Saturday, December 03, 2005
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THANK-YOU SO MUCH BAOBEI!!
oh my god.. why am i so lucky to have this baobei of mine.. wondering if i did a super gd deed to deserve such a wonderful gift bestowed to me.. i am reali reali very touched by wad u did. guess no one can ever sacrifice so much for me, except you, my lovely boy.. met baobei in the morning for brunch.. he wasn't feeling well, i know. but he insisted on going to work.. yes, for the sake of the money in preparation for our 5th month. yes baobei, i saw ur persistence. but, reali.. money cannot compensate you by my side. all i need and want is you. i was so sulky and upset at the thought of not being able to see baobei after tuition.. so i asked if he can reach suntec later..i know i am selfish. but sorry baobei.. it reali makes a BIG BIG difference as to i CAN see you after my tuition VS i CANNOT see you after it. it meant so much to me, not forgetting the fact that u're always there waiting for me patiently.. i just couldn't bear the thought of not being able to see you for the rest of the day. and yes, those who are familiar with my tearing glands.. i teared, once again. it was cascading like nobody's business.. but deep down, i know wad the tears meant. it was the unwillingness and sadness i felt deep within me. above all, it was the love i feel for u. so intense, so strong. i just hugged him tightly, and cry cry cry.. and baobei is there, as always, to hush me. i saw those tears or rather "water"(which you'll call it) in your eyes. im so sorry to make u sad. i know ur unwillingness too and there was nth we could do about it. eventually, my tears "persuaded" baobei. he din go for work. all bcos of me. and i felt so bad. the moment he say "ok baobei, i dun go i dun go.. dun cry already.." i cried even worse. THANKS baobei for all your love for me. it meant the world to me. "dun cry already baobei.. later 4 oclock u come down can see me already! dun cry!" these are the words which calmed my heart and myself down. it did a tremendous job of making my heart smile within. reali thank you soooooo much baobei. I LOVE YOU!!
i was wondering this is such a trivial matter. and its only a matter of 7-8 hours? imagine wad will happen if he goes for army. i tell you, those who dun mind teary waters for consumption can come to me. i think i wont be able to take it, perhaps for some time. hopefully i can adapt to the days without him by my side, loving me, caring me, protecting me and joking with me.
many may think that im so silly to cry like a tap for such a trivial matter. BUT, its bcos they din go thru wad i did for the 4 yrs before. they din know my inner feelings/emotions.. how i struggled so hard to get myself pass the years.. and how i acted nonchalent when.....(i dun wish to say) it was a miserable part of my life. VERY i would say. guess only one person can comprehend my feelings and its bestie. she knew wad i went thru and was always by my side. i believe, now that im together with baobei, she can feel my joy and happiness. its all bcos she knew wad had happened..
BLESSED. this word i get to understand thoroughly through baobei. because its him who made me feel blessed. it's a feeling no others can provide me with and im reali grateful and happy that he's by my side. i duno wad else to say to thank you baobei. i just know that i want a lifetime with you. =))
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