You are the BEST gift i have ever received ;

Mixed Emotions

I can't believe time passes so fast
It was all good with you around
Times with you i could not describe
I felt as if my heart were alive
I hoped you could feel it
The way that i did
It wasn't my imagination
Or muttering some incantation
You made me smiLe, laugh and grin
Words can't explain, it was like cookies n` cream
Staring into your eyes, so deep inside
I was trapped, i needed light
You gave me a purpose, a goal in life
I'm amazed at how you can make me feel this way
The way no others could
Fate isn't playing on me again, like how it did before
And i'm so glad that all this is the truth
A lifetime of happiness assured

Priscilla

Thursday, September 29, 2005
la-la-la

came by smth which was quite ponder-able.. wahahaa, wad stupid eng is that..LOL. my eng teacher will kill me for sure if she stumble upon this.. anyways, i was instantly hooked onto wad was registering into my brain while coming across this..

In life, we're seeking that special person who is right for us. But, you will come to realise that there's actually no right person, just different flavours of wrong. This is so because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. It isn't until you finally run up against your deepest demons-your unsolvable problems- the ones that make you who you truly are- that you're ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you are looking for. You are looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person, but the "right" wrong person--one you lovingly gaze upon and think, "you are that special person who is wrong for me in just the right way."

This really set me into deep thoughts.. i was thinking "wow, wad an oxymoron" but how true... the "right" wrong person... many a times, you will realise that life is not about finding the correct person, but someone you can love deeply and accept his everything be it postive or negative. no one is perfect and so, there's bound to have some flaws or shortcomings in the person you love wholeheartedly. sometimes, being wrong isn't really the issue. if you can accept the wrongness that you've witness, its alright ; alright in the sense that both parties can compromise or rather, give and take. For me, life has made me realise compromisation is essential. it proved to serve its purpose when an agreement has to be made which is fair to both. it may not always reach its level of effectiveness, but it definitely helps in a way or another. people make up of different characters need to compromise in order to derive at happiness. no one person is completely happy wif another, and so, by compromising, ppl learn to live with the other's flaw, not necessary happily but still, it helps. imagine if ppl refuse to compromise, they will realise they'll soon lose the one they love. and imagine, if you've found your lifelong mate but he/she has a part of him/her that you cannot tolerate and insist your own way of doing. wouldn't it be such a pity if both parties give each other up just bcos they cant reach a favourable agreement? maybe some of you out there don't know how hard/arduous it is to find someone whom u love deeply and one who in return reciprocate his/her feelings.. but to me, it's all so true, all so clear and vivid. i awaited for the happiness i have now for a toilsome 4 yrs. it's all so difficult. when i finally awaited, i told myself how blessed i am and that no matter wad, i will cherish this special one of mine. i went thru hell for the past yrs, acted as if im past caring about him, laugh my way thru each day though within me, sadness was overwhelming, and cried silently myself to slp occasionally. no one knows how i reali felt and gone through, maybe my bestie does. but other than her, i dont mention all of this to anyone. hai.. wad im trying to convey here is if u feel that you've found the one you want for life, try to accommodate to each other. if obstacles obstruct your way, dont give up easily. quitting will not solve the problem. learn not only to love, but also to cherish.

i've found mine. how about you?

8:22 PM
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Wednesday, September 28, 2005
la-la-la

woots! mahjong`ing at jarrel's hse just now... its fun, FUn , FUN!! i reali miss mahjong man.. so long din play already.. long til some of the rules forgotten.. but i manage to get them in my head after awhile.. nice nice, i love mahjong! mahjong mates foreva the same laa!! haha... bi bu, weiseng, jarrel and bb... but chalet think got more ppl involve ba.. ppl like yeeching, guang n eunice?? haha, later they silent killer tact team again and win our money.. wahahaha... somemore now they got power of love, mai siao siao.. sure more luck. LOL. hmm, previous mahjong stil got taiyun, but this dude says he's not touching mahjong this coming chalet! can u believe it.. why why.. just bcos u want to save the money for ur oh-so-precious trip to tokyo? haha.. visit that gal more impt is it? dun wan mahjong mates le.. sadded` back to the topic, mahjong was reali funny... with all the jiu kong (looks at BB, rofl), ALLSWELL(wahahahhaha, budget la jarrel!), etc.. alot of sound effects la.. and jarrel so blur! cannot game den game. in the end pay each of us $3.20. LOL. jarrel, next time b4 u game check ur tiles properly first! haha.. think he learnt his lesson. woohoo, reali fun playing mahjong with them.. looking forward to chalet! 4 more days and still counting down!

take care all! wanna have the chalet happily with everyone at their healthiest condition =))

p.s. dun get bitten by mosquitoes!! watch out for them!

1:03 AM
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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
la-la-la

lunch`ed with baobei just now.. AND AND AND, there's this freaking guy who asked my bb if he wanted cigarettes AGAIN! wah.. i'm super pissed laa..consecutive two days le! baobei ah baobei.. why do ppl think you smoke?? can show them ur darlie-white teeth next time those idiotic ppl ask u again? and i'll tell them how much i love your snow-white teeth unlike theirs..i hope i can go like "EEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeee, your teeth so black.... wanna make my bb teeth same like yours ahh? FAT HOPE AHH!" wahahaha... =))

i finished reading johnny angel just now.. ok, i noe im slow.. hmm.. its reali nice... its like when everything seems end of the world for you, things start to go on the right track unknowingly.. how i wish there reali is the presence of angels.. to come back to life to fix up loose ends which applies only to those who died abruptly. but, its good enough. imagine, that amount of time u're allowed back reali helps a great deal. and the unfinished business u left behind can be cleared.. if only i can be an angel when i die.. to come back to look over my loved ones. to uncover a purpose even me myself cannot comprehend.. cos i wouldn't want my loved ones to be wallowing in grief forever.. i want them to move on, though difficult. if only i'm allowed that short yet meaningful time back to life.. if only.. if only..

pls take good care of yourself. all i want is you to be safe and sound.

your presence=my happiness for life

10:02 PM
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Monday, September 26, 2005
la-la-la

movie'ed at cineleisure wif bb.

The Myth, a great movie!

initially i din reali thot it was a nice movie..

but as i watched, it seems to be getting more and more interesting.

its jackie chan's films and so,

needless to say, there're lots of crack-you-up fights and countermoves.

super hilarious.

feeling low or crestfallen now?

go watch it.

the smile will appear. eh no, ur laughter will be heard and it may be loud.

nice nice!!

its quite creative in the way its being directed.

the way the movie is changed frm this scene to the another is reali unique.

nice twists!

go watch it =))

baobei! u made me gave the hershey sundae pie a miss! i'm craving for it now u noe!!

we chatted about looks and character. for me, even if a gal is pretty or even very pretty but her character is reali bad, i wont consider her as beautiful at all. its like, i dun exactly use my eyes to judge people, i use my heart. =)) the other side of the coin.. if a gal is not that eye-catching, but she has reali gd character, perhaps i wont think that she's that ugly. instead, her level of beauty will be boosted up, at least to me. in this world, yes, ppl may judge u by ur looks at first.. but wad's more important is the character in u. this reali determines ur success in life be it career, relationship, friendship etc. looks may deceive, but ur character will always be within you and ppl may eventually discover. some ppl or rather childish and shallow ppl to be exact, choose their company of frenz base on looks. i think this is total crap. so wad if he/she is handsome/pretty?? its not all it takes to be ur fren isn't it? if looks is ever one of ur criteria to befriend a person, then u're a real shallow person. so ppl, wad i'm trying to sae here is that dun judge ppl by their looks. yucks, i sound so cliche. anyway, follow your heart in things u do. let ur heart do the judging.

my bro is down wif fever.. oh my.. he's always the one who eagerly drinks or eats tonic stuffs. he's damn kan jiong about his health one... den now he's sick. ironic eh? cos he turns out to be the weakest among the 4 of us. getwellsoon.

chalet is coming!! woohoo... mahjong, here i come!!

11:40 PM
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forget to add on something just now.. so im back again..

while walking to the bus stop wif bb, a guy asked if my bb wanted cigarettes. i was like wth!!! see la baobei.. must be the look on ur face... wahahaha.. i told bb that he shld've let that idiotic guy see how darlie-white his(mybb) teeth are.. come on ppl, ciga are bad for ur health! quit it.

hai... am bothered these days by wad i read at this gal's blog whose link was given by my sis. she lost her bf to an accident while playing street soccer. its so scary isn't it? he was stil very much alive and healthy few days back b4 that happened. and now, life was totally different for the gal. she's all alone. her bf is gone for good. gone forever. that guy even bought her a wedding band.. the q-whether he's proposing still lingers on the gal's mind. and neva will this be revealed. there's no one to ans her. hai... life is just so unpredictable. anything can happen. in the twinkling of an eye, everything can change drastically. and the most painful part, everything can be robbed away from u, just like that. so pls pls pls ppl, cherish your love ones.. i felt i could relate to that gal's feeling cos as i read, i tot of bb. tears were fighting to hold themselves back while reading those words in her blog. i felt i reali couldn't take it if it were him. too painful a truth. i dun wan to be all alone. i dun wan his absence in my life. i dun wan just memories of us left. i dun wan my life w/0 him. i dun wan my smiles and laughter to end.. hais... i wont be moving on, if i ever did, it'll probably take a long long time.. i wont accept another relationship.. i wont be myself anymore. nth will be the same. nth nth nth. poof, all gone. am reali petrified. everything can just be taken away from u and all happiness will be robbed away.. haiss..

BAOBEI:
pls pls take good care of yourself alright? everyday when u send me home and walking back, pls be alert while crossing the road ok? i know sometimes reali very late le, but pls keep ur eyes open big big while walking..can? u know i wan u to be fine. i dun wan anything bad to happen to you. reali fearful of wad the future holds for us.. but no matter wad, we shall live every day that we have together happily ok? life wouldn't be the same w/o you. pls dun abandon me and leave w/o telling. it will reali hurt a million, zillion. you are my life. w/o you, my life wouldn't be complete. so pls take good care of yourself. dun worry about me. i will too. cherish you lots. *iloveyou*

1:49 AM
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Sunday, September 25, 2005
la-la-la

the most productive sunday i've had since donkey years... met bb 830am at mac for breakfast.. after eating, his dad sent me to cck for my job as mentioned in the previous post-tuitioning. it was so nice of his dad.. thanks so much =))

overwhelmed by fear laa.. cos its my first time goin for in-house tuition.. kinda scary u know.. the P1 kid named Carin hmm.. .wad to sae.. she's ok laa.. quite attentive for the first 1.5 hrs. but after that, she gets distracted easily and wants to wander off to play. its quite diff to want a P1 kid to glue his/her butt to the chair for full 2 hrs w/o being distracted laa.. so its kinda understandable. i taught her chi today..wasn't that bad.. her mum told me she had brain tumor and had undergone a brain surgery 2 yrs back.. so she may be abit slow.. but she seems normal to me. hope the following weeks of tuition will be alright..

after tuition, bb's dad came to fetch me again. oh my, reali millions of thanks. not forgetting, the help he gave by helping us book our chalet.. and he went down personally to NSRCC to book can! ppl, pls show ur appreciation. thankuverymuch.

his dad dropped us at northpoint and we went jalan jalan cos not that hungry yet. after having our lunch at 900+(chicken rice), went back to np to slack a while b4 heading home...

thanks so much baobei for accompanying me =))
lotsa love.

considering the fact that i always pigged away my sundays' afternoons, today can be concluded as the most productive sunday spent since 35767852738256 months. LOL.

9:45 PM
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Saturday, September 24, 2005
la-la-la

saturday is always boring.. woke up at 1.20pm. wahaha.. cannot blame laa.. cos slept at ard 4 ydae..was on the phone wif bb after watching xiao zhu. nice chat! and thx so much for the "poem" u said =)) it made me able to sleep so sweetly...

got a job-tutioning. she's a primary one kid. and i'm glad its a she. LOL
come to think of it, P1 seems easy to teach as in the content. but the fact that she needs tuition at p1 is puzzling me. had a short chat wif her mum just now. she told me her daughter is abit slow and active which means she may not be able to concentrate during the 2 hr tuition. and im advised to be stern instead of amiable cos she may not be afraid of me then. oh my, this is a challenge.. how can i be stern towards a p1 kid.. and if she's a cute little pie, it'll just make things worse. so, pls pray hard for me.. hope she's not too difficult to handle.. $40 for 2 hrs. good money eh? and money is paid at the end of the 2hr session. how great~

wish me luck. =))

6:38 PM
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Friday, September 23, 2005
la-la-la

i had a terrible night ydae...
everything just seem wrong..
i could do nth to ease the agony..
i reali needed god,
or at least a clown.

this morning i wasn't too hopeful
seroiusly hope that the situation gets better
wishing my assurance will do magic..
but when i saw you,
u duno how i felt.
it was as if arrows pierced thru my heart.

teared, assured, hugged.
at last,
rainbow emerged after rain.
a lil of it at least..
it was more than enough.

poring into ur eyes,
i sensed wad i felt.
it was the same.

no matter wad,
u know the significance of u in my heart.
all i need is just ur trust.
i love you.

alright, today is a day looked forward to. bb n i took shuttle bus to mrt to meet eunice n guang. during the 5 min ride, we were crapping larh! and bb couldn't stop..
gan nina.. wahahaha.. inside joke. *looks at bb warningly*

reached mrt and we saw smth shocking! LOL. turbo speed ahh guang?! wahaha... headed to suntec's kbox. it has been a long time since we visited kbox. sing sang sung.. great feeling... especially since its wif bestie and guang.. and its like we haven met up for ^$*&*#^&%@#&^# days!! so i'm excited laa! lol.. bb, u better do ur best at the next kbox session.. u noe wad i mean! haha...

dinner`ed. crapped. laughed.
great time spent.
it has always been like this whenever 4 of us are out together.
hope that 20 30 yrs down the road,
we can stil meet up and joked like how we did today.
i love u guys!

specially to bestie:
heys, long time no see. and when i see u today, u look so happy and i'm so so so happy for u as well! just like how u were happy for me when u noe wen n i were together. u noe that feeling well don't u? LOL. seeing you so happy reali eased my heart. its like u've found ur true love once again. best wishes to u and guang ya? if he ever ever dare to bully you, u just need to give me a ring and i make sure he gets hell from me! trust me! so guang!! better treat my bestie well ahh! bestie, wish u happiness for life alright? and rmb the agreement of either of us being each other's bridesmaid depending on who gets married first. i'm looking forward to that day! u'll foreva be my bestest bud =))
i love u (guang n wen pls dun get jealous! haha)

12:11 AM
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Thursday, September 22, 2005
la-la-la

HAI
sometimes i reali wish i'm a wonderwoman..
to be able to satisfy everyone's wishes..
but i cant

icant.icant.icant.icant.icant.icant.

someone pls help me only if u're god.. if not, u wont be of much help
no
u wont be of any help

i seriously need a clown right before me now. i swear.

it still lingers

10:53 PM
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Wednesday, September 21, 2005
la-la-la

went to the library today.. borrowed two of Danielle Steel's books namely Johnny Angel and Second Chance... i'm a good girl okay... since i have the time to read now.. y not.. cos previously was too busy wif exams and all..

her books are nice.. one that i always enjoy reading.. they keep me captivated and reali hooked onto.. nice nice...

met baobei for lunch.. i just love crapping with him.. haha..

read half of chap one and my eyes cant take it.. blame it on the cooling weather! so make me wanna slp larh... no choice... so i pigged from 3.50 to 6. apparently i told my sis to wake me up at 5 cos i wanna watch xiao zhu but expected, i pigged all the way to 6 and gave up my show.. opportunity cost not that high cos there's stil a repeat later..ECONS!! wahaha... pardon me.. i'm goin kuku.. but let me go on.. i stil rmb the law of opportunity cost which goes "when the economy choose to produce additional unit of a good, increasing amount of the alternative goods have to be given up/forgone" woots.. proud of myself cos my memory isn't that bad considering the fact that i always throw everything away(as in out of my memory space) after exams.. AND, i din refer to any notes while typing tat shit alright... hee hee.. ok.. i'm satisfied.. back to the main topic.. i think i'm turning into a pig larh.. serious.. is it cos of my bb? wahaha.. he's one who's diff to wake him up and get him out of the bed can! *thinkingponderingwondering.8yrsdowntheroad*

ok la i admit, i'm just as bad(as him).. wahhaha

am so looking forward to friday!! K-BOX!! woots.. guang! u finally can come out!

when was the last time 4 of us came out to have fun??

chalet chalet!! its coming.. woohoo... ``excited

9:21 PM
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Tuesday, September 20, 2005
la-la-la

went for ZEST briefing in sch today.. ok, half the time most of us duno wad the heck we're supposed to do as coordinators.. all we know is that we have to be back in sch for lots of preparation and stuff.. the most idiotic part... gotta go to singtel and IRAS wif 2 other sec 3 students for duno-wad-purpose visit.. and transport isn't provided.. how great~ if our timetable clashes with the trip's timing, further arrangements have to be made... troublesome... but since its for the cca points, we just have to complete this. and 4 of us are in charge of 8 sec 3 babies... hope our "babies" are not that playful... if not, we're going to have a hard time...

when i reached home, i saw smth rare.. my bro was washing the dishes! isn't this rare.. in fact its super rare... and i bet he din do it willingly... must be told by either mum or dad to do so.. and he complained "wah er jie, wo bei qi fu" meaning he has been bullied... hello, washing the dishes called bullied ahh... my dad went to see doc den b4 he went out he said to my bro
dad: washing machine di di di liao duno how to go off it ahh
bro: i forget
dad: forget forget... play ur game den wont forget laa..(bro was playing maple then)

den my dad looked at me and we smiled.. haha, so happy at least my bro was told off... my dad helped do justice to me.. haha... i love my dad... =DD

dad asked bro to wash the wok since my wound stil haven recover. and bro continued playing his game.. after every few minutes, i asked him go wash..den he sae "u duno how to help ahh" wah!! he has the cheek to sae this to me... he has nv done any chores since donkey yrs can! and wheneva we're told by mum to do chores has he ever lend a helping hand? NO. did we ever sae that sentence to him b4? NO. and yet, he has the guts to sae that now... how infuriating.. oh well, i have an idiotic bro. sometimes i just wish i had an older one..

we're goin to the zoo zoo zoo
how about you you you...
*cracks into laughter looking at BB*
wahahaha... inside joke.

7:59 PM
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Monday, September 19, 2005
la-la-la

its always good to have you around..
my eyes sparkle more,
my smiles more radiant.

w/o you, wad will i do,
i don't know,
for everything seems meaningless.

cheerful, happy, blessed
the words to describe me.
it will always be,
if you are here with me.

always ecstatic,
enraptured i shall be.

dedicated to my one and only...

10:26 PM
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Sunday, September 18, 2005
la-la-la

an unproductive day spent.. all bcos of who?? ya, HER...

hai..

I MISS MY BAOBEI TO BITS!!

7:25 PM
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Saturday, September 17, 2005
la-la-la

i reali wonder.. aren't parents here by our side to guide us along.. to shower us wif care and concern and love... to reprimand us only when we're in the wrong and needs to face the music... isn't this the case? but why mine dun seem to be like that? why other ppl's parents can be so understanding and loving to their kids but mine cant? why?

it all began when i reached home...

mum: tmr stay hm ahh
me: tmr i goin to play candle
mum: play candle? so big le still wanna play?

i was about to defend myself but..

mum: u dun tell me u want to go play candle ahh... u better stay home tmr.. cannot go out!

see!! how idiotic can she get... i 17 yrs old den cannot go play candles ahh... den tmr she sure allow my 15 yr old bro to go out play.. now tell me wad's the diff? duno her brain is made of wad rubbish... i 17 yr old play candles got wrong ahh.. he's 15, and i'm 17. only older than him by 2 yrs lo... freaking hell!!! bias den sae bias laa.. everything he can do we cannot laa.. every hsehold chore we do he no need do laa... please lo.. he has a part to help out in the family too.. so y cant he just do smth to help out? it doesn't matter if he's a guy and we're gals.. who set the rule saying only gals shld do the hsehold chores?? idiotic idiotic idiotic!!! moodswing den vent anger on us.. pls go for some brain washing la u... and whenever we sae why cant bro do some hsehold chores she got nth to defend herself except by saying "u dun say all this things ahh.. tell u do then do.." STUPID RITE!!! arghhhhhh i'm goin bonkers with her ard... i wish i can seal up her bloody mouth!

I HATE HER!!!

11:10 PM
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Friday, September 16, 2005
la-la-la

set my alarm at 630am today..n i woke up at 740..so apparently i off-ed it again... it has always been like this.. somebodysaveme..

reached bus stop at 8 but bb n bestie stil haven reach.. lol.. kinda expected laa.. cos bb woke up only when i msged him..den bestie ahh.. being late is her habit?? haha... forever de lo she.. but nvm laa.. bus-ed to guang's blk.. took cab down to CDC(communicable disease centre) for his check up cos he has gotten dengue fever past few days.. so a blood test was needed so see if his platelets has risen.. if so, he is fine.. if not, he has to move his luggage to go for a "holiday" at CDC for a few days.. haha.. he had his blood test and we went for our brunch.. it was kinda wulu there cos it seems like there isn't any places for us to eat in altho we'd walked down the streets quite some time.. and we were directed by the security guard there somemore! haha.. nvm... finally found a place wif food.. settled down. eat eat eat, chat chat chat... den go back CDC to collect his blood test report.. and YAY, he is fine! thank god.. but he stil has to stay hm for a week b4 he can wander out..which is quite ke lian la cos he has been home since last thurs.. lol.. nvm.. we'll go kbox-ing straight away when u can get out of ur cage alright? hee... til then, take care!!

went back to CDC.. waited for god-damn-long la.. while waiting.. there's this uncle who insisted he wants to see the doc right away tho he has not made any appointment.. and since then, he has been making things diff for the nurse.. cant he just realise that others also have to wait til 4 until they can consult the doc? the same applies to him.. no one was given any priviledge.. so why shld there b an exception for him? haiyo... the way i see him talk ahh.. very rude and no manners lo.. y must he make things diff for the nurse? n he was blabbering non-stop about how he shld be seen by the doc immediately.. and he was saying "u this nurse duno anything... tot u work here for a few months den wad... work until so tough..go home slp laa.." he said all this in chi laa btw.. and it wasn't nice at all! i wondered if i was the nurse i wouldn't be as patient and would prolly give him one tight slap if he doesn't seal his oh-so-big-and-cant-stop-yakking mouth.. he was certainly a pest there.. created trouble for the nurse..wasted ppl's time.. attracted unnecessary attention.. wad was he thinking man! come on laa.. everyone was waiting..and why cant u just observe the regulations? pls use ur brains...

went back to guang's hse.. to acc him laa.. watched tv and apparently there wasn't any nice programs.. slacked most of the time...
oh ya, and we cabbed all day today..cos guang cant hurt himself.. most comfortable journey in my whole life travelling from place to place... we took cab 3 times.. thanks guang!

the chat was a gd one,
tho tears were cascading convulsively,
it healed my heart,
and urs too, i hope.
i promised,
and i will do it,
so pls believe.
thanks for everything said,
it made things alot better.
sadded, touched, happy
foreva as one
and i mean it.
FOREVER

=DD

8:56 PM
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Thursday, September 15, 2005
la-la-la

today is the start of our 6 weeks holiday... pastamania for lunch..den watched san ge hao ren aka one more chance.. a nice movie... very funny at some parts..but mostly very sad and touching... the bottom line of the movie proved to be so true in a realistic world in spore.. hope that the yellow ribbon campaign can wake those ppl up, especially to those who despise ex-convicts or refuse to give them a chance.. u noe smtimes all those ppl need is just a chance given to them to repent.. after the yrs in jail, im sure most of them had learnt their lesson.. they'd realised their mistake.. society's refusal to give them a chance can be disastrous.. broken families or even suicidal are possible.. so, pls give them a chance! bcos im sure when u've done smth wrong, u wld also like ppl to give u a chance..

pls bless him.. hope nth goes wrong.. get well soon...

-speechless-

12:02 AM
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Wednesday, September 14, 2005
la-la-la

nth to do.. so come blog again.. hmm... thinking back about the modules we've taken like stats and econs, i felt that i'll certainly miss the fun and laughter we had in our tutor's class.. this is especially true when i have Mr Ong Poh Leng and Mr Matthew Pon as my tutors... they're simply great... wonderful tutors is wad i would say.. i still rmb i din quite like Mr Ong during the first few lessons.. its like we cant communicate wif him and he's certainly an eccentric guy.. but as time goes by, i found that he's quite interesting... AND lazy which he admited himself..lol... his lessons are reali fun wif his "ahhh" and "xian sheng xiao jie" wahahahaha... i think i'll reali miss him badly.. lol... somemore today i saw him at the exam hall... den i wondered, will i ever get to be taught by him again? altho i dun reali like stats, but he reali made the lessons interesting... next, econs... this is a fun module... its like when u understand the concept and all, den everything just entangle itself.. unlike getting irritated when u dun understand a single bit of the graphs and diagrams... plus, we have a gd teacher.. Mr Pon!! he's veri funny laa... everytime in his lessons can laugh until stomach pain one... den always joke and make fun of weilong.. lol... reali reali wonderful learning process... no matter wad, i'm truly grateful for both their presence.. i'm gonna miss their lessons so badly!!!

11:43 PM
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woo...so long neva blog alrdy.. cos was afraid if blog den teacher cant see the cip reflections which was to be graded.. plus, was super busy with exams!! and sooooo happy now cos exams are finally over! its like F.I.N.A.L.L.Y. everyday mugging for the exams can reali go bonkers lo... either at woodlands lib, mac or BK.. can die ahh... try sitting there and concentrate for 5-6 hrs.. brain can go kuku.. butt can hurt.. AND the most pathetic thing was bb and i "celebrated" our 2nd month mugging..oh my.. so ke lian rite.. nvm, the following weeks are gonna be so relaxing! alot of things to do.. go out and enjoy wif bb, meet up wif so-long-nv-meet-up bestie, kbox, movie, find a job n the list goes on.. the next 6 weeks dun need to think about formulas, graphs, theory, bla bla.. so gd laa~ i'm loving it... i'm hoping for a chalet to catch up wif one another and most imptly, mahjong! hahaha... had sakae for dinner wif family except dad... NICE!! i've been craving for it since duno when lo.. and ydae in the bus heard someone saying to her fren sae go eat sakae.. den i was like!!! i oso want!! and mum was so gd to treat us today! super nice laa.. i wanted yam mochi and that extra da jie sae go cold storage and buy cos more value for money.. in the end wad.. NO YAM MOCHI!! wah lao.. i wanted to eat so badly laa.. but she so extraed sae go cold storage buy.. see laa.. she has her peach and i have none! arghh... forget it...

ydae so funny.. was taking mrt back to yishun after our exam.. den me n bb fell asleep.. when reached yishun, shuchen tapped me on my shoulder and asked if we were alighting at yishun... and i was like "so fast yishun alrdy ah!" thanked her den quickly woke bb up.. haha that pig ahh.. so tired.. but i know laa.. he has been mugging like hell.. everyday slp later than me and wake up earlier than me rite? i know.. hahaha... back to the topic... ahh... so paiseh laa.. imagine shuchen wasn't in the same cabin as us and we happily slp all the way to marina bay.. haha... i dun wanna repeat history.. lol... anyway, a reali big thank you to shuchen! (if u ever come by and chanced upon this entry) =))

tmr going to watch movie wif bb.. haha.. at last can enjoy le!! its always gd to have bb around.. feel v comfortable and at ease by his side.. most imptly, i can reali be very happy and laugh through the whole day.. everytime i think back about the memories be it gd or bad, happy or sad, angry or disappointed, i always felt it was quite unlikely for us to b tog again... hmm.. but im reali glad god blessed me wif u once again.. my life has been so meaningful..reali... thanks for every single thing bb... heart heart you =DD

8:31 PM
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Saturday, September 03, 2005
la-la-la

My reflections for CIP module
Computing & Information Processing (CIP) is a new module to me. It is the first time i'm exposed to computer stuff again after sec2. Needless to say, the contents covered in CIP are more in depth compared to sec2. CIP initially started out as a module i really detest because i self-proclaim i'm an IT idiot. I dun seem to be cut out for IT stuff and all. But as time passes and as weeks go by, i find that hey, CIP isn't that bad after all. In fact, CIP exposes me to IT information which i have little or no knowledge of at first. And now, I'm equipped with the essential IT information!

The syllabus covered, i would say, is very appropriate because i feel that at this level, the degree of information and concepts introduced to us should be just that. No more no less. Just nice. Also, they expose us to not only theory part of IT, but also involve hands-on practical which proved to be so useful in helping us understand the program better. I didn't kind of expect the things we learnt in this module because initially I felt that I was at a loss because IT seriously isn't my forte. But weeks went by, and I kind of adapted to the expectations of this module.

The workshops on MS Word, PowerPoint, Macromedia Dream weaver and Flash were certainly very useful and interesting. For me, I really enjoyed the workshops on Macromedia Dream weaver and Flash as we are given the freedom to create animation and stuff. It was really fun although I had zero knowledge about it at first. These workshops are appropriate in developing our IT hands-on skills because we were given exercises to do with specific instructions to guide us along. Afterwhich, we can play around with the programs and come up with something interesting. Not forgetting that we can consult our tutor whenever we face a problem and she can give us immediate guidance. This made it possible to develop our IT hands-on skills with exercises and guidelines available for us during the workshops. The workshop assignments have substantially increased my knowledge in using word processing and presentation software applications.

Definitely the PBL problems are authentic enough for me to learn better as they kind of exposed me and my group to the problems faced by existing companies in the society now. I feel as though we were really the IT experts to solve their problems. The problems we worked on seemed common in the society and given real-life examples, we were more aware of the problems that people faced. For me, it had helped in working effectively in teams as I had learnt to work with different people and their differences. There was an increase in diversity of views during discussions and analyzing the problems we faced had ultimately helped us work better in a team though I think that teamwork in my team can be improved. The two PBLs also greatly increased my confidence when speaking in front of many people and my presentation skills are definitely greatly improved too.I'm equipped with better problem solving skills after the two PBLs as when encountered with a particular problem, I turn to effective resources for help such as the internet and our CIP textbook. The internet had really helped me a lot in solving my problems as it provides a varsity of information and solutions.

The lecturers and tutors are helpful in my learning because without them, I think I'll still detest CIP as much as I did in the past. Especially my tutor Mrs. Sun, she's always so willing and patient to guide me along. She is approachable which made me more active in the assignments because i know that if I'm faced with a problem, she'll always be around to provide suggestions in helping me solve my problems. I feel that the class size of 40 is not a good size for effective learning to take place. This is especially true for workshops because they're hands-on practical which require us to work on the exercises given. For one single tutor to handle a class of 40 students doesn't seem to be good for the students as we need constant guidance and she wont be able to manage all of us at the same time. Probably the class size can be reduced to 20 students for effective learning to take place.

If there's one thing that I can change in CIP, it will have to be eliminating e-learning for workshops because as mentioned earlier, hands-on practical like workshops should be conducted in class with the tutor around so that whenever in doubt, we can get immediate consultation and guidance from them. This will enable us to have a better and stronger grasp on the programs.

I appreciate CIP module because it had taught me a lot, especially IT theory and concepts. The workshops and PBLs exposed me to better problem solving skills and enable me to understand better what CIP is all about. The assignments have been a valuable learning experience for me.

1:46 AM
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Thursday, September 01, 2005
la-la-la

SUPERSTAR... it has come to a stage whereby hopelessness has filled my heart whenever i watched this show.. first it was weijian, den junyang and xinhui which was double blow, and now... kelly isn't the winner.. oh my... weilian's performance for the first 2 songs weren't that bad.. but the last 3 songs, kelly definitely outshone him... kelly reali gave ppl a fresh and new feeling.. she performed like a superstar for every song... she gave audience her stage presence.. and her voice was all good tonight.. images were painted unknowingly when she sang.. hai... but in the end... weilian emerged as the winner.. i kinda expected it cos like i said earlier, am filled with ultimate hopelessness wheneva im watching this show.. hmm... afterall, it was set at audience's decision to determine the winner.. so nth much to say since ppl willingly vote for him... just hope that these ppl who're passionate about music and singing will continue their singing career/route. who knows, anyone of them may become the most popular singer around the world! AND, JJ lin jun jie was reali reali good!!! junyang sang well for guardian angel.. xinhui also... alright, i still think that both of them SHOULD be the winner for the guy/gal part of the competition.. well.. no choice..

went to mac acc bb have dinner.. chatted about the things we did last time during sec1 n 2.. haha so funny! everything started out in a normal day.. feelings grew.. obstacles came.. went our separate ways.. THEN, back again... i guess i will hold on tightly.. cos i noe the feeling of the overwhelming sadness if i were to lose u.. the terrifying feeling if i dun have you... thinking back, we were reali funny during those days! super cute larh u... lol..

12:06 AM
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