Saturday, August 27, 2005
la-la-la
Im so useless..so lousy..I just hate myself
You're the one who could give me everything I want
The happiness which no one could ever give, the level of laughter, the endless smile on my face
The amount of love I can give to someone wasn't known to me until you came along
Everything everything is wad you can give me
Yet,
Im not the one who can give you the quantity of care and concern you need whenever u're down..
Not even the one whom you could rely on when you needed me most..
Why am I so useless?
Can anyone tell me?
You wont know how it is like to feel this way
Its just so hurting..I feel as if Im nothing in your world
Hai
I really dont want you to keep everything in your heart and act as if u're happy/fine whenever u're with me
I'll start to wonder if the smile on your face is from within your heart..is it genuine?
dun act smiley as if there's nth wrong even if it is to make me happy
I'll just be even sadder, even more reproachful of myself
I dun want to be the only one happy and you being so sad..I want both of us to be happy.. If there's anything on your mind just tell me
We're supposed to walk this journey together aren't we?
Wadever the case, I'll stand by you and we will overcome the obstacle together
Just dun keep everything to yourself..
If there's a need to be so quiet about everything you face, then why am I beside you?
I hope u understand my point cos I believe you wont want me to keep everything to myself either..
Just put yourself in my shoes and u will understand the feeling Im going through now..
I know you dun want me to bother about anything whenever I’m with you
But do you think I'll feel assured and happy if you’re always keeping things to yourself, or even worse, suffering silently?
This journey we took requires both our effort to keep it going..not just you alone..
And the happiness is supposed to be shared by both of us..
I hope you get my point..
And,
I know you dun like me to apologize
But this time, I really want to say sorry to you
Sorry for letting you feel that way
Its my fault, not urs..
SORRY
12:23 AM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.