Tuesday, August 16, 2005
la-la-la
hey peepos, sorry for not updating my blog cos my internet is down.. so if u see me online or blogging this few days, it means i'm tapping on other ppl's connection..wahaha.. me n my sis are so grateful to the one using linksys connection near us... thanks though u may not see it.. lol... alright... sunday went to watch the last round of fireworks at esplanade wif bb.. oh my, this round's one was way more beautiful than the previous ones.. reali... diff patterns lit up the dull sky.. and most importantly, it went on for about 10 odd minutes? was always thinking when is it going to stop.. but surprises seem never-ending.. compared to the previous rounds which only lasted for at most 5 minutes, this time round was more worthwhile.. super nice laa.. splendidly beautiful. i luv to go to esplanade bcos there's a possibility that me n bb will go kenny roger(suntec's) to eat..and i simply luv the mac n cheese there... super yummy... just cant seem to get sick of it...
suppressing my feelings within doesn't seem to be my forte.. my tearing glands seem to be so so weak.. sometimes i just hate this part of me.. i noe nth except to cry cry n cry.. and wad i detest most is not so much of the feeling of sadness... but to see the one u luv and cherish so deeply feel the same sadness and agony in ur heart.. its very heartbreaking to see u feel sad but at the same time try to smile and assure me u're fine so as not to make me worry.. but that sight of u putting up a strong front makes me even want to pour out my tears.. i'm so sorry.. reali veri sorry.. i tried my very best to stop them.. but they just cascaded convulsively.. never knew how this sight of me would cause such a pain in u.. each time i looked into ur teary eyes, i'm reminded of the scene at u-know-where, crying for u-know-what.. u know the reason why.. and i reali hope that fateful day wont come.. bcos if it did, my heart will lose a reason to keep thumping.. my eyes will lose a reason to shine brightly like how it is now.. my laughter will lose a reason to laugh at the slightest thing i witnessed.. and my soul will lose a reason to keep going, staying optimistic about almost everything.. but bcos now u're here with me, everything seem so beautiful.. even the dullest scene, i can see slight colours.. u're reali very important in my life and just the thought of losing you is bad enough.. or shld i say, terrifying enough... everything i told u that night(14.8.05) are frm the bottom of my heart.. i meant every single word i said.. yes, fate indeed brought us back after 5 yrs.. how amazing.. like u, i wont give up easily.. neva will i.. *promise* nobody knows wad will happen the next day, so we shld smile everyday n be happy.. rough patches and bumpy roads may obstruct our journey along the way, but i believe we'll hold on to each other very strongly and bypass all the obstacles present.. this is my belief bcos i have absolute faith in you.. =)) thanks for always giving in to me and tolerating my willfulness...all the small little things u did for me are remembered in my heart.. God isn't fair.. why? because he blessed me wif u and no others can have u.. i truly appreciate your existence not in this world, but in my heart.. our goal-- ETERNITY
on a lighter note...today bb so cute laa!! he told me a small secret of his which made me laugh n smile non-stop and he couldn't help but feel paiseh.. wahaha... u're so silly la bb.. ok shhhh, i wont tell kays.. lol.. i wont forget that!! haha... you also cant okays although u'll feel shy.. cos its just so special.. at least to me laa.. lol...
bb revealed another secret to me.. wahaha.. super super silly of him laa.. dun think the things u've done are stupid..haha..bcos in my eyes, they proved to be so cute of u.. come to think of them now..i can easily laugh and tell myself "hey, i've reali got a cute bb" haha.. thanks for wadeva u've done.. reali.. i'll always be reminded of them, in a silly way.. lol... heart heart u =D
10:26 PM
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