You are the BEST gift i have ever received ;

Mixed Emotions

I can't believe time passes so fast
It was all good with you around
Times with you i could not describe
I felt as if my heart were alive
I hoped you could feel it
The way that i did
It wasn't my imagination
Or muttering some incantation
You made me smiLe, laugh and grin
Words can't explain, it was like cookies n` cream
Staring into your eyes, so deep inside
I was trapped, i needed light
You gave me a purpose, a goal in life
I'm amazed at how you can make me feel this way
The way no others could
Fate isn't playing on me again, like how it did before
And i'm so glad that all this is the truth
A lifetime of happiness assured

Priscilla

Saturday, December 31, 2005
la-la-la

a blink of an eye. it is the last day of yr 2005. this significant year changed my life drastically. i had my major spinal surgery to rectify my spinal problem. it was torturous, having to go thru the ordeal of straightening my spine thru surgical methods which turned me into a person who's unable to do simple things like sitting up, going to the toilet myself, and even turning my body. i lost my cheerful self, the priscilla who's always smiling brightly. but lucky, this was temporary. my contemplation of opting for surgery left me clueless if i was right or wrong in this decision during the days after my surgery. i din expect things to be so difficult. i thought it was just getting two rods inside my body-beside my spine, to keep it in place. but i was totally wrong. weak, fragile, smile-less were the words to describe me perfectly. i remembered how i would cry at the moment my dad leave me for his work every morning and leaving for home in the night. the time lying down on the bed ticked by slowly and it was everytime i saw someone familiar that i would lit up and smile a little. crying was the only way to soothe myself and let myself feel better. i appreciate everything my dad does for me during that 7 days in hospital. he was the pillar of mine, supporting me so strongly that i thought the moment he leaves me, i will fall.

thanks DAD for being by my side throughout this ordeal of mine. thanks for coming to the hospital every morning even though it was a hassle and it required u to wake up early just to see me. i reali reali appreciate all this effort of yours.

thanks EUNICE for accompanying me on the day of admission and calming me down. thanks for coming by the hospital almost everyday after your work. it was a joy upon seeing you. BESTIE, this word i know it thoroughly because of you. millions of thanks. not forgetting the strawberry cake =)

thanks BAOBEI and GUANG for also coming by almost everyday. thanks BAOBEI for "feeding" me the porridge. and of cos thanks to both of u for ensuring my bestie's safety at work and after the hospital trip.
p.s BAOBEI, i was reali elated upon seeing you coming to visit me. thanks for comforting me and telling me about the stars on the ceilings. =D and i reali miss you on the day u din come with guang and eunice due to the mosquitoes bites on ur legs.

thanks to BAOBEI, BESTIE and GUANG for the roses. they were lovely.

thanks MICHELLE and SHUCHEN for coming on the 2rd? or 3rd? day with bestie, wen and guang. it was a surprise. thanks for the card and toy.

thanks AH HUI, TAIYUN, JARREL and WEISENG for coming on the 3rd day of my stay in the hospital. thanks for all the fruits, pokka green tea, chocolates, titbits, bla bla. u guys reali know what i like =) and thanks for creating a din at my ward. HAHA. how can i forget the lovely card you guys gave me and put it beside me while i was slping? thanks lots. ooh, wad about the vandalism while trying out ur signatures? LOL. shhhh, secret.

thanks SIS for disturbing me right after my operation and making me cry again. however, thanks for the sweet little card u made for me. thanks for letting me have the energy to argue with you though i was in pain.

thanks SMALL SIS for taking great care of me. i duno what will i be w/o you. you've reali been a great great help.

all these people reali colour my dull stay in the hospital. THANKS GUYS!

the 2nd major change was the re-appearance of BAOBEI in my life, or shld i say, my heart? yes, re-appearance in my HEART. this togetherness with you was a thing i nv dared to imagine or think of. it was the impossible of the impossibles. but miracle did its magic and fate brought us together once again. i truly know the intensity of my love for you. i know what's it like to lead a life without you by my side. i know how happy and fortunate and blessed i am to be your special one again. i reali appreciate this fate btw us and trust me, i will never give up on this relationship ever. YOU are the best gift i'd ever received in my life. iHEARTyouFOREVER**

3rd was the absence of bestie to go to and fro sch with me just like how we always spend our sec sch days. i reali miss days w/o u bestie. i need a crapping and crazy partner. =)) and i'm glad u'd found ur happiness too! bestiesforlife**

i truly hope yr 2006 will be a better year ahead for everyone. take great care everyone.

10:46 PM
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