You are the BEST gift i have ever received ;

Mixed Emotions

I can't believe time passes so fast
It was all good with you around
Times with you i could not describe
I felt as if my heart were alive
I hoped you could feel it
The way that i did
It wasn't my imagination
Or muttering some incantation
You made me smiLe, laugh and grin
Words can't explain, it was like cookies n` cream
Staring into your eyes, so deep inside
I was trapped, i needed light
You gave me a purpose, a goal in life
I'm amazed at how you can make me feel this way
The way no others could
Fate isn't playing on me again, like how it did before
And i'm so glad that all this is the truth
A lifetime of happiness assured

Priscilla

Saturday, December 31, 2005
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a blink of an eye. it is the last day of yr 2005. this significant year changed my life drastically. i had my major spinal surgery to rectify my spinal problem. it was torturous, having to go thru the ordeal of straightening my spine thru surgical methods which turned me into a person who's unable to do simple things like sitting up, going to the toilet myself, and even turning my body. i lost my cheerful self, the priscilla who's always smiling brightly. but lucky, this was temporary. my contemplation of opting for surgery left me clueless if i was right or wrong in this decision during the days after my surgery. i din expect things to be so difficult. i thought it was just getting two rods inside my body-beside my spine, to keep it in place. but i was totally wrong. weak, fragile, smile-less were the words to describe me perfectly. i remembered how i would cry at the moment my dad leave me for his work every morning and leaving for home in the night. the time lying down on the bed ticked by slowly and it was everytime i saw someone familiar that i would lit up and smile a little. crying was the only way to soothe myself and let myself feel better. i appreciate everything my dad does for me during that 7 days in hospital. he was the pillar of mine, supporting me so strongly that i thought the moment he leaves me, i will fall.

thanks DAD for being by my side throughout this ordeal of mine. thanks for coming to the hospital every morning even though it was a hassle and it required u to wake up early just to see me. i reali reali appreciate all this effort of yours.

thanks EUNICE for accompanying me on the day of admission and calming me down. thanks for coming by the hospital almost everyday after your work. it was a joy upon seeing you. BESTIE, this word i know it thoroughly because of you. millions of thanks. not forgetting the strawberry cake =)

thanks BAOBEI and GUANG for also coming by almost everyday. thanks BAOBEI for "feeding" me the porridge. and of cos thanks to both of u for ensuring my bestie's safety at work and after the hospital trip.
p.s BAOBEI, i was reali elated upon seeing you coming to visit me. thanks for comforting me and telling me about the stars on the ceilings. =D and i reali miss you on the day u din come with guang and eunice due to the mosquitoes bites on ur legs.

thanks to BAOBEI, BESTIE and GUANG for the roses. they were lovely.

thanks MICHELLE and SHUCHEN for coming on the 2rd? or 3rd? day with bestie, wen and guang. it was a surprise. thanks for the card and toy.

thanks AH HUI, TAIYUN, JARREL and WEISENG for coming on the 3rd day of my stay in the hospital. thanks for all the fruits, pokka green tea, chocolates, titbits, bla bla. u guys reali know what i like =) and thanks for creating a din at my ward. HAHA. how can i forget the lovely card you guys gave me and put it beside me while i was slping? thanks lots. ooh, wad about the vandalism while trying out ur signatures? LOL. shhhh, secret.

thanks SIS for disturbing me right after my operation and making me cry again. however, thanks for the sweet little card u made for me. thanks for letting me have the energy to argue with you though i was in pain.

thanks SMALL SIS for taking great care of me. i duno what will i be w/o you. you've reali been a great great help.

all these people reali colour my dull stay in the hospital. THANKS GUYS!

the 2nd major change was the re-appearance of BAOBEI in my life, or shld i say, my heart? yes, re-appearance in my HEART. this togetherness with you was a thing i nv dared to imagine or think of. it was the impossible of the impossibles. but miracle did its magic and fate brought us together once again. i truly know the intensity of my love for you. i know what's it like to lead a life without you by my side. i know how happy and fortunate and blessed i am to be your special one again. i reali appreciate this fate btw us and trust me, i will never give up on this relationship ever. YOU are the best gift i'd ever received in my life. iHEARTyouFOREVER**

3rd was the absence of bestie to go to and fro sch with me just like how we always spend our sec sch days. i reali miss days w/o u bestie. i need a crapping and crazy partner. =)) and i'm glad u'd found ur happiness too! bestiesforlife**

i truly hope yr 2006 will be a better year ahead for everyone. take great care everyone.

10:46 PM
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Friday, December 30, 2005
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think my baobei is C.R.A.Z.Y. hahahaha... we were sitting down chatting.. suddenly, there's this super foul smell coming from duno where.. so both of us exclaimed that its reali smelly and unbearable.. guess wad did my dear baobei did to make me feel better?? HAHA.. he actually opened his mouth and positioned it infront of my nose!! wah, u super cute laa baobei!!! where got people like that de? haha.. laugh until i wanna die le laa.. LOL.. sooo, we were talking about watery lips and i commented that guys with watery lips will be a bonus to their image...den, baobei took the bottle of plain water and made his lips wet.. HAHAHAHA.. silly you... you're just fine w/l watery lips boy.. u dun need that to add bonus to ur image =)) cos u've alrdy captured my heart! HAHA.

oohhh... i love the playground!! wwooooaaahhhhh, baobei ******* sooo big hor?!! haha.. another week and it'll be 3 right? LOL. jia you =))

lotsaloveforyoubaobei**
<3

10:35 PM
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Thursday, December 29, 2005
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bleahs~

you seemed proud to have me, dont u? wahahaha

firmly gripped onto me makes me feel so blessed and protected =))

we're a happy two-some =DD

11:19 PM
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i duno wad's got into me.. seriously... when i was all ready for my refreshing bath when i reached home just now, i couldn't find my towel.. and how the hell can my towel go missing!! cos everytime after combing my hair sure hang back de ma.. so i combed for it high and low, practically searched my whole house laa.. which i finally gave up and used my sis's instead.. in the shower, i was playing films in my mind, thinking hard where did my poor towel go to.. i complained when my sis got back cos she'll help me search for it and lucky she din screamed her head off me when she knew i used hers, cos she haven bathe too.. in the end, guess where it was?! it was buried in a heap of clothes which were dumped into the basket where we usually put our worn clothes in. !!!! how blur can i get!! i actually dump it there laa.. blur me.. think watch too much of the 9pm show den becoming the big sotong alrdy laa! haha.. sooo in the end, i realised i love my towel so much.. LOL...

dad so funny laaa.. before he sleeps, he came out to warn my bro not to play maple AGAIN when i finished using. den my bro said he cant get to sleep.. my dad's reaction?
"cannot slp tell me, i get u a pail of water den u help me mop the whole house!" WAHAHAHAHA..

got a gd package comprising of dye+highlight+cut+hair treatment at only $89!! woottss, so happy.. hopefully getting my hair done next week =))

10:31 PM
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15th without the no. 6... sadded~

forgot to mention yday went to watch Narnia, failed to get the no. 6!! which is the no. i always get when i watch movies.. no choice laa.. cos it was, again, almost full-house.. had to sacrifice that laa.. !!!

now at khatib camp mac.. baobei sooo funny laa!!! we went to order food ard 15 min ago.. large fries n mcflurry. den he forgot to pay money!!! wah, laugh until i wanna cry liao.. even the cashier laughing at him also.. haha.. he paiseh til face red.. LOL. bei ahh bei, there's no free food in this world u know?? HAHAHAHA. "i saw u take the mcflurry and eat den i tot i paid money already." tat was his reaction.. LOL.

lalalalalalalalalala`

oh ya,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GUANG XIAN!!

3:27 PM
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Wednesday, December 28, 2005
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THE CHRONICLES OF NARNIA! woots... if king kong is nice, this is nicer!! serious.. very nice movie with some magical effects... especially the place, Narnia. Its so beautiful!! cos its full of darlie-white snow.. simplicity is the feeling i get which i duno why. but, anyway, it is reali nice. ppl or rather creatures who're on the witch's side, reminded me of the disgusting natives in king kong. yucks! nevertheless, the latter were more yucky.. Azlan, the lion, reminded me of Lion King!! oh my, how i loved that movie... akumanatada!! how i wished there's a second part to it.. anyway, NARNIA IS NICE! go catch it, it wont be a disappointment.

headed to heeren's Billy Bombers, like finally! cos all our previous attempts boiled down to zero as the voucher wasn't applicable on the days we went due to xmas's promotions. ssooooo, finally we dined in there today. the food was nice. though the sirloin steak could be more tender.. think its the difference in the chefs' degree of rareness as compared to other restaurants.. sometimes i ordered medium its just nice.. but today at BB, it was a lil too hard. ssooo, yah, other than that quite ok laa.. but the spinach was unbearable for me and baobei.. haha.. oh ya, superstar's weicong was just sitting right beside baobei and me but we din noticed until he went to the toilet.. he's urm, tall, ya definitely. and much more skinnier than what we usually see on tv. kinda shagged look which give me the impression of drug addicts.. haha.. ok, that's besides the point. the point is Billy Bombers was good!

10:20 PM
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Tuesday, December 27, 2005
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just finished reading baobei's post.. HAHAHA. this is my reaction after reading it.. u damn funny laa baobei.. every post sure must got "alright" this word ahh? either starting or ending of post must include de ahh?? LOL. somemore, u end in a funny AND weird way.. haha.. machiam nth to blog den so unwillingly/reluctantly include the father+3 daughters story.. HAHA. cute laa u!!

mahjong today!! woots.. i won!! YES, I WON I WON I WON!! haha.. okok, later hui jarrel n seng get irritated.. shhhhhh... lol.. starting was losing den after baobei changed his seat, i started to have luck and won.. LOL. ya laa.. baobei de gong lao la hor?? lol.. always wanna claim credit de.. oops =X so baobei was concluding, "i must sit at ur left den u'll win.." HAHA. duno if its true.. we'll experiment this the next time k? anyway, mahjong was fun!! wah.. jarrel ahh, sick still can play.. hui u shld say him buakua or wadeva cos he more addicted than me ba? lol.. jarrel!! u take care ahh! most imptly, have more mahjong sessions!!

this 2 weeks of break haven served its purpose yet-studying. yes, it hasn't! like wad baobei blogged, last week was spent on Christmas-ing, Eunice bday-ing and shopping.. totally wet blanket sia the tests.. cannot let us enjoy the break ahh!! sch shld seriously consider abolishing the policy of having tests after breaks so we get ample rest and more imptly, fun! HAHA. smtimes, schools just have to be a little bit more accommodating! HAHA. aiyaa, leave the studying shit to few more days laa.. enjoy first.. haha.. NARNIA tmr! wwwwwoooooooooo...

=))

10:50 PM
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Sunday, December 25, 2005
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MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!

wow, what a joyous festival!! the great day started at 3.30pm, when i met bb at my hse downstairs. (its always great seeing him =) ) after all the ling ling long long, went to heeren's marche! wweeeee, the long-awaited meal at marche!! waited for bestie and guang.. baobei was saying, "they sure late de laa.. we go inside sit first.." HAHA. indeed, he was right!! you two ahh!! haiyo... think must go hogwarts and take up a course learning how to concoct an always-be-on-time potion. HAHA. ok laa, forgive both of u on account of the lovely present you gave me and wen.. hee.. and thanks sooooo much for the letter bestie!! u're also the first on my list k?! YAY! haha..

MARCHE. the meal was not just a meal. it was a meal with my close and loved ones filled with crazyness, laughter and fun! we had loads of food, which after all, my stomach felt like bursting, yes literally. mushroom soup+bread, rosti+cheese sausage, salmon, fried rice, ribeye steak, potato wedges, pizza, calamaries, orange juice, waffle ice-cream... wad a spread.. it was yummylicious! and thanks to eunice for the laughter ya? we were thinking of how to get an explanation from C as to why bla bla bla (you know, i know, we know can already. HAHA) so we were thinking hard with all the funny suggestions coming from guang. THEN, a sms came AT THE RIGHT TIME. all of us got soooo excited, ESPECIALLY EUNICE. she was practically jumping laa!! HAHA. really hilarious man.. so all the qs were asked and we got the ans.. eunice was satisfied with it though bb insisted on a more detailed explanation. haha.. seeing eunice and guang's fun bickering also made baobei laugh until very happily.. haha.. look like small kid laa u!! =P but we conclude that its perfectly fine for couples to bicker and quarrel at times... if you dun wan the outcome to be like bla and bla.. but also not to the extreme always quarrel one laa.. back to marche.. oh my, we overspent laa!! actually our budget was $20 per person. BUT, the bill came to $122.20, which means each has to pay $30+. wah.. i din bring enough money cos thought $20 enough le.. sians.. den baobei helped me pay den no more $$ to buy our hats.. sob sob.. =(( nvm, baobei assured me next year! i'm soo looking forward! and baobei, not to worry, your present is more than enough to compensate for the absence of xmas hats =)) anyway, it was a very memorable christmas this year.. not forgetting to mention, I LOVE YOU BAOBEI!! THANKS SOOOO MUCH FOR UR LOVELY PRESENT. I LOVE IT ALOT ALOT ALOT!

original:

last xmas,
i gave you my heart.
but the very next day,
you gave it away.
this year,
to save me from tears,
i'm giving to someone special.

new version dedicated to baobei:

this xmas,
i gave you my heart.
and i know that for sure,
you'll keep it with you.
my love,
i'm so~ so blessed,
to have you by my side.

baobei, thanks a million for making this xmas so wonderful, so memorable and so special. i feel very loved and blessed because of you. no matter wad happens, you're the only one i love, now and forever. i've given you my all and i want to spend my whole life with you. i love you much much!! =))

12:17 AM
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Saturday, December 24, 2005
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ooh! wad a wonderful day!!

bei, rmb ahh.. only after 100 den you'll get one of mine.. you deserved it..orh bi! wahahahha..

after cck, went down to bugis for shopping!! wow.. reached there at 11.45am and there was already a crowd of ppl.. walked ard.. din buy anything there.. settled for lunch at foodcourt.. man, we had a hell of a time deciding wad to eat!! looks like our stomachs are difficult to satisfy huh.. or is it just mine? HAHA. we walked ard the foodcourt for ard 20 mins? DEN we got our food.. i hate meal times!! always gotta rack our brains on wad to eat.. anyway, after bugis, we went to PS then to far east.. got baobei a nice nice shirt as xmas present.. that was reali a nice shirt!! i love seeing guys wearing that kinda clothes.. hee.. =)) so happy that baobei liked wad i chose.. shopped ard and baobei bought another shirt at 77th street.. it was just right.. ok why do i say that.. my baobei very weird one... ALWAYS try on shirts, M size too small, L size too big!! see laa, all nice shirts' cutting dont fit you.. wasted leh!! HAHA. so, i told baobei his size is M1/2 cos its btw M and L. trust me, its true.. i've witnessed it soooo many times that this is reali the case everytime he tries on shirts.. oh my, how wasted cum irritating cum frustrating can this get!! haha.. if not today can buy alot of nice nice tops already!!! you know wad to do ma?? EAT FATTER!! YOU'RE TOOOOO THIN!! (but not 3 of that chocos a day!) so both of us were sooo happy when baobei bought his second shirt.. it was JUST RIGHT. LOL. guess today shld be considered as baobei's shopping day ba.. quite fruitful hur? bought quite a no. of things.. and the cool cool thing! you gotta thank me man!! if ppl praise that, pls credit it to me.. thanks! HAHA. after all these walking, i tell you my legs are breaking!! not forgetting to mention we walked from far east to heeren! so far can!! and it was a wasted trip cos BB's voucher isn't applicable today.. nvm, tmr's marche shall make up for all this!! wwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =)))

oh ya, decided to give the count-down a miss cos i wanna rest well and fully recharged myself for tmr's chirstmas!! =))

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to baobei ONLY:
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou
iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou iloveyou

I REALLY LOVE YOU ALOT!!

know why there's 50 of that?? hint hint, at wisma's shop.. 49.90. HEE.

10:02 PM
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Friday, December 23, 2005
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU BESTIE, ANG EUNICE!!

wah, bestie finally 17 le hor! but nvm.. guang later than you.. HAHA. this year sooo different rite.. like first time nv celebrate with you.. sobs.. guang ahh! take good care of my bestie hor!! wondering if u have fun today.. hmm.. i shld trust guang's capability la hor.. LOL. eunice aka bestie aka nian ti ying (oops, i sensed bb's reaction..haha), you're reali a great fren all these years.. really hope we can achieved good results and get into the same University! wonder how's my life w/o u all these years.. i guess it'll be void of laughter and crazyness.. you're always so hyper, so cheerful, and never fail to brighten up my days.. reali glad to have u as bestie.. now tat you and guang together, i sincerely wish you both happiness and everlasting love! loveyoulots~!!

THANKS jocelyn for your xmas card! wah.. so bad right bluff me in order to get my address!! haha.. nvm.. wont blame you laa on account of the lovely card.. made me feel so gullible! Merry Christmas to you too!! you've also been a great fren to me =) guess now u're enjoying your holiday trip ba.. have lotsa fun!!

oh my.. xmas is nearing us.. 2 more days.. this yr reali very happy.. xmas was never really an occasion which i'd expected it to be.. but yes this yr.. its all so special.. baobei, you made it truly special for me. 1st time celebrating with my loved one.. honoured?? haha.. to add on, we're having double dates huh.. with eunice and guang celebrating this joyous occasion with us.. weeeeeeeeeee, so excited!! we'll be getting our xmas hats!! haha sound like a small girl.. can anyone just feel my joy?! hee.. not forgetting marche!! ok, i'll just wait patiently for another 2 days! muchlove**

bei ahh bei.. dun eat so many choco in a day k!! though i want you to get fat.. but that's not the way! still dare to show me wad u bought when i called you upon reaching home.. naughty you!!
snore and snore and snore!

7:15 PM
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Thursday, December 22, 2005
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So long since I met bestie already!! Finally today have the chance.. cos early bday celebration for her.. all thanks to guang huh.. snatched bestie away, cannot celebrate with her on the actual day! Haha.. joking laa.. HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO BESTIE!! Had thaiexpress for lunch.. wow.. its been so long since baobei and I went to thaiexpress.. reminds me of esplanade.. haha.. sweet memories there =) the tom yam soup is reali nice!! Go try it out if u guys have a chance.. the meal was great =))

Meeting up during xmas too.. woots! MARCHE MARCHE MARCHE, HERE WE COME!! Sooo happy!! Marche dun accept reservations, oh my.. gotta reach there early to wait I guess.. but I believe its all worthwhile!! We're getting our xmas hats too!! Weeee

Saw weiseng today.. wah.. search for xmas present search until popular ahh!! LOL. Somemore all his frenz + him wore black.. men in black ahh?! Haha..

Now all over so many sales and promotions going on!! Oh my.. cant wait to buy the clothes I fancy.. already bought one today. Gtg shop for more!

Baobei ahh, thanks for the star pouch!! So sweet of u =))
OH MY, YOU'RE SO MUSCULAR!!
Haha.. oops..

9:30 PM
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Wednesday, December 21, 2005
la-la-la

received an xmas card from vanessa yday.. oh my.. so sweet of you girl for the lovely card! thanks lots =)) Merry Xmas to you and ur family too..

my sis's fren gave her 3 small hamsters.. oh my.. all 3 are sooooooo cute!! really very cute.. they very tiny only lo.. its a miracle mum din protest to my sis keeping them.. cos my mum dun like animals in our house.. especially dogs.. in a home, cleanliness is very very important to her.. ok, back to the hamsters.. got 2 like to attack on one. like yday, when that pathetic little hamster was sleeping soundly at one corner by itself, the other two went to disturb it. so mean laa! just now went to look at them.. Sssoooo cute i tell you.. u know the wheel thing for them to play ard with.. all 3 sleeping on it and practically laying on each other.. haha.. super adorable laa!

bei ahh... i know ur weakness le!!! haha.. funny laa u!! laugh like hell.. loveyou**

10:09 PM
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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
la-la-la

baobei such a pig laa!!!
"5 min pls baobei.. i'm reali very tired.."
wah.. this sentence duno heard how many times today hor baobei?? HAHA.. the photo i took so funny!! LOL. soooocute*

went to search for eunice's present.. wah.. seriously i dun like to buy presents.. cos its like scared u buy den people dun like ma.. but obviously all of us do have the thinking "its the thought that counts" after all the walking and walking and still walking, finally got her present. hope you like it though.. legs so tired after that man!!

had a wonderful dinner today at.................................................HANS!! oh my.. i so miss that laa.. haven ate that for 928457823652834 years! THANKS SO MUCH BAOBEI for bringing me there.. heehee.. reali like their bacon and egg sandwich.. nice!! it was worth it though we were drenched while going there.. =)) i love HANS, BUT i love you more.. or shld i say most? hee.. =DD

use the spectacle box!! its cute! haha

aku cinta pelamu**

10:13 PM
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Monday, December 19, 2005
la-la-la

today commence the start of our 2 weeks break!! wooooooooooo.. shiokness! however still gotta go back sch to submit our wcomm project.. met meiyan den went to bind.. wah... ours damn thick laa! hope the project turns out well.. cos we realli spend a hell of a time to complete it.. *hope*

baobei had his meetings and minutes today.. not bad.. got improve.. well-done boy! one step closer to ur 3.2 GPA =)) keep it up..

we collected our 14th movie ticket today.. KING KONG has the honour to be the 14th. haha.. ok crap.. wait till we reached 100th.. that will be great! anyway.. KING KONG was reali a nice movie.. super touching! it definitely dint let us down.. normally i wouldn't watch this kinda movies cos there's violence and gross scenes like the people in skull island.. yucckkss~ totally turned me off.. covered my eyes with my jacket..if not at night sure cant sleep.. but, on the account of the touching storyline behind it, i give thumbs up! quite a tear-jerking movie.. especially when u see KING KONG kena attacked by so many heartless people.. or shld i say creatures.. KING KONG knew he was going to die anyway, so perhaps he wanted to fulfill his last dream which was to see the beautiful scene with the actress(pardon me.. i forgotten her name.. haha) once again.. it meant so much to him.. and wad's reali touching was he understood and remembered the sign when the actress told him the scene which they'd witnessed earlier on was splendid and he showed the sign back to her.. oh my.. ssooo moving! recommended~

the 3 hrs plus duration of the movie made my wound hurts.. i cant sit or stand too long.. and this had proven to take its toll on me.. i seriously dun wan my wound to worsen or that the metal inside get crooked.. furthermore, i'm having my next appointment in this coming jan! oh my.. please.. stay good in ur places metals! i dun wan to be reprimanded by my surgeon.. do me this favour!!

anyway, it was great to have a day to ourselves after like 93875834759857 days.. super busy with school work laa.. though now is the break but also must study.. can only afford to slacken a little.. tmr going out again! woots.. im SOoooooooooo happy! =DD

"If i were the ROBBERY... i will..."
WAHAHAHAHA. baobei never fails to crack me up..

maomaocong-maomaocong-maomaocong-maomaocong-
oops.

10:23 PM
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Sunday, December 18, 2005
la-la-la

i guess nobody understands..
all i can do is....hai..i dont know..

ihatemyself.

11:54 PM
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Saturday, December 17, 2005
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baobei cut hair!! haha.. bei ahh.. just wanna tell u, although its short BUT its so much neater.. considering u're such an untidy YET vain guy!! HAHA.. told u le.. hair cut short le still will grow back de.. though i noe if my hair is cut to an unacceptable hairstyle, i'll most probably be brooding over it.. cos hair is reali precious.. i can understand baobei.. but, it WILL grow back de and so, no worries! u think wad.. cut short short hair den i dun wan u ahh? haha.. wont lo.. told u even if u MO*tak i still want you de.. it'll be the case in 2 yrs plus wont it? haha.. so, dun keep saying its bla bla bla.. cos its reali neat, though short laa.. haha.. if anyone dare to say u nerd or wad just tell me.. i sure go arbish* him/her de.. LOL. =))

reali reali super lots of thanks to you, baobei.. have to work today but still insists on acc-ing me to cck.. u duno how these small little things/acts warmed my heart =D

anyway, carin wasn't feeling well today.. so i left earlier. take great care!!

why is parting with you so so miserable? i keep telling myself "hey, dont cry. its not that u wont be seeing him again.. just control ur tears.. control!" but i just cant seem to do it. whenever i hold back my tears, they protested violently.. so eager to roll down my cheek. why do i always have to make him worry and make him sad with me? i know he's as sad and she bu de as me.. but he put up a strong front and hush me.. and he always try his best to stop my never-ending tears.. even if it means smth which is impossible (alright, to me) , he still will try it. just for the sake of stopping my tears. when can i ever be successful in this? its reali difficult. emotions are always so overwhelming.. but i guess im beginning to adapt to this.. i know i can never control this. imagine wad will happen to me during the 2 years when u're not by my side.. hai.. i dun wan to make u sad, make u worry, pls remember. i dun wan to see ur red and teary eyes when u felt my sadness.. i dun wan to see u fighting so hard to hold back ur tears.. i dun wan, i dun wan.. just give me time.. i will conquer this challenge. reali reali love you lots baobei.. i can never imagine my life without you. really. muchloves**

pardon my emotions.. anyway, today after lunch with baobei went to peiling's hse to do wcom project.. wah, peiling ahh.. ur hse so difficult to find!! do and do.. never realise got so many things to complete.. all the tabulating and doing the report.. can die! but still not completed yet.. which means tmr gonna complete it. save us from all this turmoil!!

N.O.W. am really missing baobei to bits.. he's working now.. wondering if he's hungry.. sure hungry de.. he's such a pig.. wondering if he's thirsty, if he's so wanting to pee.. haha.. oh ya he can reali control his urine mind you.. but i told him never to do it.. cos ya.. will get diabetes ma.. hope faster 11pm den he end work le.. sure very tiring for him de.. though i know he's fit laa.. (so happy now rite bb! haha) hope time pass quickly soon it'll be 12 plus 1 den will be able to hear his voice le.. missyoutobits**

9:15 PM
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Friday, December 16, 2005
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wow.. so many days never blog le.. not online for as many days too.. no choice laa.. this week, though its the last week before the 2 weeks break start, super busy.. got 2 tests.. today was bca.. totally spoil our holiday mood man! if not wednesday can enjoy already..

but anyway, its the holidays now!!! so happy... king kong king kong king kong!! haha.. gonna catch that movie.. hope it'll be a fruitful and enjoyable 2 weeks break for my frenz, bb and me..

must rest well and get MORE sleep!! total yaynes.. =)))

9:15 PM
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Sunday, December 11, 2005
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HAPPY 5TH MONTH BAOBEI!!

wow! time passed so fast! it seems like just two weeks ago was July 11th, the special day.. but no, 151 days have passed.. this five months alot of happiness as well as sadness. though we're upset and all, but all that helped us grow and learn. one thing for sure, a relationship definitely will meet with problems/hurdles and they put our relationship to a test. it makes a vast difference after we overcome all that. we get sad, we cry, we hug, we smile and we re-assure each other. most importantly, we love each other more and more. and i will say, without the problems, we wont be the happy couple we are now. a relationship is not call a relationship if its smooth-sailing. and very often, it is the problems couple met that made them give each other up. so, if we're able to conquer the obstacles, we know that we are meant to be and he/she is the one you're looking for. a relationship will not be strong unless it is put to a test. and i'm so proud to say we've overcame all. we've passed the test of endurance, patience and love. congratulations! haha.. Happy 5th month, Happy 151 days baobei. =))

we so kelian laa! 5th month but din really celebrate cos gotta study for bca test. its ok baobei.. we still got xmas, 6th month, upcoming months, bdays! thanks for bringing me to eat tako pachi.. haha.. so yummy. =D the bday-present chat was so funny laa.. you this copycat.. no originality! LOL. anyway, i just want to sae ILOVEYOU baobei. im so so blessed to have you by my side. you make me smile, you cheer me up, you protect me, you care for me. most significantly, it is ur unconditional love that make me a happy girl. thanks a million. you make a difference in my life, that's for sure! =DD

10:00 PM
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Saturday, December 10, 2005
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Look at our happy faces! =))

My cute cute baobei!

Boy ahh!! you need a haircut! HAHA

10:34 PM
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had mac for breakfast..den go tutor carin. today is sooo much earlier.. at 830am. cos she having swimming lessons at 11am which means she has to leave her house at 1030am. has to sacrifice my slp time cos gotta study.. so no choice.. next week having 2 tests and 1 bca review. THANKS baobei for acc-ing me there again! i sacrifice slp time, you also have to sacrifice with me. reali touched baobei.. =)) anyway, today studied for ffa test le.. so tmr gonna drill on bca.. after next week, im sooo free!! as free as a bird.. -smiles**

baobei ahh!! getting so naughty right.. baobei de hua ye bu yao ting le! throat not feeling well asked u dun sing u still sing.. why insist on singing for me? i know u love singing, or rather u love singing for me (=P) but ur throat needs some rest and good care by you.. so can listen to me maa?? and by "listen" i mean the whole day hor! not just 5 seconds den after that you begin the singing again.. go think how many times i said you're naughty today... COUNTLESS TIMES!! bu kui shi wo de baobei =))

hmm.. duno why but my neck area got some rashes.. think its caused due to the senstivity of the necklace i'm wearing..

baobei: haiyoo... why here like that?(pointing to my neck)
me: the necklace
baobei: aiyoo.. dun wear already laa baobei.. i give you lotion, ok le den u wear again.
me: NO WAY! you give me de leh!

iduncareiduncare! its the only necklace(as in, gift from ppl) i wore in my lifetime you know? eunice shld noe actually in the past i dun like to wear de.. but its from you.. so its exceptional.. it makes a difference you know? haha.. loves**

10:17 PM
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Friday, December 09, 2005
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has the past image of u disappeared?
i'm such a failure..
i'm sorry..
its my fault..

it penetrated deep into my heart.

10:16 PM
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Thursday, December 08, 2005
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today had the once-in-a-lifetime meetings & minutes during wcomm.. oh my.. all of us were so nervous laa! was wondering which topic will we kena.. and thoughts like "wad the operating manager do? wad is the IT manager in-charge of?" and stuff were going thru in our minds.. super nervous laa.. somemore we duno our roles beforehand lo.. so scared.. early in the morning got yu4 gan3 that i'll kena the role of chairperson. in the end, reali kena ahh!! wah.. but also lucky laa.. chairperson not that bad.. sooo the whole time during the meeting, i was controlling my laughter from bursting out..yaa, cos of the 'bean' from our class.. wahh i see him, totally cannot control my laughter de. but for the sake of the 10% i had no choice but to prevent myself from laughing out. cos b4 the meeting starts, mr paul chang already warned us no laughter is allowed as it'll break the momentum of the meeting. sooo, being the obedient student, how can i disobey him? wahahaha.. ok crap. i just wanted to do my part well and not do anything to endanger the whole thing. So, everything went on fine. next week will get to know how we did le. tmr is baobei's turn.. bei ahh, dun worry kays.. u can do it de. =)) i pass the luck which u passed to me today back to you. =D best of luck!!!

the ipod nano was funny har peiling!!! LOL-LOL-LOL-LOL-LOL-LOL

YES!! holidays is starting 2 weeks later. and im soooooooo damn happy because i only got one module to be tested and that's macro! super slack laa. somemore the macro test consists of only mcq and T/F questions!! wooooo.. G.R.E.A.T! 2 weeks can more or less enjoy le.. but, projects will still be bugging us. IAC, FFA myob, BMGT. not forgetting all the e-learning ex to be completed. but im still happy there's two weeks break!! weeeeeeee... bei can go watch zathura le!! and ur kingkong! haha..

but b4 the fun begins, next week is hell. mon got bca review and that teacher is scary enough to scare us all out of our wits. she sure challenge our excel until we speechless de. 5% leh!! piangs* wed have ffa test! and fri got bca test! wah.. you tell me can die anot.. we got only a pathetic of 2 days(weekends) to revise and all. not enough!! somemore next week is ffa and bmgt e-learning. sounds good eh? but it ISN'T! cos for thurs, bmgt is in btw some lessons and wcom which we have to attend no matter wad. den for fri, we have to attend bca lect too. sians. BUT nvm.. i think of the 2 weeks break, i happy le.. ehhhh, no leh.. is 3 weeks!! cos macro test on fri. haha.. so mon-thurs no sch.. wahhh, shiok!!! more time for baobei!!!!!!

holidayholidayholidayholidayholidayholidayholiday!! -chants

unhappiness may be hurting and upsetting..
but at the end of the day, it brings us closer..

sorry isn't that noble after all..
i hope i dun have to become a person i dun wish to be.

ur promises are impt to me,
and i sincerely hope you'll honour them.

8:31 PM
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Wednesday, December 07, 2005
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOCELYN!!!!! (its the colour closest to pink!) =))

Joaquim Chorale!! woots.. long time no see all. glad to have a chance to sing with you guys again on Ms Yu's wedding dinner which is on the 31st! yeah.. joyce asked if i wanna perform with the choir on her big day.. it's a good opportunity to sing with my choir again and a mini gathering! all my juniors, how have you guys been? having practices on 30th and 31st.. hope everything turns out fine! wedding wedding!! i love attending wedding dinners.. when will it be my turn??

rmb the last time i mentioned about the quote "great minds think alike, but fools seldom differ?" abruptly, baobei brought this topic up and started questioning "why cannot be stupid people must be fools? why cannot use idiots must use fools?" like hello! as if i know! im not the one who came up with this quote ya? haha.. crappy baobei.. u this naughty boy! H* kid.. lol.. CRA~ZY. **oop was fun eh?? hee..

**baobei!! friday's plan is ruined! i forgot i got myob+revision lecture at 5!! arghhh.. will our sunday be gone too? hai.. 4 more days~

10:54 PM
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Tuesday, December 06, 2005
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wooo... i received my first xmas present this yr. and its from my lil sis.. u guys must be thinking, why so early right? haha.. i thought so too.. u know kids when they have a present to give, they cant wait one.. anyway, she did a real sweet thing for me.. she sewed a heart shape cushion-like thing for me.. and its a taurus sign in the middle of it. its really sweet of her.. she got fine hands so can do a good job in sewing.. not like me, clumsy little girl.. how i wish i got hands which will obey me too.. haha.. ok crap, anyway, reali a big thanks to my sis!!

u're thinking of the never-will-happen things.. =))

10:23 PM
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waiting for baobei at the underground.. suddenly there's 3 gal who approached me and asked me to do a survey. i agreed since there wasn't anything for me to do.. it was about Christmas.. about the candy cane, the fir of the xmas tree. have u ever wondered why the candy cane comes in a form of a "J" ? guess Chrtistians may know why.. yes, its bcos of Jesus. and according to them, the red stripes on the candy cone represent the stripes on his body when He(in courtesy of God) was whipped. interesting facts i've known ya? but initially when i was asked to do the survey, i din doubt their intention, which was to tell me,once again, about Jesus Christ. i tot it was just a fun survey and to intellect me with more info on xmas.. but it proved not to be so in the end. think i have the i-want-to-be-a-Christian look hur? if not why is everyone approaching me the minute i find a seat and start playing my game? this is, since sch started, the second encounter with ppl sharing about God to me. when they knew i was free thinker, they probed and asked me if i wanna find an answer as to which God exists. i then told them dat it all boils down to wad u believe in. it is the belief in you that makes u feel connected to certain Gods. so i told them as much as i want to know the truth, i couldn't. bcos it is beyond my means to do so. they were nice people i must say. i turned down their offer of asking me to go for a "discovery session"(obviously about God) politely and instantly saw their disappointed expression. but wad can i do? i just want to remain my free thinker status, at least for now.

speaking about xmas.. oh im so excited! the plans are not spoiled! 26th shall be the family dinner and soooo, 25th is the special day. total yayness!!

santa claus is coming to town~

11:45 AM
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Monday, December 05, 2005
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"great improvement" baobei!! haha.. as quoted by pl.. that's a good sign..thanks for acc me all the way to LT45 again =))

wah!! today bca lesson cancelled! it can be soooo super shiok IF we were informed earlier!! but no, that wasn't the case.. when we reached our classroom and set up all our lappies, this lady came and told us the good-yet-not-so-good news.. dots laa.. so actually we were released at 1030 and could've free ourselves from all the waiting. and i could've crashed bb's lect and have lunch with him... but that teacher just didn't inform us earlier. wadever.. so i met up with bb after he ate for ard 40 min before his lesson starts.. haha.. its good enough.. =D not to forget, the ba1 gua4 session with A01 gals was fun hur! peiling got soo excited at seeing all the shuai ges.. LOL. next time u hungry no need give u food le.. give u shuai ges pic also can appease ur appetite.. LOL. we had fun commenting on ppl and found once again that ppl that we know are somehow connected!! totally amaze me..

stayed in the classroom til 345 den go wait for baobei at canteen.. baobei so ke lian.. cough so badly until cannot eat titbits and nice food.. only can sit down and see me eat those yummy food.. lol..u better eat medicine and drink lots of water ahh! if not 5th month dont bring u go eat nice nice food le.. haha.. get well soon baobei!! muchlove**

6 days...

8:23 PM
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Sunday, December 04, 2005
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sundays are always so lovely! reckoned that next 2 weeks are gonna be so so busy.. hope i wont suffer from any breakdown.. i want to maintain the cheerful me.. projects shoooooooooooo!!! i hate you! sometimes i just wish to leave this hectic pace of life and go to a farway serene place to calm my nerves and soothe me inside out.. u know the stress i'm feeling is just sooooo pressurizing! so sickening...

anyway, today got the STAR AWARDS! that's one of my most favourite tv program!! and its once every yr so reali cherish the show. this year also very special cos first time nv watch at home.. baobei booked me like a week ago? HAHA. so watched it in the coffeeshop with him. i think thats the place we patronise most in a week.. maybe 3-4 times? the ban mian there is nice!! ok get my drift.. back to the topic.. Terence Cao and Qi Yu Wu SUPER handsome laa!! wah.. so charming man.. but can stop dreaming already, cos my prince charming already arrived. er hem! HAHA. he wanted me to mention this... "YOU'RE VERY HANDSOME BAOBEI!!" so now i guess he's smiling happily.. haha.. so funny watch with him.. cos when he saw the part which showed the 2 least favourable actors and the reaction of the two, he was laughing, like a small kid i shld add.. LOL.

7 days more.. i hope nth spoils it. it's special to me.

11:00 PM
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Saturday, December 03, 2005
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THANK-YOU SO MUCH BAOBEI!!

oh my god.. why am i so lucky to have this baobei of mine.. wondering if i did a super gd deed to deserve such a wonderful gift bestowed to me.. i am reali reali very touched by wad u did. guess no one can ever sacrifice so much for me, except you, my lovely boy.. met baobei in the morning for brunch.. he wasn't feeling well, i know. but he insisted on going to work.. yes, for the sake of the money in preparation for our 5th month. yes baobei, i saw ur persistence. but, reali.. money cannot compensate you by my side. all i need and want is you. i was so sulky and upset at the thought of not being able to see baobei after tuition.. so i asked if he can reach suntec later..i know i am selfish. but sorry baobei.. it reali makes a BIG BIG difference as to i CAN see you after my tuition VS i CANNOT see you after it. it meant so much to me, not forgetting the fact that u're always there waiting for me patiently.. i just couldn't bear the thought of not being able to see you for the rest of the day. and yes, those who are familiar with my tearing glands.. i teared, once again. it was cascading like nobody's business.. but deep down, i know wad the tears meant. it was the unwillingness and sadness i felt deep within me. above all, it was the love i feel for u. so intense, so strong. i just hugged him tightly, and cry cry cry.. and baobei is there, as always, to hush me. i saw those tears or rather "water"(which you'll call it) in your eyes. im so sorry to make u sad. i know ur unwillingness too and there was nth we could do about it. eventually, my tears "persuaded" baobei. he din go for work. all bcos of me. and i felt so bad. the moment he say "ok baobei, i dun go i dun go.. dun cry already.." i cried even worse. THANKS baobei for all your love for me. it meant the world to me. "dun cry already baobei.. later 4 oclock u come down can see me already! dun cry!" these are the words which calmed my heart and myself down. it did a tremendous job of making my heart smile within. reali thank you soooooo much baobei. I LOVE YOU!!

i was wondering this is such a trivial matter. and its only a matter of 7-8 hours? imagine wad will happen if he goes for army. i tell you, those who dun mind teary waters for consumption can come to me. i think i wont be able to take it, perhaps for some time. hopefully i can adapt to the days without him by my side, loving me, caring me, protecting me and joking with me.

many may think that im so silly to cry like a tap for such a trivial matter. BUT, its bcos they din go thru wad i did for the 4 yrs before. they din know my inner feelings/emotions.. how i struggled so hard to get myself pass the years.. and how i acted nonchalent when.....(i dun wish to say) it was a miserable part of my life. VERY i would say. guess only one person can comprehend my feelings and its bestie. she knew wad i went thru and was always by my side. i believe, now that im together with baobei, she can feel my joy and happiness. its all bcos she knew wad had happened..

BLESSED. this word i get to understand thoroughly through baobei. because its him who made me feel blessed. it's a feeling no others can provide me with and im reali grateful and happy that he's by my side. i duno wad else to say to thank you baobei. i just know that i want a lifetime with you. =))

4:01 AM
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Friday, December 02, 2005
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im starting to dislike fridays now.. minus the fact that its near the weekend.. cos of macro lessons.. she treat us like kids man! oh my.. and got the stupid LT45 again.. but lucky today is Mr Humpty Dumpty.. so not so bad.. he got quite a gd sense of humour hur.. "the surgeon anyhow cut, den u anyhow die.." LOL. he's cute laa.. as in his words and teaching.. very entertaining indeed.. prevent us from dozing off.. haha.. he emphasized the need to praise him in our blogs IF we ever mention him and cuts away all negative remarks.. so here Mr Pang "YOU'RE A GD LECTURER!!" nah, big enough anot?? haha.. but sians laa cos nxt week not him le.. back to the i-forgot-her-name lecturer cum tutor.

bca was like fast.. funny laa.. meiyan claimed she lost her highlighter's cap.. so all of us search high and low for it.. but was nowhere in sight.. until she poured out all her stationaries in her pencil case(not the 1st time) and suddenly it popped out. haha.. she said "i duno why.. but suddenly its here.." haha.. funny laa u meiyan!

supposed to be tutoring carin at 10 in the morning tmr.. but her mum called(after i arranged the time with carin) and said she got swimming lessons every sat from 11-1. DOTS. which means my saturday is ruined in the sense that, cant have more time for school work.. guess that's all about compromising.. so sorry baobei.. still gotta trouble u to send me there before going for ur work. reali sorry. also, a big big thank-you.. although i have to go back myself, but its gd enough to have u beside me while going to teach her. =)) loveyou*

u're so naughty! haha.. "bluffed" me somemore ahh. say can shoot!! but cannot! haha.. ok laa.. i see your red face blushing now.. LOL. shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

6:04 AM
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Thursday, December 01, 2005
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the feeling is indescribable.

i cant describe it.

all i know is that, it is terrible.

and it hurts a whole lot.

is that called heart lurching?

im so sorry.

useless me.

its my fault.

i wish wad u wish for.

i hope wad u hope for.

believe me when i say forever.

cos i want a lifetime with you by my side.

4:34 AM
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