Monday, August 01, 2005
la-la-la
am in the sch's canteen waiting for bb wen to end his class at 11 before we go for our lunch.. dun have any class in the morning as its e-learning week for infa.. i was reading the Today article until a lady approached me and offered to share wif me smth about God-Jesus. i was taken aback when she came to my table.. didn't noe how to reject her request, i agreed to listen to wad she has to say.. i knew i was in for a gd session of baptising... but i reckon its not goin to make a difference to wad i believe, so.. i'll just donate some of my newspaper time to her...
it wasn't long before she starts to praise Jesus after asking me questions like hav i ever heard about Him before..and wad do i think of Him and stuff... barely a minute after she sat down and speak to me, her praises for Him were never-ending.. i dun blame her.. cos frm her sincere look, i can see how much she believes in Him and wants so badly to share her love for God to others. She claimed she wanted to share her part of story so that ppl can be saved by God just by believing in Him. She talked about sins and asked me "Do u think God like this world full of sinful ppl?" my ans was quite instant saying a firm "No." But she shook her head and said "No, God still loves them even though they'd chosen to forsake him and lead their sinful life." my first reaction was "wow!" i admit i was touched by wad she said cos u imagine, its the same as u're a bad rotten egg who is shunned away by many many ppl but there's this one person who stood by you all along and gave u support, care and concern regardless of ur sinful nature. sounds great isn't it? she went on and on telling me that God exchanged his life for ppl bcos he loved us and he's willing to pay for our sins wif his veri own life and give us eternity.according to her, this is true ONLY IF you believed in Him.. i wasn't very much shaken from my firm standpoint(that i shld remain a free thinker) so i just nod my head cos i duno wad and how to ans her.
seeing her disappointed and disheartened look on her face when i refused to 'go for a once a week bible reading session' which simply means goin to church, was quite a terrible feeling within me. Not bcos i want to be in the arms of God but couldn't. instead, it was bcos i noe how awful it is to feel rejection. there was this issue she touched on about the heaven and hell thing which i so badly wanted to ask her is it true that ONLY christians go to heaven... bcos i duno why all christians sae that to ppl whenever they're sharing their story about Him.
probably i dun feel much of a connection to God and so wasn't in the least interested in getting to know Him more though am reali curious wad's in a bible.. perhaps it'll solve some of my doubts, but no, i dun wanna take on this path, at least for now. i'm fine with ppl talking to me about God just that they dun go overboard like forcing me to attend church.. that's alright with me. ppl have their freedom to choose wad they believe in and no one can object or protest to their belief..
somehow or rather i felt that ppl who think that they love God are probably more obsessed wif Him. they give me the feeling of obsession to Him probably bcos they love him too much? i duno... but they're not wrong to do that, so just let them be.
10:36 AM
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