dancesports!! i hate myself. shan't elaborate. i noe, my heart noes. useless bum i am.
12:13 AM
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
la-la-la
had sch at 9 today.. millions of thanks to bb for walking me to the mrt early in the morning although u dun needa go sch today.. *deeply appreciated*
on the way to sch, received lynette's msg saying that ocom class postponed to 930 instead of 9.. haiyo.. always last min one lo... always have a feeling of premonition when i sees lynette's msg..haha..its either the class is cancelled or postponed.. ocom TT session 2 wasn't that nerve-breaking as compared to the first session.. and expected, i was the first few.. think the 4th? ydae i said hope i get smth on national policies..in the end it reali turned out to be a topic on that.. "5 day work week" that's great... guess everyone did pretty well today..at least better than the previous two times.. and, jocelyn, u can go be fortune teller liao..if not go buy 4D this weekend, sure strike one!! lol...
as the lesson was delayed half an hr, there wasn't enough time for everyone to complete the grading session.. the class wanted to continue with the ocom TT but we had infa tutorial, the graded classwork on at that time slot.. moreover those who haven completed the ocom wore formal today and it doesn't make any donkey sense for them to wear it again another day..and we had a hard time to compromise on everyone's timing..realised not everyone can make it on other days...so why not just continue today.. but the thing is, our infa teacher wants us there to complete the classwork.. had some form of voting session and weighing the pros n cons of each situation-whether to continue wif ocom or go for infa. brandon called ms annie chiu and she said the classwork will be rescheduled on another day.. but brandon says she doesn't sound too happy.. in fact she said "don't bother to come for class" hmm... bcos of this, we stood and reflected on our decision.. realised it wasn't right for us to choose/insist to go for ocom when it was supposed to be infa lessons. and we dun wan ms annie chiu to blame ms chen cos it wasn't her fault AT ALL. in the end, we went for infa.. apologised to ms annie chiu..completed our classwork and ya.. ocom make-up lesson on thurs...
took train back to yishun and met bb for lunch.. hai..so worried for him cos his stomach haven fully recover yet.. go n see a doctor can bb? serious noe...had been goin on for days.. so stubborn oso dun wanna stay hm and rest instead wanna come out acc me.. had chicken rice.. AFTER i finished, bb said he wans chicken rice oso when he rejected eating when i asked him before i bought mine.. haha..the uncle must be thinking "haiyo why this boy crazy one..wait for gf to eat finish den order.." haha... went to hunt for the titbits i was craving.. not selling at mini marts, shop n save, ntuc, cheers, 7-11... BUT, i managed to find it at cold storage!! hee.. happy happy...
hmm...for the first time in my life.. i was glad at my indecisiveness back then.. cos if it wasn't so, guess i wont have the blessed life im leading now.. when everything seems to be so bleak 3 yrs back, now the sky has cleared and a rainbow emerged out.. will the rainbow be there forever? stormy skies and dull clouds left.. but the q is.. will they come again? everything is beautiful after the rain cos den there'll be sunshine.. but similarly, after the sunshine, there'll certainly be rain.. so, will my rainbow ever leave again? nothing is permanent in this world except change.. but because its you, i believe. i held on to this belief strongly and tell myself that yes, miracle has happened in my life. the most important and long-awaited miracle.
11:16 PM
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Monday, August 29, 2005
la-la-la
today was a nervous, fun, enjoyable yet tiring day... finally we had our ocom TT session 1 grading today..everyone was damn nervous laa..but im glad we all pulled it through... there's 2nd round tmr... but i guess not that scared already bcos ya.. secret... so hope TA01 will do better tmr! so coincidence i picked the same topic as wad i chose for my rehearsal lo... "customer is always right" i hope i get smth from national policies tmr...
bb's stomach wasn't feeling gd ydae.. and im glad it was better today... hopefully u recover fully kays... if not i'll be super worried... was touched at what u told me in the lib today..reali... i trust u kays bb.. i reali do. so dun worry... =))
took mrt to bugis to meet eunice.. saw a super duper cute baby in the train!! ahhh.. reali reali very cute and lovable lo... feel like kissing him/her.. haha pardon me..im lousy at differentiating babies' gender... lol.. back to the point.. he/she is reali cute.. i swear.. if only my very own baby will be as cute as him/her...
saw bestie-eunice at last.. its like we've not seen each other for at least a month.. now, she's having her break as she's done with her exams for sem 1.. how gd it is for her.. lol.. nvm.. our turn will come soooonnn... anyways... i reali miss her to bits laa.. imagine last 5 yrs, we get to see each other everyday.. and its from morning 615am to 630pm lo.. 12 whole hrs u noe.. its just so glad to have her around.. cos she's crazy.. and always make me go insane with her too..wahaha... ok, she'll get me for this... but its reali veri different now that we only get to see each other hmm once in every 2 weeks? but im sure we'll be seeing each other more often esp now she's having her holidays and mine is coming soon... after guang reached bugis, we went harbin palace!!
harbin is a wonderful place!! the moment we're inside the palace, we're cold already.. instantly one lo... super cold.. the temp is -10 degrees celcius lo imagine!!! and how often do we experience this kinda cold? almost neva.. our hands, eyes, lips, face were all so cold.. and we dun hav gloves.. we played the slide a few times.. quite fun laa.. except my buttock hit the rough edge and it reali hurts.. lol.. took ALOT of photos.. and i reali mean alot.. many many many... almost all the figurines were taken.. the place is simply beautiful... they have figurines like the eiffel tower, merlion, pyramid, some egyptian models etc.. splendidly beautiful with the effect of the diff colour lights.. it was reali a gd experience for the 4 of us.. and a gd gathering too.. although it was reali cold... the coldness is somewhat diff to the cold u ppl would expect.. it gives u the feeling of pain to ur skin cos the temp is super low.. and, we had a super hard time looking for the exit!!! we look like idiots searching for the exit and we kept goin around the same places.. at last when we found the exit, the feeling of stepping out of the palace onto a place with normal temp can be seen frm our faces... we were ALL RELIEVED. i reckon if we were to stay there any longer, we will be frozen.. serious.. its that cold..
went to the foodcourt to get smth hot. guang n eunice had their dinner... took mrt back.. indeed a memorable day for the 4 of us... hope that the next gathering will come by soon.. i want my holidays!!!
12:07 AM
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Sunday, August 28, 2005
la-la-la
yay, finally my internet is back... i need not sit in front of my lappy looking like an idiot waiting for connection again...lol.. this is just great...
tmr having the finally-its-here ocom TT.. it was postponed to tmr as our teacher was sick last tue.. ahh... so nervous... so scared... must wear formal again...heels again... my leg gonna b painful again... arghh... but hope everything goes on fine for everyone..
hmm... thx bb for the comforting and assuring words u said to me today.. reali thanks a million.. it healed my heart, my sadness, my sorrow.. u nvr noe how those words played magic on me. =)) im reali sorry for always doin the u-know-wad-thing that u dun like to see me do... but u reali must noe one thing... it was not ur fault.. u cant stop it cos me myself also dunno how to stop it.. i'll try my very best not to do it kays... cos i dun wan to see u sad... thx for every single word u said.. they were greatly appreciated.. really...
its the most important promise to me in my life and i dun wan it to be broken...
11:07 PM
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Saturday, August 27, 2005
la-la-la
Im so useless..so lousy..I just hate myself
You're the one who could give me everything I want
The happiness which no one could ever give, the level of laughter, the endless smile on my face
The amount of love I can give to someone wasn't known to me until you came along
Everything everything is wad you can give me
Yet,
Im not the one who can give you the quantity of care and concern you need whenever u're down..
Not even the one whom you could rely on when you needed me most..
Why am I so useless?
Can anyone tell me?
You wont know how it is like to feel this way
Its just so hurting..I feel as if Im nothing in your world
Hai
I really dont want you to keep everything in your heart and act as if u're happy/fine whenever u're with me
I'll start to wonder if the smile on your face is from within your heart..is it genuine?
dun act smiley as if there's nth wrong even if it is to make me happy
I'll just be even sadder, even more reproachful of myself
I dun want to be the only one happy and you being so sad..I want both of us to be happy.. If there's anything on your mind just tell me
We're supposed to walk this journey together aren't we?
Wadever the case, I'll stand by you and we will overcome the obstacle together
Just dun keep everything to yourself..
If there's a need to be so quiet about everything you face, then why am I beside you?
I hope u understand my point cos I believe you wont want me to keep everything to myself either..
Just put yourself in my shoes and u will understand the feeling Im going through now..
I know you dun want me to bother about anything whenever I’m with you
But do you think I'll feel assured and happy if you’re always keeping things to yourself, or even worse, suffering silently?
This journey we took requires both our effort to keep it going..not just you alone..
And the happiness is supposed to be shared by both of us..
I hope you get my point..
And,
I know you dun like me to apologize
But this time, I really want to say sorry to you
Sorry for letting you feel that way
Its my fault, not urs..
SORRY
12:23 AM
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Friday, August 26, 2005
la-la-la
sch was pretty alright today...econs lecture covered some impt points we needa take note for the exam... den came stats tutorial..the xian shen xiao jie lesson..lol.. super funny laa!! Mr Ong told us a funny habit he has.. and that is.. to collect this thing that supports your chopsticks in restaurants.. super weird can? i've nv come across anyone who has that freaking habit lo..lol.. and he insists he din steal..he just take.. lol..and he explained two things that must be fulfilled in order to be considered a crime..no 1-the mind to commit that and no 2- the act of commiting.. this two applied in his actions wad.. cos he had the intention of taking it back and he acted by bringing it back..so doesn't that mean he had commited a crime? haha..wadeva..
had pastamania for lunch at cine... yummylicious! better than the one at causeway lo.. there like no standard de.. den bb n i played the mrt again.. lol.. trigger the memories we had in the train back den.. when he was so silly yet cute.. MB-->JE-->Y
oh ya, thx wei long for ur coins!
thx b2 for coming by.. i noe though u din tag.. AGAIN! haha.. shall forgive u on the account that u consoled me and gave me some pretty gd advice..reali thanks so much b2.. i will try my v best to stop my active tearing glands from acting up again.. cos i wanna be younger than you!! wahaha.. according to this guy, he says if u cry less, u'll look younger.. give him e benefit of the doubt la har... lol..I DUN WANT CHICKEN ESSENCE!!
10:28 PM
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Thursday, August 25, 2005
la-la-la
sorry guys for not updating these few days.. was reali super busy laa.. ydae was a fun and happy day..went to sch only for SnW-dancesports.. CATS ended last week and man, i kinda miss my bald and super blur tutor Mr Yong CH..wahaha.. dancesports was fun fun and more fun! our spore no 1 coach is back from his abroad competition.. din noe how it went for him cos he din comment.. but i guess that he's considered gd cos he has the opportunity and standard to go abroad for competition.. we revised our salsa and cha cha which will be tested next week which is goin to be the last week.. kinda fun.. he taught us new steps for our cha cha and that rounded up the whole routine for that dance.. hmm..hopefully nth goes wrong next week.. hope i dun screw up the dance due to nervousness... god bless... i think i'm so gonna miss dancesports.. well, that's apart from the teacher laa.. haha... so bad.. i'll miss moving my body for some exercise.. miss my dance partners.. the oh-so-smoothing music.. the crap that davio always come up making our coach wanna puke out blood.. the funny yet enjoyable 2 hrs spent there.. the dance studio.. ok laa.. guess i'll miss some of the crap and lame stuff our instructor always say.. i tell u, its super funny when he says smth lame.. u duno whether to laugh anot cos his expression totally contradicts wad he's saying.. its smth like he's saying a joke but gives a solemn and serious look.. total crap laa.. but he certainly makes this whole learning process enjoyable for us...
during the journey back to yishun, baobei and i played some games initiated by him.. well, its kinda fun laa.. he's super funny can.. we started off with the continue-the-word game(chinese).. den the fruit game which proved to be all so interesting.. we're supposed to list out the fruits we know alternately.. the one who can list the last fruit wins... haha.. i won!! by just merely.. and the last fruit i listed was guava! i so like guava now.. wahaha.. and yes, i tot of pong pong too.. and yes its a fruit boy.. so i won him by 2 fruits!
today went back to sch for econs tutorial only.. i skipped infa lect cos i reckon even if im there, nth will get into my head.. so ya... i seriously love econs class... cos Mr Pon's lessons are foreva so interesting! weilong foreva get teased by pon and the whole class.. lol.. poor him... but think his skin so thick oso nvm one rite =PpP
oh yes, ydae went SIM for lunch wif BB.. den my stats tutor Mr Ong Poh Leng suddenly knocked on my table when he walked past.. gave me a shock can.. tmr got his lessons.. and gotta listen to him go "xian shen, xiao jie" again.. and his "ahhhh" lol..
go do his hmwk now... til then..
7:49 PM
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
la-la-la
woke up earlier today to acc bb to sch and do some reading for ocom tt preparation.. who knows, when i reached sch, lynette msged me and sae ocom tt postpone cos teacher not feeling well!! ahh! and so, i wore formal for nth..wore heels for nth.. and wasted one plaster on my feet.. y always so last minute de.. haiyo.. but to be optimistic, this is beta as we're given more time to read up articles on those topics and get ourselves more prepared..
so im free all the way until 2pm and now is only 845am.. think i go do my cip reflection and survey... tata``
8:46 AM
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Monday, August 22, 2005
la-la-la
change of skin AGAIN! the previous blog skin apparently has some problems with the picture as those who have been visiting my blog frequently shld noe... anyway, thx to those who come by =)) tag b4 u leave if possible.. escept for lazy bums like bi bu bi bu.. oh well...b2 doesn't bother about b1 anymore..
sch has been super busy and stressful for me this two weeks.. but have cleared quite a no. of things already.. like the cip presentation and infa test we had today.. the cats reflection due on wed is done.. and the most stressful econs is also completed... now only left wif tmr's ocom table topic discussion.. ok this is super scary especially we'll be thrown a topic and be expected to react in the one min given.. now look, its only one min.. and during this precious 1 min, we have to do alot of processing in the brain.. like the contents we have to talk about, the egs we're supposed to give(if any), the structuring of everything, etc... arghhh!! how am i gonna survive tmr? hope everything goes well for my whole class and of cos. my bb, who's having his TT this fri.. jia you everyone! =))
this 2 weeks has been reali stressful and now im given a few days grace to relax A LITTLE.. cos the major examinations are coming in 2 weeks time.. oh my.. so many things to accomplished during the one week break.. and i bet we have to come back to sch for consultation, extra lessons and stuff..so tell me, is 24 hrs a day enough? NO ITS NOT!! ahh... ok, i just have to console myself by telling myself after the exams will be the long-awaited break! and yes, lots of fun and enjoyable things will be done! till then, TA01, let's all not rest on our laurels.. strive hard! and bb too!
hai... wad happen again.. why cant i seem to understand the consequences of me doin that? i dun wanna make u feel bad.. i dun wanna see u so miserable.. i dun wanna let u feel useless cos u're not... but why?? the strangeness of it all bewilders me.. i dun wish to do that, but why wont my mind follow? i noe how much all this matters to me and wont wanna spoil anything.. i noe how much of affection i have for u... i noe how much we cherish each other.. but why? i'm reali sorry for always tearing.. i think i shld just go for an op to remove my tearing glands/nerves or wadeva.. so that i wont make u feel bad anymore.. irregardless of wad happen, my love will stay constant and unmovable..
pls believe me.. all those that i've said are words of my truthful heart.. they bear no lies and no motive/intention of lying so as to assure u i'm fine..
nth will change for the worse, only for the better..
11:15 PM
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Friday, August 19, 2005
la-la-la
another round of dejection.. wad is this man... Superstar is getting worse.. i reali dun understand wad the heck sporeans wan.. Junyang, blessed wif a fresh look and wonderful vocal got kicked out ydae... just tell me how unfair god is... and on the other hand, the one w/o the looks and not-as-gd vocal gets in and emerged as the winner!! even wei jian can sing a million, trillion, zillion times better than him can!! super agitated now.. as known, this is supposed to be a competition looking for someone hu can sing and looks gd too.. audience's votes shld not take up 70% of the overall score..they shld place more emphasis on the vocal part and change to 50%-audience votes 50%-actual score instead. this sounds more reasonable and logical cos the aim of the competition is to discover a talent, someone who CAN SING. and junyang can REALI sing.. his vocals are one that u can hardly find faults to pinpoint on(except the previous time when he went off tune due to his illness and this is definitely understandable).. this blow was definitely devastating after the super-vocal, black horse xinhui got kicked out and kelly won. ok i must admit comparing the two, kelly is the one who has the X factor, the looks and is more fashion-style.. but in terms of vocals, xinhui definitely outshine her.. see, unfair!! oh my, reali duno wad this competition has come to.. in a stage of skeptism and reality which proves to be so unfair to the talented ones... well, this is life. and now, i have to change the one im supporting AGAIN(cos when weijian was voted out, i decided to support junyang hardcore) and now, attention on kelly poon cos i dun wan bb to buy 100 copies of weilian's album, which he said he would if he was the winner! *prays hard*
::meaningful::
Love is like catching a train
Though there's always a next train
should you miss the previous one
But it'd take you to a different destination
Have you missed your train?
or Have you just alighted?
Waiting for the next train........
for me, i've boarded the train for quite some time and i dun intend and i wont alight the train i'm in now forever for i noe, ive met the one in my life, enough to last me a lifetime of happiness. =)) *HUGU HUGU*
11:50 AM
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why cant i control them? why do they always cascade down even though i tried my very best to hold them back? i just dun wan them to cause sadness and agony to us again.. hai.. i guess wad i said that day was too harsh.. i wont have the courage to do as i said if u did that again.. i was just trying to ensure u wont do that again.. to let u realise u were wrong.. nth more.. i cherish u deeply.. so i wont let go and say quits easily... forever is too harsh a word on negative impact.. nevertheless, u're stil my everything.. no less... i dun wanna see u teary again alright.. if not i wont be able to control mine.. *smiles*
thanks for entertaining me everyday GU wen... lol =P
-E.T.E.R.N.I.T.Y-
11:27 AM
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
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hmm... i noe there's problem wif my blog.. the pic n navigations cant be seen.. i'll only change the skin when im free which is like goin to take me another few weeks cos im seriously veri bz wif sch.. projects, tutorials and tests coming up.. super stress... arghh... so sorry for the inconvenience caused.. but u guys can actually anyhow click on the right until u clicked onto the navigations and smth diff comes out.. it'll be the same except u cant see the links.. lol.. millions of apologies!
11:50 PM
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
la-la-la
hey peepos, sorry for not updating my blog cos my internet is down.. so if u see me online or blogging this few days, it means i'm tapping on other ppl's connection..wahaha.. me n my sis are so grateful to the one using linksys connection near us... thanks though u may not see it.. lol... alright... sunday went to watch the last round of fireworks at esplanade wif bb.. oh my, this round's one was way more beautiful than the previous ones.. reali... diff patterns lit up the dull sky.. and most importantly, it went on for about 10 odd minutes? was always thinking when is it going to stop.. but surprises seem never-ending.. compared to the previous rounds which only lasted for at most 5 minutes, this time round was more worthwhile.. super nice laa.. splendidly beautiful. i luv to go to esplanade bcos there's a possibility that me n bb will go kenny roger(suntec's) to eat..and i simply luv the mac n cheese there... super yummy... just cant seem to get sick of it...
suppressing my feelings within doesn't seem to be my forte.. my tearing glands seem to be so so weak.. sometimes i just hate this part of me.. i noe nth except to cry cry n cry.. and wad i detest most is not so much of the feeling of sadness... but to see the one u luv and cherish so deeply feel the same sadness and agony in ur heart.. its very heartbreaking to see u feel sad but at the same time try to smile and assure me u're fine so as not to make me worry.. but that sight of u putting up a strong front makes me even want to pour out my tears.. i'm so sorry.. reali veri sorry.. i tried my very best to stop them.. but they just cascaded convulsively.. never knew how this sight of me would cause such a pain in u.. each time i looked into ur teary eyes, i'm reminded of the scene at u-know-where, crying for u-know-what.. u know the reason why.. and i reali hope that fateful day wont come.. bcos if it did, my heart will lose a reason to keep thumping.. my eyes will lose a reason to shine brightly like how it is now.. my laughter will lose a reason to laugh at the slightest thing i witnessed.. and my soul will lose a reason to keep going, staying optimistic about almost everything.. but bcos now u're here with me, everything seem so beautiful.. even the dullest scene, i can see slight colours.. u're reali very important in my life and just the thought of losing you is bad enough.. or shld i say, terrifying enough... everything i told u that night(14.8.05) are frm the bottom of my heart.. i meant every single word i said.. yes, fate indeed brought us back after 5 yrs.. how amazing.. like u, i wont give up easily.. neva will i.. *promise* nobody knows wad will happen the next day, so we shld smile everyday n be happy.. rough patches and bumpy roads may obstruct our journey along the way, but i believe we'll hold on to each other very strongly and bypass all the obstacles present.. this is my belief bcos i have absolute faith in you.. =)) thanks for always giving in to me and tolerating my willfulness...all the small little things u did for me are remembered in my heart.. God isn't fair.. why? because he blessed me wif u and no others can have u.. i truly appreciate your existence not in this world, but in my heart.. our goal-- ETERNITY
on a lighter note...today bb so cute laa!! he told me a small secret of his which made me laugh n smile non-stop and he couldn't help but feel paiseh.. wahaha... u're so silly la bb.. ok shhhh, i wont tell kays.. lol.. i wont forget that!! haha... you also cant okays although u'll feel shy.. cos its just so special.. at least to me laa.. lol...
bb revealed another secret to me.. wahaha.. super super silly of him laa.. dun think the things u've done are stupid..haha..bcos in my eyes, they proved to be so cute of u.. come to think of them now..i can easily laugh and tell myself "hey, i've reali got a cute bb" haha.. thanks for wadeva u've done.. reali.. i'll always be reminded of them, in a silly way.. lol... heart heart u =D
10:26 PM
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Friday, August 12, 2005
la-la-la
uncertainty always reign over expected situations.. been casted upon some questioning thoughts.. well, was it partly bcos of me again? i thought i made things clear.. i thought my advice was taken in n absorbed to be of some gd use.. but nv would i expect those precious words to fall on deaf ears.. were u literally deaf when i was telling u all those things? so as to affirm ur own emotions? ya so now u tell me, its me. wad can i say... refusing to acknowledge den, and now this. aren't u contradicting urself... when it was the same all along... when the amount and certainty of his all stood constant.. so abrupt, magical brushes did their job and painted his life to be a rainbow again.. to b happy or to b sad... u decide. ppl have eyes to see, to judge. but most imptly, ppl have a heart, to feel. to get it thru tis way isn't a glory though u cant help but do that... but at the end of the day, do u want things to be how it is now? when u'd done the same and got nth in return previously but now, everything seems to go ur way smoothly. sympathy will nv ever result in true love. even if it did, eternity would nv occur. the bottom-line: ____________ fill in the blanks urself cos i choose to reserve mine.
6:07 PM
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Thursday, August 11, 2005
la-la-la
thursday...hmm, i hadn't reali liked thursday before.. but today, it was an exception.. bb acc me to sch as i got bstats lecture at nine.. had titbits for breakfast..haha..i simply lurve titbits... bb crashed my lecture.. he was supposed to be doing his bstats tutorial..but being a lazy pig, he slept.. haiyo... but i was glad he was just right beside me =))
infa lecture at 12.. signed up for the zest thing.. smth like we play the role of tour-guides when sec sch students come to our sch.. can gain 4 cca points.. so bu na bai bu na.. lol.. almost my whole class signed up for that... after lecture, went to wait for bb outside his classroom.. since he din do his hw, he had to stay a lil longer than the rest.. one of his frenz, beng chow, was like "ni zai deng guowen ahh... ta mei you zuo gong ke, ying gai mei you na me kuai.." so funny la he... after awhile, bb came out.. he got back his stats test 2.. glad that he made improvement.. hey boy, u can do well if u dun giv up and keep trying! jia you =D
slacked in lib til 350pm den i go for my infa hand-in classwork thinggy at 73A.. ok, it was supposed to be individual work as the classwork is graded and it costs a pathetic 2.5 marks. but, in the end, we were like discussing laa.. haha.. done the ws in 15 min time.. and we reckoned it was the most relaxed and easiest classwork of all..
todae is me n bb 1st month.. actually he wanted to treat me to Jack's Place but i felt it was way too ex.. a steak costs $26.. but we can get a set of it at only $18.90++(cant rmb exactly the price but definitely cheaper than the night one) which includes soup-of-the-day, deserts and coffee/tea..during lunch time.. see, it wouldn't be worthwhile to dine in during dinner time.. so, in the end, we went to pastamania.. yummylicious!! den went to swenson's to hav ice-cream.. woo... nice... bb surprised me wif a present.. i tell u, i was super shocked+happy+touched.. cos its like we're tog everyday den it din occur to me he has the time to go buy one... but, being my special one and only, he has his ways.. ok, shall not sae.. but bb, i was reali touched by wad u did.. thanks for the meal and the lovely gift.. nxt time dun be so silly to..... u noe wad... heehee..
-Happy 1st month-
moral of the day: dun underestimate the one hr u hav... wahaha =P
11:06 PM
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arghhh!!! super super sad now laa... meiyan, i can understand ur feelings now when sebas was voted out... weijian!!! u'll 4eva be our superstar in our hearts.. pls dun giv up ur dream as a singer.. continue to bring out the best in u cos we had already seen a wonderful singer-to-be when u perform every week.. strive on and im sure we ppl will always rmb u as the cute and talented singer DERRICK HOH WEI JIAN. -jia you =))
okay, now things hav changed drastically.. supposed wei jian's fans all hardcore support jun yang now le.. including me.. jun yang junyang go go go!
-foreva in our hearts-
12:23 AM
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
la-la-la
Singapore's 40th bday ydae.. woohoo~! Happy happy bday! hmm, my stomach upset thingy shld b ok le since it has not acted up for two days.. so, am stil praying hard that it has fully recover cos its simply bad to experience that.. u wont wanna go thru that.. reali hav to thank bb lots for taking gd care of me.. duno wad to do if he's not by my side.. so, thanks a trillion!
sch has been great except that there are many things piling up, esp since tis week is e-learning which means alot of things hav to be done online and self learning.. tis also means this super procrastinator here is goin to wait wait n wait foreva to get things done.. ok, i reali hate this part of me.. stats test 2 just over.. ok, i managed to survive that. come to think of it, its not that difficult.. just that one q carries 5 marks which is considered "expensive".. even for theory q loh.. oh my.. think e teacher hu set the marking doesn't noe wad's ratio man... one word ans 5 marks, long working steps q ALSO 5 marks.. ok, wad is this... and not forgetting, the q and a we get are lik super weird laa.. but i reckon that if the teacher hu set the paper was MR_________(fill in the blanks urself, TA01 peeps shld noe) it is not that strange cos he himself is an eccentric person.. ok, i'll b dead if he sees this.. wahaha..
went to esplanade ydae to see the fireworks.. omb, its fantabulous!! super super super nice... i believe those who went will agree wif me rite? *nods head* haha.. reali nice..i let out sighs of exclaimation countless times.. went "wooo, wah, nice, hen mei leh" haha.. and the great thing was, ydae's fireworks were nicer than the previous time me n bb saw.. i simply love the orangee part where it seems like there are glittering orange strings coming down frm the sky nearly reaching us.. its a wonder and a beauty to witness that.. the sparks always seem to be dropping down on us.. awesome feeling.. hope can go catch another round of fireworks this coming sunday which will also be the last round..
okay i hate to comment on this, but u noe, sometimes selfish and kiasu singaporeans just get on my nerves.. was waiting for the mrt at jurong east mrt station today.. when the train arrived, this idiotic uncle so scared he cant get a freaking place in the mrt WHEN HE"S STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE LINE!! omb, how irritating can this be.. and its fine wif me provided he dun push me.. BUT, he did, and so, i was freaking pissed.. and he was so eager to get into the train that he was pushing and initially bb was right behind me, den it became HE was right behind me and was so damn close to me laa.. i was so irritated.. come on laa, is he dumb or is he dumb.. ya he's dumb cos there's no other alternatives available.. super duper dumb loh.. doesn't he has some brains to figure out he can get into the train somehow since he's standing right in front? even if he doesn't hav brains, think he oso has eyes to judge for himself wad.. so u see, he can do NEITHER so he's dumb.. den when bb got into the train, he shook his head and i starting on my never-ending complaints.. i was saying "zhen de shi hen zhu de leh, you bu shi bu ke yi ji jing lai" den that kuku looked and stared at me and so, i stared back.. hey pls, u're the one being stupid and unreasonable and yet u stil hav the cheek to stare at me..and ya, I STILL RMB UR KUKU FACE SO IF I "HAPPEN"(i may search for u) TO SEE U AGAIN, THE MOUSETRAP WILL DO ITS JOB! wahaha...pls go for some interdisciplinary lessons.. thankyouverimuch.
ok, pardon me.. am reali pissed.. but im stil the cheerful pris u guys noe.. dun doubt urself.. wahaha.. just that these ppl reali irritate me.. okays, wooosshh, im off! tata
1:55 PM
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Monday, August 08, 2005
la-la-la
three simple words but it meant the world to me...
blessed to have u =DD
10:18 PM
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
la-la-la
i duno wad to sae...
it wont be of any meaning if u do smth just for the sake of doin it..
my mistake, my fault
silence is not equals to the perceived meaning u had in ur mind..
1:05 AM
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Friday, August 05, 2005
la-la-la
i had a terrible morning ydae.. was feeling excruciating pain in my stomach when i woke up.. actually already had stomachache the night before but i thot it was just normal shitting pain so din reali bother about it.. who noes, it persisted right frm ydae morning til sch and now too.. was so weak and lethargic during the journey to sch ydae.. lie on bb's shoulder and was feeling giddy+stomachache+urge to vomit... arghhh! its just so uncomfortable.. when the train was approaching jurong east mrt station, i vommited.. ok tis is gross.. i vomitted right in the middle of the cabin bb and i was in cos it so coincidentally happened that i was sitting on the middle seat.. vomitted twice.. think caught bb in a frenzy of the moment.. he was like "got tissue? faster take tissue and wipe" according to him, alot of stuff came out frm my mouth.. i was so weak all over.. bb helped to wipe off the vomit on my hands and helped me to the seats outside.. things were better after the vomit.. but in sch, the pain came again.. no appetite, veri lethargic n weak.. so in the end, i only had a honeydew and cheese pancake ydae for the whole day.. and i felt so bad to make bb worry for me that he only had oreo biscuits frm morning til 7pm.. can u imagine? he's a super big eater wif an ultra big appetite.. but he din eat a proper meal.. hai.. so sorry k bb...
today felt so much beta cos i took medicine ydae night.. came to sch wif bb in better spirits.. had sandwich for breakfast den he walked me to LT for my class... stomach was stil turning and churning inside.. felt so uncomfortable.. frm ydae to today duno i shit how many times le.. camp in the toilet for countless times.. with bb ard it reali make things better.. he was always there to ask how was i feeling and all..
BB, thanks so much for being by my side, for making me feel a lil of comfort even at the worst times, for worrying about me til u skipped ur meals, for meeting me before ur lesson although u were already late for it just to see how was i feeling, for bringing plastic bag afraid that i'll vomit again, for bringing medicine for me, for taking gd care of me.. reali reali millions, trillions and zillions of thanks.. think u already qualify to be my nanny..haha... wad i wan to sae is, ur presence by my side reali made me feel alot better... seeing u worried makes me feel so heart-renching... thx for every single thing u did.. *appreciated*
-iloveyou-
oh ya, derrick hoh wei jian got in successfully!! ahhh, so so sooooo happy! however, i din run ard like a mad cow cheering and all(which i did for the past few thurs btw 1130 to 12am) due to my illness... anyways, hope he can continue wif his excellent performance the next few weeks..
will 'u' go away sooonnn? i dun wan bb to worry for me... thankuverimuch.
4:02 PM
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005
la-la-la
bb acc me to sch in the morning though his lesson starts at 11..thx so much! =)) ocom was fun as usual cos Ms Chen PeiYi aka The Royal Highness was there to entertain us.. she told us about her trip to HongKong and she got reali excited when she talked about a handbag she wanted so badly to buy in spore which costs $129nett but wif the same design and everything, she got it at less than $30 at HK.. haha.. the way she speaks is just so comical wif her gestures and all.. and, she brought some food for us back-dried kiwi and biscuits.. they were yummy~ so nice of her =))
infa elearning this week which means we dun needa attend workshop today and so, we had a freaking long 3 hr break before our cip and ocom lecture at 2pm. we were deciding where to go until zhen yue suggested k-lunch.. all got so excited and immediately agreed on that.. haha.. there were 8 of us..went to clementi's k-box... it was raining monkeys and donkeys when we reached and it was freaking coldd!! first time k-boxing wif my classmates and it was reali fun! had a great time singing.. as a result we missed or rather we ponned the cip lecture at 2pm and was slightly late for the ocom lecture at 3pm. we reached at ard ehhh 3.05? haha.. all bcoming so naughty le ahh TA01 gals~ those living near sch were like "wa lao, feel like goin home now.." while we were at the bus-stop waiting for bus.. haha.. lucky our student cards all with bryan cos we noe we wont be in time to tap our cards.. lol.. one more thing, we had a reali great time teasing lynette and bryan AND kelvin huh.. dun u gals agree... wahahaha... lynette, just admit it =D
ocom was super boring.. wad the heck the lecturer talking we couldn't make it out.. its that bad.. we left earlier while a video was being shown.. see, i said we(TA01 gals) are getting naughtier.. haha... that pig stil inside the LT dilly dally duno wad before he came out. super slow laa.. no wonder u're a P.I.G... lol...
am starving terribly now cos i only had 2 sandwiches today for my breakfast+lunch+dinner... oh, how great...
flip flop flip flop
flip flop flop flip
flip flip flop flop
flip flup flap flap
flap flip flup flop
flup flup flap flip
ok, am not being crazy here... its our languange... bwahahaha..
11:06 PM
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Monday, August 01, 2005
la-la-la
am in the sch's canteen waiting for bb wen to end his class at 11 before we go for our lunch.. dun have any class in the morning as its e-learning week for infa.. i was reading the Today article until a lady approached me and offered to share wif me smth about God-Jesus. i was taken aback when she came to my table.. didn't noe how to reject her request, i agreed to listen to wad she has to say.. i knew i was in for a gd session of baptising... but i reckon its not goin to make a difference to wad i believe, so.. i'll just donate some of my newspaper time to her...
it wasn't long before she starts to praise Jesus after asking me questions like hav i ever heard about Him before..and wad do i think of Him and stuff... barely a minute after she sat down and speak to me, her praises for Him were never-ending.. i dun blame her.. cos frm her sincere look, i can see how much she believes in Him and wants so badly to share her love for God to others. She claimed she wanted to share her part of story so that ppl can be saved by God just by believing in Him. She talked about sins and asked me "Do u think God like this world full of sinful ppl?" my ans was quite instant saying a firm "No." But she shook her head and said "No, God still loves them even though they'd chosen to forsake him and lead their sinful life." my first reaction was "wow!" i admit i was touched by wad she said cos u imagine, its the same as u're a bad rotten egg who is shunned away by many many ppl but there's this one person who stood by you all along and gave u support, care and concern regardless of ur sinful nature. sounds great isn't it? she went on and on telling me that God exchanged his life for ppl bcos he loved us and he's willing to pay for our sins wif his veri own life and give us eternity.according to her, this is true ONLY IF you believed in Him.. i wasn't very much shaken from my firm standpoint(that i shld remain a free thinker) so i just nod my head cos i duno wad and how to ans her.
seeing her disappointed and disheartened look on her face when i refused to 'go for a once a week bible reading session' which simply means goin to church, was quite a terrible feeling within me. Not bcos i want to be in the arms of God but couldn't. instead, it was bcos i noe how awful it is to feel rejection. there was this issue she touched on about the heaven and hell thing which i so badly wanted to ask her is it true that ONLY christians go to heaven... bcos i duno why all christians sae that to ppl whenever they're sharing their story about Him.
probably i dun feel much of a connection to God and so wasn't in the least interested in getting to know Him more though am reali curious wad's in a bible.. perhaps it'll solve some of my doubts, but no, i dun wanna take on this path, at least for now. i'm fine with ppl talking to me about God just that they dun go overboard like forcing me to attend church.. that's alright with me. ppl have their freedom to choose wad they believe in and no one can object or protest to their belief..
somehow or rather i felt that ppl who think that they love God are probably more obsessed wif Him. they give me the feeling of obsession to Him probably bcos they love him too much? i duno... but they're not wrong to do that, so just let them be.
10:36 AM
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National Day is coming~! am so excited... cos can go see the fireworks again!! ahhh...am so looking forward.. one thing i reali like about national day is to see every block of HDB flats having their spore flags hung up there proudly.. it reali make me smile if i see a whole blk doin it which i thought, is super rare.. there'll be some kukus who forget or dun even bother to do that simple gesture on such a special day. hang for a few days/weeks like expecting alot frm them like that.. haiyo... will die meh... putting the flag up is one thing. but putting it up CORRECTLY as in, in the right way, is another... whenever i see ppl putting it up wif the crescent and stars on the right(its supposed to be on the left), i will laugh and den think how silly and blur can sporeans get... i mean, this goes to show they put it up just for the sake of putting...when they're hanging it out, do they even stop and think if its the correct way? its just a couple of seconds.. perhaps they just cant be bothered.. den y even put it up in the first place.. and its not a minority mind u.. everytime i spot it, i'll tell wen if he's with me.. and i think i had alrdy told him like @#$$%^&&%^*^*&!@# of times.. ha..he's probably sick of me pointing it out to him i guess.. SPOREANS!! haiz... looking out the window now and i dun see a single flag being hung up... oh my.. this is such a shitty feeling...
fireworks fireworks fireworks!! im ccomiinngg!! =D
12:06 AM
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