You are the BEST gift i have ever received ;

Mixed Emotions

I can't believe time passes so fast
It was all good with you around
Times with you i could not describe
I felt as if my heart were alive
I hoped you could feel it
The way that i did
It wasn't my imagination
Or muttering some incantation
You made me smiLe, laugh and grin
Words can't explain, it was like cookies n` cream
Staring into your eyes, so deep inside
I was trapped, i needed light
You gave me a purpose, a goal in life
I'm amazed at how you can make me feel this way
The way no others could
Fate isn't playing on me again, like how it did before
And i'm so glad that all this is the truth
A lifetime of happiness assured

Priscilla

Monday, October 31, 2005
la-la-la

the day has finally come. sch has started. first day of sch in poly doesn't seem as excited and fun as sec sch one. i rmbed quite vividly about how im always so excited when sch is starting the next day during sec sch. feels like i have alot of things to look forward to. although the morning assembly is boring, but i kinda miss it now. i love recess time although it always meant 10 min in the toilet and goin to the study area to chit chat instead of going to the canteen to eat. partly bcos there wasn't sufficient time to do so, considering the super small canteen with the heavy flow of students in it, the amount of time used to queue up to get the food we want and most imptly, wait for available seats. but i was more than happy to avoid the bustering crowd and stay in the study area to crap with my pals. i love assembly slots on tuesday though it was quite humid and stuffy in the hall. but assembly meant no a maths! im so willing to skip that. oh my, how i reminisce and miss the times during sec sch days.

poly life. dots. LT after LT. and i reali hate LT 45 which is a long distance frm anywhere in the sch im always at. how i wish im still at the age btw 13-16. best if time can stop at the year 2001-2002 when im in sec 1 n 2. it was, i remembered, the most memorable days of my sec sch life. everyday was joke and crap and nonsence and rubbish. BUT, fun. lessons in class 1A4 n 2A4 was simply interesting and fun. we had fun bullying teachers, making man-made waterfalls during geography lessons *looks at eunice*, travelling from classroom to ava or IT resource rooms. trips to the old folks home was gd too. i felt so carefree during those days. if only i can turn back time..

today. faces of the lecturers seem so foreign except the ffa one. think i need some time to re-adapt the lifestlye i used to lead in NP. gonna start studying hard again. everyone, jia you!!

baobei had hiccups today. oh my, i laughed like mad cos it was the funniest and most unique i'd ever seen/heard. but soon, i found that baobei was actually having a hard time with them. he felt pain in his chest area. im so sorry baobei for laughing though u're in pain. but i stil couldn't stop at first and stifle a few laughs. sorry! u noe wad u're supposed to do when u have hiccups, so the next time it occurs, pls stop wadeva u're doing and lie down. pls, dun say "nth one laa.. hiccups only" cos seeing the way u were just now, i got so worried. so, p.l.e.a.s.e.

AND AND AND, u have FAH and u're a LPOS. wahahahaha!! u shld understand these abbreviations so think only u're able to "decode" them. LOL.
FAH FAH FAH. oops, i see you blushing. hahahaha!!!

take gd care of urself ahh.. love you lots. =)))

9:00 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

school is starting in less than a day.
looking forward or dreading?
-sighs-
i like the fun and excitement in sch but hates the exam part.. while who doesn't?
gotta strive harder to achieve better grades.. i hope to make it to the U. oh ya, and i seriously dun like the projects part with the due dates and datelines stressing us up. can i just drop the computer module? im a self-proclaimed IT idiot. i dun wanna go thru another ordeal of the IT module. i had enough of CIP. can someone save me frm this? HAHA. dream on!!

mel is seriously pissing me off. no announcements or notice to inform us if there's tut and workshop for the 1st week. so my whole class shall just happily skip everything and go only for the 4pm lect in the name of weilong. WAHAHAHA! yes, he shall be accountable for our attendence. LOL. wait till he sees this and argue with me. i reckon he's still the same. as crappy as ever. so if i see him joking like some lunatic, its quite a norm to me. i wont be surprised. haha..

im so gonna miss bb. we only have 2 lectures the same. the rest all diff. timing sorta clash. dun reali have a day where we can have a meal taking our own sweet time. but fortunately our classes start at 9 everyday, except for wednesdays. baobei ahh, remember wad u promised me ok? i want to see a hardworking bb, not a pig snoring in class every lesson. anything u dun understand can come ask me, cant guarantee i know the ans to ur q, but i'll try my best to ans ur doubts. let's work hard tog alright? hope to see ur GPA rise. will always be there for you. jia you! =)))

was reading thru my previous entries. realised i kinda miss tutoring carin, miss her naughty-ness, miss she being playful, miss her everything, and of cos her. and i realised i din mention this. but i'll be tutoring her when she starts P2. so yay!! but i think i'll complain about her being mischevious again when the time comes. haha.. will be ringing her up sometime these days to find out her results. in the meantime, prays hard for her.

baobei ahh baobei... thanks for the surprise =)) im a happy happy gal.

12:52 AM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Sunday, October 30, 2005
la-la-la

the route to National Library was hell man. i rmbed it was somewhere near the NAFA. but the prob is, i cant find NAFA! at that moment, i was hot, thirsty and tired. those who know me well shld noe my mood den. i got irritated, complained and was on the verge of giving up searching the building when bb noticed the board that reads "National Library" it was the building which i 'suspected' at first but dismissed the possibility of it being the actual one cos it looks nice and class. haha.. the collection of books there is superb laa.. at least i found almost all of Danielle Steel's books there. but i din manage to find Nicholas Sparks's The Notebook, which my sis claimed it is nice. bb and i walked in the lib like a maze and got a headache. haha.. its big laa! slacked in there for a while den headed to bugis.

coffeebean-ed. drank bb's favourite-- Caramel Frappucino. it's my first time trying and it tasted good! crapped in there and at the same time resting our legs. i know eunice sure will comment saying"wa lao..u two v lousy leh..walk little bit den tired. useless" haha... she sure can walk the whole day w/o complaining. dun believe? try her. LOL. anyway, back to the topic.. after enough of resting, we started to hunt for my bag and clothes. my bag. where are you??? the adidas one remains as the one on my list for now. tentative. i tried on this pmk top which i liked quite alot but it was the last piece island-wide and was in a not-so-gd condition. so, din buy in the end. sadded`` tried on a long-sleeved top at op but the colour was too dull for me considering im quite dark/tan. so, sadded again. for me, it's quite diff to find a top that i like..cos am quite fussy about my tops. eunice shld noe. seldom i'll find a top which i like. if not, the price is WOW. anyway, realised the long-sleeved tops at mickey shop were quite nice. but the price even nicer. $39.90 for a top! too ex laa.. unless im loaded with cash, then it'll be a whole diff case. haha.. acc bb to kfc for dinner den headed back to yishun. my dinner?? 2 salmon maki. LOL. bought a nike top at np's royal sporting house.at last!! =))) but am still hunting for clothes and bag..

oh ya. in the train to town earlier on, there's this woman who was breast-feeding her daughter. the weird thing is, the child is old enough to spare her mom the agony of breast-feeding. (ok laa, to me, its considered as an agony. why? try letting a kid suck ur nipple. it sure hurts. apparently, i've not experienced it before, but that's what i thought. haha) needless to say, few pairs of eyes were on the woman's breasts. and yes, almost all were guys'. cant they just keep their eye-balls to themselves? want to see, go home see their wives' one laa... along the way, i was wondering if i'll do the same thing(breast-feed my child) in public. gals, will u??

another incident that happened in the train caught almost all of our attention. this woman shouted suddenly. at first i tot she was chiding her children, due to her fiery tone, until baobei told me she was talking to herself.the problem is, why talk to loud?? ok laa, she wasn't talking exactly, but, cursing. i cant remember what she said exactly but i guessed it had smth to do with a guy having an affair and she(the woman who was cursing) was the victim, if not, her daughter or someone close to her was. after a while, she stopped. den everyone resumed what they were doing initially.

i had a great day today. thanks to baobei. thanks for acting silly and stupid to make me laugh like mad. i appreciate it. AND, u act ke lian reali very cute! and lovable... hee.. think those people who get to see it someday will laugh their hearts out. LOL. we took photos today too.. after a very long time eh? snap snap snap! thanks baobei for the enjoyable day =)))

MY lovely lovely boy.. how i love you so. =DD

p.s you're such a naughty boy!! but i like =P

12:48 AM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Thursday, October 27, 2005
la-la-la

sis: huh? yao4 dui1 diao4 rice cooker ahh?

dad: ah nor... dui1 diao4 lo, dou1 huai4 liao..

sis: den yong4 she3 me4 lai2 zu3 fan4??

dad: bu1 yong4 zu3 laa.. wo3 men2 mei3 tian1 chi1 resTAUrant..

--i burst out laughing--

HAHAHA!! dunno how many times i corrected my dad in that pronounciation of the word "restaurant" already!! but still, he made the same mistake.. cute laa he.. everyday injects us with laughter with his silly ideas and lame jokes.

finished reading the book "A Walk To Remember" by Nicholas Sparks.. nice nice book! super touching.. this bittersweet tale will definitely keep u enthralled.. when the world seemed soo perfect for Landon, it was quite apparent that it's crashing down on him soon. he finally mustered his courage to expressed his feelings for Jamie, a girl whom he never thought he would fall for, but was hit by the cruelty of fate and learnt that she was diagnosed with leukemia, and was left with not much time. nonetheless, he spent every amount of time he could with her and as the days passed, Jamie was becoming weaker and weaker. Landon, however, wanted to marry her cos he said that was what his heart was telling him to do. They married with their hearts locked tightly. the walking down of the aisle meant everything to both of them, especially to Jamie, whose dream was as simple as getting married and lead a simple life with the one she loved dearly. it was a walk to remember for both Landon and Jamie. totally tear-jerking.

i feel trepidation overcoming me again. please don't ever struck me with smth unexpected. never. i cant take that. my heart wont be able to hold on. and i don't need that kind of surprises. please. i just want my family, frenz and loved one to remain alive and healthy. i dun wan smth nice/good to happen to me on the expense of the people i noe, especially to those i love dearly. wishing in silence..

i'm almost recovered. now, its baobei's turn. haiyo... drink lots of water!!! hope you recover soon. please take good care of urselves everyone.

10:32 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Wednesday, October 26, 2005
la-la-la

total YAYness!! both of our IS fall on odd weeks! no doubt, cos i double checked. haha..lucky it doesn't happen that either of us has it on even and the other has it on odd weeks. thank god =)

went to sch for the zest thing AGAIN. and, its getting earlier and earlier. mon it was 830am. today- 800am. "pls ensure that u guys reach latest by 805am, cos the guests will be reaching at 815am and u wont want the guests to be waiting.." DOTS. we were there waiting at 805am and getting impatient when they stil din arrive after much standing/waiting. but just before our patience runs out, meiyan spotted them by their uniforms. today was the event brief. get to know them, no. of talks went on, and the 2 emcees- haikal and danny did a wonderful job. they certainly catch the audience's attention and create laughter though the talks were boring all of us. everything ended at 1140am.

flightplan. not bad. 3.5 out of 5 stars?? yeah.. definitely more worth to watch compared to april snow. haha.. causeway's cinema/theatre is always so cold! shivering like dunno what in there.. jacket jacket, how i miss u so..

10:25 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005
la-la-la

"Thanks" is not enough to show my appreciation.
But yet again, what you'd done showed me all i needed to know.
Really thank you for spending the most amount of time you could fork out to acc me, despite having to reach there asap.
Emotions were overwhelming..
The cascading tears showed it all.
It's beyond me.
Tears have always been part of me.
They expressed what i'm really feeling deep within,
which very often,
i wouldn't express in words.
Due to lack of courage?
Eventually, it always made me turn to my tears to do the job.
This time,
they showed the ultimate reluctance to let you go.
Sadness and unwillingness were at its peak.
I'm sorry i couldn't control them, i truly am.
But,
It certainly showed how much you meant to me.
YOU- My One And Only.

8:45 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Monday, October 24, 2005
la-la-la

was up by 610am. hell, damn early. blame on the zest thingy which commences at 830am. so long nv go back sch le.. i even asked bb wad bus to take to sch! haha.. blur.. too long din go back le la.. total waste of time lo! the briefing ended less than 2 hrs!! arghh.. in the end all of us complained.. "might as well dun come lo! waste our time" bla bla comments were made.. haha.. u guys stil ok ahh.. all live ard sch area.. me leh! yishun!! super far laa compared to u guys.. haha.. nxt activity on this coming wed.. hopefully we can guide the sec students successfully.. LOL.

april snow. expected it to be better. no further comments. ending was to let ppl let their imagination run. hmm.. catch it if u have spare money. wahahahha.. guess that sentence explains..

down to cck again. the first thing i asked carin when i reached her hse was "how to spell the word crown?" haha.. tis time she got it right! but it was not one of the 10 words being tested. -__-'' went thru maths today.. i had a difficult time, mind you. she just cant seem to absorb the concept. think its due to her laziness. cos at the later part, when she was paying more attention, she can get the questions right. ironic eh? ppl pay more attention in the beginning, but she, does the other way round. that is carin. HAHA. lots of crapping today.. wad "silly silly bombarley" haha... oh ya, bought her present today already. am gonna give it to her only tmr cos wed is her bday.. hope she likes the powerpuff pencil case n the purple highlighter! (why purple? cos its her fav colour) hope she can handle her maths tmr.. pls, no more careless carin!!

baobei, THANKS for that. (you know wad i mean.)
it meant alot alot to me.
the hug showed it.
the happiness and gleeful-ness on my face expressed it.
reali lots and lots of thanks.
your willingness to that showed all that i wanted to feel.
and because of that,
i dun need to go thru lonely journeys either to sch or tuition.
=)))
**iloveyou**

stil the same old things.. must must must be careful.. behave urself. LOL. i know you will laa.. just reminding you. drink lots of water cos ur throat starting to hurt now.. if u buy strepsils, DON'T eat so many within a short time, just like wad you did today. im not there to take the strepsils away from you, so u must control ok?? AND, i will be missing you like mad.. come home quick! will be waiting for ur call.. =DD

11:33 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Sunday, October 23, 2005
la-la-la

I HAVE SUCH IDIOTIC AND SELFISH SIBLINGS!

CANT STAND.

11:17 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

me: can i have an ice?
bb: ok
me: two?
bb: NO! -immediately, in a firm tone-

HAHA! reaction so fast.. made me laugh so hard.. i know bb is worried about me.. but im fine alright? with you by my side restricting me from eating this eating that, drinking this drinking that.. how can i not be ok? haha.."cannot eat this ahh... u coughing, cannot drink cold water" bla bla.. but he goes weak in his heart when i request for food im not suppose to eat with a ke3 lian2 expression on my face.. LOL. "baobei, ke yi chi ma? pleaseee.." den he'll give in le.. =)))

my brother!! arghh.. he's such a nuisance! watching ge2 dou4 tian1 wang2 just now.. den he kept pestering us with questions, if not, he'll be making lots of funny voices and facial expressions. he's ALWAYS like that.. totally inconsiderate.. duno why he just cant seem to keep his mouth shut when others are watching tv.

2 more days.. hai..

9:57 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Saturday, October 22, 2005
la-la-la

down to cck again.. think its the 4th time this week.. woo.. intensive man.. hope she wont disappoint her parents, and me. gave her spelling twice.. not bad.. got 22/25 for the first time and 23/25 the second. at least she did improve. just that she always cant seem to get the word "crown" rite.. the 5 letters are there.. but all jumbled up.. hope she can get it right for the real test. checked and marked her chi hw which i gave her yday.. haiyo.. super lazy her din even attempt 2 sections and excused herself by saying she doesn't know how to do.. naughty naughty..went thru english with her today cos mon is her eng exam. the simple things like they/we/you/I have,are, he/she has, is. she finally got her "I have and I am" correct this time! i was so elated.. haha.. cos "I" is one person. so by right it shld be "has".. but i told her lots of times "I" is a special one.. although its referring to one person, but it is still "have". she got so frenzy and confused the last time i went thru with her.. but fortunately, this time round, she managed to understand. so, lucky for me.. if not reali will vomi blood.. haha.. she ask me give her $0.50 cos she wanna save.. den she showed me her piggy bank.. damn cute laa!! haha she very funny today...

she: ms chua, wad ur bf work as?
me: he's a student, not working yet..
she: still studying ah? i thought he's a policeman..

-total bewilderment and looks at her wide-eyed-

me: policeman?? hahaha.. no laa.. he look like policeman meh?
she: -nods her head frantically, at the same time putting her hands tog and showing an image holding a gun pointing at me-

HAHAHA!! baobei? policeman? i cant link the 2 up man.. haha.. so funny laa.. totally cracked me up.. when the 2hr is up, she wanna acc me down, think wanna see bb laa.. den she say she very scared..

she: ms chua, can i go down with u?
me: why? want to see my bf ahh?
she: hmm -nods head-
me: come down with me later lo
she: but i scared scared..
me: haha.. scared for wad.. my bf also wont eat u up..

in the end she came down with me and was so shy.. cute la she!! nxt week goin to revise with her twice again.. will it be the last two times?? if so, i'll definitely miss her lots.. reali reali hope she can score well for this coming eoy exams.. Carin, you can do it!!

hai.. next tue baobei goin chalet le.. sad man.. he go chalet meaning.. i gotta go cck myself at 730 at night.. take the lonely 25 min train journey w/o bb beside me to joke with me and laugh with me.. wait for the bus myself.. walk to carin's hse myself.. no baobei to hold my hands tightly and securely cross the big big road with me.. no baobei who'll wait for me downstairs without fail after every 2hr tuition session. and the same thing repeats for the going back home journey.. im alone walking in the streets, all by myself.. no one to entertain me.. no baobei to hold my hands and fall asleep resting on his shoulders in the train.. no baobei to walk home with me late at night.. no baobei to take the lift with me.. no baobei to kiss me goodnight and hug me tight close to him.. hai.. how i'm so gonna miss you lots..

to baobei-
i will be thinking of you every moment.. hope you take good care of yourself during that day when im not around with you..drink lots of water.. after bathing faster wear your clothes so that u wont catch a cold.. eat bao bao... play that time must be careful of ur safety.. i will be missing you like mad.. heart you..

9:35 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Friday, October 21, 2005
la-la-la

as usual, went to cck to tutor that naughty little girl.. her exams are on the next mon-wed(alright, i know i've been saying this for umpteen times) so this few days have tuition for consecutive days for intensive revision. gave her spelling and she only got 18/25. but at least she improved. tmr gonna give her one more time.. hope she can do better. went thru chi with her.. as usual, did assessment and hell, she was damn lazy.. attention very easily diverted to other things except work. dots. since she doesn't wanna use her time wisely, i had no choice but to give her more hw.. she seriously gotta step up on her revision man.. dun wan her to do badly.. hope for the best for her. carin, jia you!

after tuition, went to yishun for chicken rice.. haha sounds so idiot rite.. yishun to cck den back to yishun.. haha, no choice laa.. cos was craving for chicken rice and particularly yishun's 900+. haha.. fussy niao niao i know.. and my cough condition.. cannot eat too heaty food.. so chicken rice compared to those fast food considered gd alrdy.. haha.. headed to suntec city.. took the shuttle bus instead of walking.. the bus so comfy, sit until dun wish to alight.. haha.. anyway, reached suntec.. hunt for my bag.. hmm, decided against the idea of buying it cos bb, bestie and my sis sae too big for me.. den, the adidas one dun have the colour i wan, so din try. haiyo... headache ahh.. always so diff to buy a bag i like. dinner`ed at kenny rogers.. nice.. just ate side dishes and was already so full.. think sis is gonna scream at me if she come across this entry cos i know she's craving for kenny rogers too.. LOL.

after dinner took train home. playful baobei started some nonsense again.. wad tang2 shi1 laa.. siao kia.. he started his self-entertainment but the laughter eventually got into me and i was laughing like mad.

translate to chinese
4 is 4
10 is 10
14 is 14
40 is 40

DUH!! naughty him.. he din just sae all those in a normal tone/voice/style or wadeva. he said it in a comical way.. infact, in a VERY comical way.. i dun noe how he can control his tongue so well and sae that in such a fast speed but nv gets tangled up in his own words. sort of amazed, cos i cant! haha.. so after today, i discovered his another ability although he presented his "shesawshesaysawshesay" in an equally funny and skillful way. he is just so naughty laa.. always wanna make a fool of himself..

my naughty naughty boy.. i'm blessed because of you..

11:19 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Thursday, October 20, 2005
la-la-la

woke up today hoping that my condition will get better.. hai.. but to my disappointment, it didn't. instead, it got worse. totally spoils my mood for the marche. reached heeren at ard 1pm. we were late for 30min laa cos of my dilly-dally bro..always take such a long time and end up everyone has to wait for him. dots. he shld go for some time-management skills classes..

anyway, reached there and get the soup immediately cos was hungry already. no lobster, as expected. when can marche ever have the lobster soup again?!?! ate quite little today.. though the food was nice, but wasn't reali enjoying them due to my flu+cough+headache+uneasiness... wa lao.. totally spoil! but, the ice-cream waffle couldn't make me resist the temptation. it was simply mouth-watering. nice!! oops, baobei is gonna get me for this.. "cough and cough still wanna eat ahh.." haha..

after eating.. went to window-shop. den went to my 3rd aunt's hse.. nth much there.. but reali happy to see my cousins and aunts today.

tmr gonna tutor carin again. i hope i will/can survive the 2hr session cos of my current condition. pray that she doesn't make me vomit blood or make my head spin..

total yayness! cos can see bb tmr.. =)))

10:05 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005
la-la-la

gosh.. woke up today to find my cough worsen and throat in a worser condition. dots.. dun like the itchy-ness i feel in my throat man.. damn miserable. so like wad bb say, i must drink lotsa water. "remember drink water ahh" bb said to me duno-how-many times today. sooo naggy laa.. BUT i like. hee hee...

tutor carin today. get her to practice the spelling for her 25 words. but only told her to write 10, the rest as hw. went thru chinese with her today. hmm... quite ok.. not as blood-vomitting as ydae.. haha.. taught her her chi hw. den proceeded to assessments. she was super lethargic laa.. and she hates the part on li2 jie3 wen4 da2. well, who doesn't.. but hers is reali much much simpler than the brain-storming ones we get at sec sch. i mean, ya, i noe she's in p1, but hers is super easy la. answer straight in the passage and its damn short. wah.. p1 only she dun like le.. wonder how she gonna survive sec sch's one.. as a result of her no-mood-to-do-anything attitude, i gave her more hw, but reasonable amount. im not out there to kill her anyway. and considering the fact that she's having her eoy exams nxt week, i cannot go easy on her anymore. after the 1hr40min tuition session, she wanted to play hei1 bai2 pei4 with me. she damn cute laa.. always turn the same direction one.. lol..

anyway, not gonna see her tmr.. long-awaited MARCHE is on tmr!! woots.. sure gonna eat my fill tmr.. but on the other hand, i noe i'll miss baobei to bits. cya on fri ya? read ur *mole if u want to.. haha.. thanks for waiting for me again today =DD

i hate this man.. i feel like a frog croaking.. arghh.. water, here i come..

7:37 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Tuesday, October 18, 2005
la-la-la

sleep-deprived again.. dots.. woke up at 715am. went yakun for breakfast before goin cck for tuition. din see carin during the weekends which i normally would.. reached her house and i had a hell of a time..

went thru maths with her today.. i checked her EOY practice paper which her teacher gave.. lots of careless mistakes!! she did the paper halfway.. den left ard 5 pages she sae she duno how to do... i wonder if she attempted, but i guessed not. was a lil more stern to her today.. cos she's forever in her playing mood.. exams are nearing and she has to revise. she nearly made me vomit blood at the number patterns and calculation part. i swear i nearly fainted. one page and she took around 35 min. that's super slow can.. and she's depending on her mental calculation to derive at the answer which most of the time, or rather all the time, was wrong. she is super careless laa! and i keep telling her "carin, count properly, don't use ur mental calculation if not it'll cost u alot of marks." tell and tell but it doesn't get into her head.. think she's too tired and exhausted. give her break time she can laugh and play. but back to serious work, she's quiet and not-so-focussed. haiyo.. and she showed me her revision test on the 25 spelling words her teacher gave them and guess wad.. she got only 13/25. wah.. i spent 2 hrs just to get the 25 words into her brain den while doin the test, she forgot. dots.. so am going to go thru the 25 words with her again tmr.. bless me. hope i don't go kuku after tutoring her..

baobei, as usual, waited 2 hrs for me. thanks lots ya? =D think now u damn familiar with the limbang shopping centre le la.. lol.. reali lots of thanks and appreciation. went for the movie-GOAL with bb at cine.. like finally.. we have alot of movies that we wanna catch such as april snow, flightplan, skyhigh.. anyway, GOAL is a nice movie.. quite touching i must sae.. in the movie, you see someone who goes all out to pursue his dream as a professional footballer. of cos he's met with alot of obstacles along the way such as his dad's violent objection, ppl despising him cos he plays soccer for fun back at his hometown, and the irritating newcastle manager who din reali wanna give him a chance to prove his capability and talent but agreed due to glen's persuasion. you see santiago(the main actor) striving hard to remain in newcastle united fc and at the same time, sharing his sentiments. but he's reali fortunate to meet ppl like glen who in his(santiago) pursuit of dream was offered alot of help and opportunities by glen. in the end, of cos, santiago's effort paid off. he scored the critical goals and become a professional player.its reali a nice movie..one that can touch ur heart.. catch it~

think baobei and i enjoyed the movie alot. next monday going for another movie.. hmm.. will it be april snow? haha.. undecided yet.. we shall see.. =))

8:10 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Monday, October 17, 2005
la-la-la

sometimes i reali think that my bro is an alien.. and today's incident proved my point.. wahahha.. he always make the ppl ard him laugh for his stupidity and sillyness.. take today's for example.. i finished eating and was in the kitchen drinking my soup when..

bro: oops! si liao si liao.. mummy.. siao liao.. bu yao ma wo
(die already die already..mummy, don't scold me)

mummy: zhuo she me?
(why?)

-i realised his stupid act and was laughing like mad. and HAHAHA i went-

bro: wo na na ge tang de lai na fan!
( i took my rice with the soup handle, or wadeva u call that, instead of using the thing meant for taking rice)

mummy: wo yao soot ni liao
(i'm goin to cane you)

HAHAHA!!
say my bro is an ass.. i was laughing away, seriously, when he stood rooted to the floor, not knowing wad to do but wait for my mum to "inspect" his mistake. LOL. den my dad came to extra`ed himself by saying den swop the purpose of the two handles by using the rice thing to scoop the soup and vice versa.. haha.. my dad has always like to add on comments and bring the laughter to a higher level. BUT, it is always and i mean always, funny but lame. den...

mum: zhu dou mei you zhe yang ben!
(pigs aren't as stupid as my bro)

dad: zhu dou mei you na mei da
(pig also not so big-sized-refering to my bro)

HAHA! i had a good laugh, i must say. my bro is forever so DANG! *knocks head* he's god-damn silly laa.. haha.. anyway, thanks for the laughter bro =PpP

oh ya, the above translation is for han yu pin yin illiterate like my bestie-eunice! she'll definitely be so grateful for my effort in translating..wahahha... ok, say i'm nice.. lalala``

sorry. i never thought u were that kinda person. reali never once in my life, or rather since i know you. please believe me alright? i know u must be so sad to hear that coming from my mouth though i was tearing. i know ur heart sank. i know.. i know.. i'm truly sorry. i trusted that the one i love deeply is different from other guys. but i don't know why it crossed my mind. it just did, at that instant. and, i was reali engulfed with fear. but i recovered fast enough cos i know u'll stand out frm other guys and be the truly special one for me. for my sillyness, i apologise. sorry.

8:43 PM
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Sunday, October 16, 2005
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YEsterday's mahjong was FUN!! same old ppl--bb, ah hui, jarrel and weiseng.. played 3 rounds in all.. at first was winning more than $15 den there was a "transfer of funds" to jarrel.. damn him.. haha jk laa.. in the end won $3.80. hui and seng lost $14.40 and $10 respectively..it was reali fun laa playing wif u guys.. and thanks baobei for sitting by my side all the while.. it was good to have u there =)) waiting for the next mahjong session, hopefully before sch starts!

Today, went to watch chicken little at shaw tower with my aunt, her kids and my siblings cos my aunt got complimentary tickets. it was god-damn early laa!! 1030 am gotta reach there. i pulled myself outta bed in the morning! was't that excited about the movie cos firstly, it is a cartoon and those close to me like eunice and bb sure noe i dun like to watch cartoon movies. but i made an exception for toys story, nemo, spiderman 1 & 2. ok reason no 2 was cos i thought it was reali childish and a kiddy thing. after watching the movie, my impression, sad to say, remained the same.. haha..and i was like half-slping laa cos of the fatique im feeling.. but i guess it'll be very suitable for kids and those who like cartoon movies cos my sis beside me was laughing non-stop and she kinda find it hilarious together with my cousins. LOL. kids!

after the movie, we walked to raffles city and were deciding what to have for lunch. we finally settled ourselves at marina square's sakae sushi. woo!! wad a nice lunch.. i was enjoying the soft-shell crab, spicy salmon etc. NICE! think im sure gonna gain a kilo or two cos it seems like i've been eating gd food these days.. 11/10, me n bb's 3rd mth, we had jack's place. 14/10, which was 2 days back, dined at tcc with eunice. today had sakae. and this coming thurs goin to marche! oh my oh my.. i just cant resist all of these gd food!but nvm laa, when sch reopens on the 31st, my meals are gonna be so boring once again.. so, why not enjoy myself first rite? haha.. oh ya, marina square had changed alot and i would say, a drastic change. i cant even recognise where were the previous shops located and all cos the structure of the mall had reali changed. i reckon marina is a place with alot of good food!! go see for urself.. reali a food paradise. walked over to suntec and jalan jalan.. followed my younger cousins to toys'r us.. oh my, they're so chaotic laa.. play like nobody's business.. run here run there and they dun get tired.. they reali use up every ounce of energy they have productively, which in their aspect, productive=play. i reali marvel at kids' naiveness and carefree-ness. life is just so good for them.. no worries at all be it emotional turmoil, family or frenz probs cos everything for them is well taken care of. they played for hours and i was bored for hours. although seeing them play is quite interesting and i'll smile or laugh occasionally, but it was still hmm.. not quality time spent there. AND AND AND, i saw the nike bag!! ahh.. dinner`ed at the basement's foodcourt. my 2 sis and i shared ipoh hor fun and chicken curry. delicious! baobei, next time bring u go there eat.. the curry is nicer than woodland's! haha..

had a long day today.. was out for ard 12 hrs.. dead tired now..

9:45 PM
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Friday, October 14, 2005
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went out wif bestie today.. like finally we meet up!! we haven been catching up on each other since donkey years and though the chalet brought all of us tog again, both of us cant have our heart-to-heart conversation. but today! we had fun chatting and joking around! went to citylink's tcc. ordered our food and drinks and then, we began our serious talk as well as jokes.. we reali do understand each other huh! that's wad i mean by bestie. she knows me inside out, i think more than my mother does. she just need to briefly say one sentence and i know wad she's thinking and vice versa. AND, we had a great time joking on our bfs don't we? haha!! u know what i mean! the 2hr session seems so meaningful to me. i feel like i can talk anything with her and she reali understands me. most importantly, i find solace in her. its a feeling of comfort and easiness i get and it reali calms my thoughts, feelings. bestie-eunice, i reali feel fortunate to have u as my true fren these 5 yrs. thank-you for always being there for me =)) i love you!!

after our tcc session, we went to hunt for shoes and bags. hell! we went to alot of places. from citylink to suntec, then to ps, next to wisma, taka and finally heeren and cine. oh my, i think my legs are gonna break after all the walking and i know bestie is goin to sae im such a lousy person little bit little bit den tired.. haha.. okok, u have strong legs alright? haha.. at last bought my shoes at wisma's charles and keith. my old one is reali OLD. den, we went to hunt for bags.. alright, we saw this real nice Nike bag and it costs $99!! super expensive laa!! but reali nice and both of us reali like it. somemore the person told us left 2 pieces only. arghh!!! y the bag we want so ex? eunice and i were contemplating on whether to buy it but decided against it cos its reali ex. but we reali wan the bag.. and eunice has her way! wahahaha.. i hope my parents like strike lottery or smth den i can get it.. *prays hard* the 2 last nike bags, pls wait for us! pretty please..

both of us went back wif dejected spirits, still thinking about the bag in the train. haha.. reached yishun, saw bb at my hse downstairs den we walked eunice back. sat down awhile to chat wif bb b4 heading home.. anyway, thanks bb for coming to my hse downstairs and wait for me. i know u wanna see me badly, just like i do. and its so smart of u to take the digi cam as an excuse huh! haha.. i love u larh! =DD

10:50 PM
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Thursday, October 13, 2005
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baobei ahh baobei,
dun worry about the dreams or rather, nightmares u'd been having these few days..
i wont let them happen..
so trust me will you?
dreams are dreams,
dun believe in them..
instead,
put ur trust in the vision of our future.
that will happen, hopefully.
cos i know both of us will be striving towards that.
have no qualms about the love i have for you,
i have absolute faith in myself as well as you.
i love you.

=))

7:58 PM
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Wednesday, October 12, 2005
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER!

happy happy bday to you~ you this big fat pig.. at last 19 le.. dun keep eating and eating k? wahahha... ur bdae today so i reckon even if u see this u wont reprimand me. LOL. but seriously, eat less! if not, exercise more.. haha.. if not you'll turn into a fei lou(eunice teach me de..wahahaha). k laa, get to serious stuff.. one yr older le.. more sensible? AND, dun be sooo retarded again.. you're like 5 seconds slow laa! if not, you'll act like an insane person, doing some childish actions, acting like a small kid. or are you reminiscing your childhood days? *ponders* whatever the case, DON'T do that again. it scares me outta my wit. haha.. imagine your 19 yr old sis acting more like a kid than your 12 yr old sis.. haha.. that's how the ironic word comes about. wish u best of luck in wadeva u do.. dun give up halfway.. and stop slacking! buck up for ur sem2. stay healthy and may u be blessed with happiness for life. one more thing.. find ur Mr Right soon alright? will i be expecting another "kang" ? haha.. u know wad i mean.. anyways, happy bday!

oh ya, i left out smth while blogging ydae.. and that is to baobei. thanks for the 5 senses thing.. it was simple but it meant the world to me. touched by wad u said. =))

timetable is out. hmm, quite ok.. except tat why is my IS in the afternoon again?? can somebody tell me why?? i tot they're supposed to swap.. ok wadever.. timetable quite similar to first sem's. this time, bb's tt also all starting at 9am except on wed. but, we barely have the same lunch break which means we cant have our meals together.. sadded`` well, since the tt are subject to change, i hope mine will change for the better..

10:54 PM
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Tuesday, October 11, 2005
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HAPPY 3RD MONTH BAOBEI!!

woo! time passed soooo fast.. reali fast.. it has been three months since we've got together.. three mths and still counting down!

met up wif bb den headed to causeway's Jack's Place for lunch.. OMG!! soooooooooo yummylicious! i've been craving for jack's place's lobster soup and steak and today my wish finally come true! thanks to my beloved baobei.. it was his 1st time there.. and i'm glad he enjoyed the meal as much as i did. we chatted alot there..regarding marriage and couples.. reali petrified by the reality of marriage. but i have faith =)) anyway, reali a BIG BIG thank-you for the meal~! my stomach has begun to love u bb ever since we're tog cos u always buy me nice food! hee.. =DD

headed to cineleisure for our movie--Into the Blue. woots! fantabulous is the word to sum it up! Jessica Alba and Paul Walker are both sizzling hot!! 3 words to describe them--Drop Dead Gorgeous. it's a super nice movie with a gd plot which keeps u in suspense. reali nice movie..and the two main characters indeed spice up the whole movie! highly recommended~! go go go, grab ur tickets now..

acc baobei to ljs for a meal cos he's famished. after that went hunting for a top for bb. i wanted to buy one shirt for him as a gift and also to show my appreciation for him treating me so good and all. so, we went to heeren first. saw a white top at 77th street. it was quite nice but too bad, no more M size island wide! how great.. so, to taka next. not much of choices but he tried on one shirt which has the words "eat and sleep" imprinted on it. haha!! so funny laa.. i was like asking him "are you sure you will want to wear this shirt out?" haha.. and he still sae "wear laa.. y dun wear.. so nice" DOTS. turned out that the sizes dun fit bb.. so no choice. headed to far east which was our last stop. wow, haven been there for a long time.. in the end bought a white top for bb in one of the shops. its nice!! fit bb perfectly. so, bought it w/o hesitation.. baobei, hope you like the top kays? dun need to mention it cos its a gift frm me =))

after accomplishing my objective, went to search for a pair of shoes for myself.. hell! there wasn't a single pair which caught my eye.. and the one i like at charles n keith doesn't have the colour i want anymore.. sadded``. nvm, shall continue hunting..

BaoBei,
Happy 3rd Month Anniversary! I reali enjoyed myself alot alot today. thanks for the meal, for being by my side, for every everything.. 3 months have passed and im glad we're still loving each other deeply. i believe our dream will come true. hold on to the love, belief and dream of ours alright? i wont give u up halfway.. i want u for the rest of my life rmb? no matter wad happens, you still have me and i'll always be around. i truly thank god for this fate and destiny of ours, for blessing me with you, for granting me a miracle in life. this one miracle is enough. cos with you around, i'll always be smiling. Thanks baobei for everything. i can reali sense ur love for me, your care and concern for me. thanks for loving me so deeply and making me feel so precious and cherished. *iloveyou* cherish you lots lots. =))

Together As One

11:43 PM
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Sunday, October 09, 2005
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went to cck to tutor carin at 12pm. as promised, i bought her sushi. she was elated, but disappointed there wasn't jellyfish. not my fault laa cos when i went to buy, the jellyfish one not ready yet. shall buy for her next time.

after tuition, acc bb to eat mac cos i supposed he was starved. i'm so sorry bb for letting you wait for 2 hrs. but i reali appreciate this. thanks for acc-ing me to tuition and wait aimlessly for 2 hrs for me. lotsa thanks! =)) and also, thanks for the mango cheese cake!
*iloveyou*

although i always din show how happy i am when u say u wanna acc me, but deep down, i think my heart is smiling radiantly. really. being able to see you early in the morning is a bliss to me. parting(while goin home) was never easy for me. how i wish i can hold u tightly, never letting go. i rushed to the kitchen and wait to see u walk past that small little distance which i was "entitled" to within my vision everytime, at the same time praying for your safety. thanks for sending me home every single day. all of this meant alot to me. and it forever will. =DD

8:47 PM
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Saturday, October 08, 2005
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEISENG!!

woke up at 730am while i slpt at ard 2am the previous night.. seriously im deprived of slp!! ever since i get back frm chalet, i've not been having sufficient slp. and not forgetting, i din slp much during chalet too. i seriously need to catch some good slp one of these days.. anyway, met BB at 755am, went to yakun for breakfast den headed to cck for tution. b4 taking the bus, went to check if the jap store at the foodcourt had their sushi ready cos intending to buy for carin. but, they're still preparing the sushi.. so, too bad carin! haha.. but i promised her i'll buy for her tmr. tution today was quite slack i must say.. she always have smth new to show me. today, she showed me magic. wahahah.. kids laa.. so u know, her magic is err... haha.. ya.. she's always in a playing mood, difficult to get her to be seious. gone thru some chinese oral stuff with her today. she surprised me with her ability to memorise every story in the 1B textbk! super amazed! just give her the title and she can read the whole story out w/o looking at the book! oh my, wad a shock i had. somewhat strange yah? her mum says she'll be slower in her studies cos of the brain surgery she'd undergone 2 yrs back. but, after this incident, i thought otherwise. finished wad i wanna taught her early so she took out her stickers and started playing with them.

she: Ms Chua, can bring me go swimming?
me: i bring u go? why?
she: i want you to bring me go.

haha..cute larh she..took some pics with her. naughty yet adorable little girl.

after tuition, took train to dhoby ghaut and met the bday boy--weiseng, ah hui, taiyun and jarrel at PS's Swensons. had the mini celebration there. hope he liked it =)) headed for pool at Paradigm near fish n co. the guys played til 530 den went to eat, but i din. guys! so fast den hungry alrdy!! haha.. after eating and crapping, bb and i went home first.

anyway, a very very happy bdae to Mr Aw Wei Seng!! 17 yrs old le.. time reali flies.. it has been 5 yrs since we've known each other. hope tat u'll strive hard in whatever u do and hopefully u achieve gd grades! no matter wad, stay healthy and maintain the happiness and cheerfulness that's forever coming from u! u're a sensible guy. hope ur happiness come by soon. =)) no matter wad happens, remember we'll always be here for u! take great great care.. thanks for being such a great fren these yrs. =D.

ps. you dun have maureen but u still have us! wahahaha...

9:11 PM
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Friday, October 07, 2005
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hEllos!! updates updates! haven been blogging cos of chalet.. it was reali fun.. stil the same place as the previous one-NSRCC. i reckon its the best i've ever had. yaa, shall skip the advantages of it. ha.. im glad some ppl like kat and chye hsia make an effort to come =)). hope u two enjoyed the chalet as much as i did. the rest are the same old ppl, though same, but u guys reali make the 4 days stay fun. **bb,ah hui, jarrel, weiseng, taiyun, kelvin, sayhao, guang, eunice, yeeching** thanks guys for the wonderful 4 days. how i wish the next chalet come by soon.. make sure u guys stil turn up alright? =))

3/10/05 to 6/10/05
bb's dad drove us there. thanks a trillion, for all ur help. seeing old pals reali make me smile. its like a million yrs since we last seen one another. am glad that u guys are getting on fine. completed the registration den headed to unit 2. it wasn't unfamiliar to us. we'd just been there 6 months ago and now we're back there. unpacked the stuff, den gals tok in our room. whew, ages since we chatted. mahjong-ed. crapp-ed. tv-ed. called for pizza. these 4 days have reali been fun. though mahjong-ed most of the time but even if its mahjong, we still enjoy ourselves very much. ppl like jarrel always got alot of crap.. wad "dui mian de zhuo bian, dui mian de dui mian" all this shit. "faggot, maggot" wahahaha...of cos, not forgetting my beloved bb. thanks for being by my side, caring for me so so much and making me laugh like mad making me so happy. =D played games on the second day. glad that it went on smoothly. thanks to ah hui for organising the games. thanks for ur effort. =)). im sure all of them enjoyed themselves, searching for the items the whole chalet. and the rooms were so messy after that thanks to u guys.. LOL. somemore play play play, play until break the soap saucer.. both somemore! but nvm, fun more impt. =DD. hope that the next chalet will be here soon. tis time round, 4 days reali passed very fast. how i wish i can slow down the time. hope that the next chalet will be as fun. u guys must reali take care and stay healthy.

ur words hurt her.
it was just so heart-piercing.
tell her wad to do, will you?
she's at a loss.
immensely so.
she din wan that to happen.
neither did she wan to cause all those.
pls let her see tmr as wad you'd promised.
she dun wan to feel skeptical about that.
please.

broken, healed.
will it go on for as long as they wish?
she's sorry for wad she'd caused.
but does he understand?
anyway,
thanks to him for comprehending.
she's definitely grateful.
she'll keep her promise,
like how she hope he'll keep his.
and she knows he will.
thanks for everything.
eventually, she's still a happy girl
=))

i've gotten back my results for the 1st sem. i must say i'm qute happy with it, cos its like a lil unexpected. =)) hope can keep up the good work next sem. also hope all of TA01 peeps passed their exams. see u guys next sem!

7:35 PM
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Sunday, October 02, 2005
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went to tutor carin today again, at 1030am. man, im so deprived of sleep. had ya kun for breakfast wif bb den went to cck. once again, thanks bb for acc me there. ur presence by my side reali made my day =DD. as usual, carin was hyper. taught her spelling for 2 hrs! oh my, can u imagine.. just 25 words and it took a whole 2 hr. haha, she damn cute laa.. seeing her memorising the words so fun. she looked kinda tortured and trying her best to get the spelling right. but im glad at her progress minus off the parts when she wander ard the room again. she likes to hide my wallet and wants me to find it. haha! sometimes, i reali marvel at kids' naiveness. she always acquire me questions with interest. she goes like "you got bf?" "your bf got smoke?" (i replied no) "but he wait for u downstairs den he go smoke you also don't know." bla bla bla.. LOL. super curious. that's how kids are. and she's kind enough to offer me an umbrella when it rained, but i rejected. "you want my umbrella? i can lend you..." despite her cuteness, she's stil naughty laa..haha

lunched at Lot 1 after tution. bb bought some tee at giordano. went to khatib mrt to meet bestie and guang to buy our chalet stuff! woohoo.. buy buy buy.. until we exceeded our budget of $60. total bill came at $72 and we still haven buy bread and eggs. shall buy them tmr. soo excited about tmr! the long-awaited chalet has finally come. and of cos, MAHJONG!! im sure it's gonna be a fun 4 days. a great time to catch up wif one another and play.. soo, am not gonna blog until thurs or fri depending if i stil have any ounce of energy left to blog the events thru`out the 4 days.(on thurs) til then!

9:55 PM
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Saturday, October 01, 2005
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went to tutor carin today at 330pm.. supposed to be doin maths today which she requested.. but den coached her eng instead.. she said she's having her exam this coming mon.. i was like WTH, so fast.. she told me she has assessment for eng but when i asked for them, there was none. -___-'' nvm, shall forgive her on the account of her cuteness and naiveness. kids are like that larhh... somemore she gave the innocent-looking face which made her look totally lost. LOL. i thought i shall not scare her and so, just revised wif her using her textbook. as today was childrens' day, she demanded a present from me. YES, she demanded. she was like putting her hands forward and asked "where is my present.." haha.. shocked la. i totally forgot cos i'm past the age of celebrating childrens' day. wahahah.. so i shall give her tmr. wad a naughty kid she has been today.. totally hyper laa.. got chair for her to sit and do her work properly she don't want. keep running ard and goin onto her bed. its super difficult to make her sit down k.. i was like "carin, can sit down and do ur work? dun keep running ard." she did listened. but not more than 5 seconds later, she's away from her chair again. haiyo!!

huge thanks to baobei for accompanying me to cck for my tuition! THANKS!! sorry for the waiting ya? 2 hrs is like so long yet so short.. i've experienced b4.. wahahha.. reali appreciate ur company. =))

tmr goin to tutor carin again, but much earlier- 1030am. buying the chalet stuff tmr too.. bestie, tmr can see u!! =D

10:12 PM
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