You are the BEST gift i have ever received ;

Mixed Emotions

I can't believe time passes so fast
It was all good with you around
Times with you i could not describe
I felt as if my heart were alive
I hoped you could feel it
The way that i did
It wasn't my imagination
Or muttering some incantation
You made me smiLe, laugh and grin
Words can't explain, it was like cookies n` cream
Staring into your eyes, so deep inside
I was trapped, i needed light
You gave me a purpose, a goal in life
I'm amazed at how you can make me feel this way
The way no others could
Fate isn't playing on me again, like how it did before
And i'm so glad that all this is the truth
A lifetime of happiness assured

Priscilla

Tuesday, May 30, 2006
la-la-la

as i read thru ppl's blog.. i found that im so lucky as im not facing any of the problems mentioned in the blog i read.. as in, relationship. yes. many a times, i felt that guys dun really treasure their gfs when their gfs love them like mad.. and its only when things happen that make them START to cherish their gfs.. human nature? dun give me this shit. cos if u know what's precious to you, you wont even think of letting it go.. or bringing misery to him/her. some guys dun understand the significance of small, trivial things that will not fail to make their girl happy. simple things like, remembering anniversaries. u may say that guys are not that thoughtful. but, it all boils down to the thought, no? guys will nv understand what kind of sadness they bring to their girls when they cant even fulfill simple things like this. it does matter, you noe? it really does.. cos it shows how much u cherish her. and im not saying those who forget once or twice due to serious hectic schedule, but mainly on those who forget OVER AND OVER AGAIN. its like happening to them perpetually isn't it?

im so fortunate that bei isn't like those guys. im fortunate that bei places me first. im fortunate that i have a wonderful bf, where no one can ask for more. and im so thankful for all this.. maybe god wants to make up/compensate me for the past's sorrow and agony i went through? though it was already the past, i still couldn't lay that part deep down in my heart. it just takes a small thought to swim thru my mind, and all the agony will start coming back, reminding me of the unhappiness and emotional things that happened way back. but, they don't matter now.. cos things took a turn for the better.. or rather, the best that i can ever have. cos having bei by my side is the ONLY remedy that can heal all wounds and occasional sadness. it just takes 3 letters, H.I.M.

okk, i shall stop.. im getting emo..

and i cant help but rant about this. the idiotic FIT quiz nearly made me go bonkers yday!! cos gotta get the full 25 marks then i tried like, ermm, 4 times? and the worse thing to ever happen is i mixed up the two answers and therefore, had to do the quiz ALL OVER AGAIN. 25 qns lehh!! wahh, i dont want anymore quiz!

HK trip only allows 20 places for acc students? NO!!!!!!! so few vacancies! cant they see that there's an overwhelming response to it?!!

11:24 PM
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Monday, May 29, 2006
la-la-la

YAY???

yess, finally.. the last of german lessons.. the tests were alright i suppose.. successfully marked the end of our language class.. next sem will be on intercultural comm.. hope it'll be fun and not that stress!!

today, bei satisfied one of my cravings lately-- starbucks. came back to yishun's outlet and we had Java Chips.. it was originally called Rhumba.. which i reckoned was a name so much nicer.. and i din know why they had to change it.. anyway, the taste hasn't changed a bit.. it was still the old rhumba.. which was a good thing.. nice nice!

stress is escalating as time pass by this few days.. i promised bei a meal of kenny rogers after our common test which is on the 9 of June. hmm, or shall we have pepper lunch? LOL.. the towgay.. oohhh~~ i believe it will be the perfect remedy for the few days of hard work..

and im starting to think of activities to occupy my 2 weeks break FULLY. k-box will be on.. and how can we miss the GSS?! ohh my, cash outflow will be terrible.. shall we have some games of mahjong, my mahjong kakis? =)) and not forgetting, my beloved boy!

til then, i think my excitement will peaked at the last day of common tests..

ooh, we've got 319 tickets!
and bei, jing4 li4 jiu4 hao3 ok?
will always be here for you.

10:20 PM
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Sunday, May 28, 2006
la-la-la

time check: 1239 am.

and bei just went home.. he'd been here since 745pm.. prepared dinner for him.. though simple, but i guess there's nth much for him to complain right? =)) started on our DEUTSCH project.. touched up a lil bit here and there.. hope the slides are alright.. we dry-run our presentation and oddly, laughters are coming out.. yaa, cos that naughty boy wasn't serious about his part!! HANSEL AND GRETEL baobei!! lol.. and ur ars-fair-ne-min..

tmr will be the last lesson for DEUTSCH. totally sian that there's 2 tests and a presentation tmr.. because of this, gotta reach sch at the usual time- 830am to revise our words and self introduction.. ICH VERSTEHE EIN BISSCHEN DEUTSCH.

taxation revision is 80% complete.. IFA is almost done.. BLAW will be a disastrous one.. cost acc shld be alright.. -sighs- i hope time will just ZOOM by..

best of luck to everyone..

12:46 AM
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Saturday, May 27, 2006
la-la-la

goshh.. i'm really burning my saturdays away.. no choice.. blame it on the coming common tests!!

studied IFA today.. im glad i finished it. re-practice my tut qns and did all the past yr tests.. came back home and finished them all.. tmr will be concentrating on taxation.. and if time allows, shall start on cost accounting.. at this point in time, there's really no time for tutorials.. and yess, i wont hesitate to sacrifice the time doing my tutorials for revision. cos, tests are so much more impt than those tut which topics aren't coming out!!
im so sorry tutors im gonna be a bad gal for next week. blame it on the change of system. thankyouverymuch.

i think it'll be hard on us this 2 weeks or so.. but when the common tests are over, we'll be able to feel the relaxation and pleasure derived from the 2 weeks break.. so, hang on guys! just a lap of hard work and u get to enjoy ur "deserts". best of luck to BG gals, sec sch frenz, baobei and also, BESTIE! jia you k.. IT WILL BE OVER FAST.

ich habe eine famillie. einen varter, eine mutter, zwei schwesters, einen brooder.
und, einen baobei.
LOL. =))))
i'm just reminding myself about the german tests on monday.. cos im placing all my attention on the core moduls!!
DEUTSCH!

11:54 PM
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Friday, May 26, 2006
la-la-la

X-MEN 3!

SUPERB MOVIE!
those who have watched it will agree with me, no?
i thought it was a nice one though..
just that it was too short.. like everything happened too fast, and things were solved too quickly.
the mutants in the movie were cool!!
and all of their psychic powers amazed me!!
each and every one did.
its like i go "wow WOW WOW!!" each time their extraordinary powers were revealed..
and i thought every of the powers is getting better than the previous ones shown.
it totally awes me laa!!
nice movie.. worth a watch..
but the last part was sad laa..
woverine had to sacrifice the woman he loved in order to save the people..
aint he great/noble?
lol.. its like that in shows laa i guess..
and yess, there WILL be a part 4 to it..
baobei's inference skill so good hor?!
LOL.

both bei and i liked the character- Woverine. he has this strong sense of leadership.. very clear about wad he's doing.. and can accomplish impactful missions.. its like, he's the guy u can depend on in times of adversity.. so yaa.. nice show!

baobei was so sweet during the movie..

him: wahh, they call X-men very cool hor..
me: ya lor.. u like ahh? u be Y-men lor..
him: dont want laa.. i want to be priscilla's man can ma?

=)=)=)=)=)=)

so sweet aint he?
sometimes, his words are just like candy..
they make you happy, and you'll just smile knowing that everything is wonderful.
sweet like popcorn ehh?
*loves*

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just read the announcement in mel for taxation common test..
and IM SO GLAD WEEK 5's CHAPTER WILL NOT BE INCLUDED!!
woohoo! so shiok! yaa, its the one with the long long format!
excluded!
i guess the BG gals will share my joy and excitement..
lol.. cos we were complaining after the lecture ended yday..
=))

hard-core revising tmr!

11:20 PM
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
la-la-la

i just want to say
i love you, baobei.
i really do.

thanks for always tolerating my nonsense.
really, THANKS.

Y.O.U. and M.E = F.O.R.E.V.E.R. L.O.V.E
*eternity*

11:33 PM
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losing it may be scary,
but cherishing it may be hard.
balancing both is a torture,
cos there's no way u can do it.
forego one, you may ask.
impossible, i can tell you.
keep it at equilibrium,
and u achieve ur goal.

too laid back may not be good.
cos u never know what will happen.
believing as what is presented to you?
you choose it.
so take it.

as what we know,
best of both worlds cannot be attained.
dont cry.
accept it.

-----------------

the HONG KONG trip is appealing!
woo!
too many forms, random?
NO!!
this cant happen..

i need some cash.
scholarship, are you on ur way??

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sometimes, you just need to smile to get by each day.
be H.A.P.P.Y.
and everything will be solved,
let things untangle by itself.

3:32 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Tuesday, May 23, 2006
la-la-la

how inconsiderate!!
bless me..
stupid attitude and always thinks she's right..
what kinda attitude is that?!!!
big -toot- ass..
!!!!!!!!

dont try to be clever and think that u're always right.
cos u are NOT!
u have one potential..
and that is to piss people off.
come on, u're great at it.
u sure do have the talent!
go fa1 hui1 that tian1 fen4 of urs anywhere else.
BUT NOT IN THE HOUSE PLEASE.

how it makes me boil!!
i shld care less about such ppl..
and yes, she's right to say u're a selfish person.
SELFISH!!

and yes, i think u fit the description of those ppl in one particular entry of mine.
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i shldn't let such ppl affect my mood, shld i?

ohh ya, the taxation classwork was horrendous!
we're super slow laaa!!
one question and we took over an hour..
and we HAVENT complete part b at that time.
in the exam how?!!!

so ke lian, i had my lunch alone today..
bei had his lessons at 2. but acc-ed me til 2.10pm after i let him off.
=((
dun think i'll ever get use of having my meals w/o bei.

bei's always there when i needed him.. he told me "dun worry, just tell me what u want, and i'll get it for u" "with baobei around, what u want baobei sure get it for u"
this sentence doesn't apply to expensive or exquisite items.
but simple items maybe like food i'ld like to eat at that particular moment.
he'll always try his best to ensure i am happy.
=))
though i always scold him for being naughty and mischevious, i really love him alot deep down. really.
bei u can count on me for that aight?

u know whenever i'm feeling low and down in the dumps, the thought of bei pushes me forward. even though im feeling upset about my own family or what, my mind portrays the image of bei and my heart will just calm down by itself and signal to my brain "dun worry. whatever happens, u still have baobei." you know how important he is to me? one sentence, "if he falls, i will fall too. for he is a very strong pillar of support in my life and heart." i dun dare to think of my world without bei. even if i dun die emotionally, i guess i wont be the same priscilla as what i am now. you M.A.D in my life.

its a bliss to have you.

10:39 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Monday, May 22, 2006
la-la-la

one more german oral test to go! next mon will be a happening german class for us! we've got one oral test, one written test to be completed.. and our project! and it'll mark the end of german classes for us.. hmm.. mixed feelings i supposed? though i always complain i dread going for german classes, but actually its really fun learning the lang. it may be difficult in the process of grasping all the pronounciations and meanings in just a 4 hours class, but once u're familiar with those terms, it can be really fun to use them in ur convo.

had our 2nd last oral test today.. its a dialogue with bei.. i've already foreseen comical things will happen.. haha.. bei is just so funny laa!! "mein PAPA, MAMA" hor?? LOL. i tink everyone in class burst out laughing.. though it wasn't wrong to say that, it just sounds so kiddish.. LOL. baobei has been the joker of the class since a few weeks back.. always creating silly mistakes to crack everyone up. nonetheless, im glad bei din make any mistakes during the dialogue which is commendable =)) considering him always saying the wrong things during rehearsals. LOL. u ahh.. must be harsh den will listen de.. anyway, great job!! =D

bei came over for dinner again.. =))))
i think my mum really likes him to eat with us..
-grins-
you know how acceptance from family makes a difference?
im glad they do..
cos im certain you're the one i wanna spend the rest of my life with.
loves**

you know how it touched my heart when u look into my eyes and tell me you're so fortunate to have me? its a blissful feeling. it warms my heart. and i truly feel fortunate to have you too.
=))

20cent machine!!! bei, tomorrow??
=)

im loving my phone!

11:47 PM
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Sunday, May 21, 2006
la-la-la

I FINALLY GOT MY V3i!!!!!!!!!!!!

woohoo!! what a shiok feeling!!

and i got the new color-maroon.. thanks to chia yun who told me about it.. actually the normal metallic is also nice.. but cos its too common, i opted for the more unique colour..

first instance i think the maroon one wont attract you.. but as u take a few more glances at it.. i think it really stands out.. and its nice!!

i'm so happy now~!!!!
woohoo!!

and im glad i got it at a special price.. $30 cheaper.. thanks to us being regular customers.. its a good deal given by the uncle.. wooo.. ultra shiokk!!

after lunch at changi with family and bei, dad drove us(bei n i) to mac. i couldn't settle down.. cos the lovely phone is just right beside me!! and i just cant get enough fiddling with it! okk, bei's gonna be jealous.. cos im so into the phone, than him. LOL. wont laa hor?? i know you're good. hee..

we finished our german project.. that's a good thing.. i thought i'ld be so hooked onto the phone that i wont get any work started. WAHAHA.. it'll be true if the common test wasn't 2 weeks later and if the project wasn't to be handed up in week 6. yaa.. i cant get my procrastination cells in here!!

andd, priscilla TOH hor bei?
*loves*

and freaking god, german is on tmr!! i so dread it... and yes, we'll be having our 3rd speech test.. it's gonna be a dialogue with bei! haha.. hope i dont burst out laughing.. and bei, dun commit anymore silly mistakes like "Guten tag morgen" alright? LOL. if not, i think i'll just stuck there laughing to myself the whole time. =)

IM SO HAPPY!!
MY MAROON V3i!!

10:42 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Friday, May 19, 2006
la-la-la

its the weekend again~!!
many many things on hand..
too much to complete..
too litte time..
i just cant get enough of complaining..

next week is both a busy and a free week.
haha.. yaa contradicting..
free, cos there's blaw and cost acc e-learning..
busy, cos there's german to be prepared of, class-work on tue and wed, and of cos, the quiz and assignments to be completed in mel.

common test is just 2 weeks away.
and yes, i shld get down to serious studying!!!
especially since there's no break!!
arghhh...

we were told there's this hongkong trip in sept..
BG gals and i are interested..
come on, hong kong lehh!!
and if we go, and finish a presentation when we're back,
we'll be short of one project the next sem..
good deal laa!

so i told baobei about the trip over lunch at the cafe..
he did smth unpardonable and made me angry.
he knows it.
its for ur own benefit boy..
if u dun wanna listen, there's nth i can do.
and u know at the end even the gd results cant appease me.
i want your own effort.
ok?

back to it.
i said some nasty words to him.. cos i wanna let him know that he's in the wrong for not keeping his word and being diligent enough.
said things like "go HK get a bf back.."
HAHAHA.. and that silly boy got so upset and glum after hearing it.
he actually believed wad i said..
boy ahh boy! how can it be?!
just dun wan u to be so naughty.. can ma?
you know i only love you.
you know it.
so S.M.I.L.E ok?
=))

bei slept so soundly on my shoulders in the mrt just now.
my cute little boy..
so soundly until you ***** hor??
LOL.
-shhhh-

my hamster's family is back to being a three-some.
2 tiny, or shld i say, SUPER tiny, hamsters joined baby..
they're so small and cute!!
hope baby wont turn agressive towards them..
if not my sis is going to cry again...

its a saturday tmr..
no more slacking..
tutorials, here we come!!!

10:40 PM
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
la-la-la

lovely quote:-

"they say if u love something,
you've got to let it go.
And if it comes back,
then it means so much more.
Fine if it never does,
at least you will know,
that it was something you had to go through to grow."

so true aint it? i'm so glad mine came back. and yes, it proved to be so much more special than wad/how it was 5 yrs ago.

=)=)=)

11:11 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

guten tag. mein name ist priscilla.. ich komme aus singapura. ich wohne in yishun. ich mag musik huuren and tanzen..
*ichliebedichbb*

goshh.. german is getting into me! and hell, i got a project presentation in 2 week's time! get it over and done with and i hope intercultural comm will be alright next sem..

sch's been a bore, seriously. and i really hate being late for lessons, be it lect or tut. why must our lect be at the freaking LT45?!! i thought i will nv ever step into that place again after last academic sem 2.. but no, it appears that we have affinity with that LT! SO FORTUNATE! and our tutor just had to be so nice to release us ON THE DOT! omg.. i hate, i hate..

common test is coming in another few weeks.. there's no study break.. so bless us. i can foresee my temper and mood. i dont have confidence in maintaining the standards i achieved. and tell me, how to get all info into my brain in less than a week? we need time!! the forever so scarce resource!

getting out from bed in the early mornings seem to be so difficult! nvm, i know i'm better than my pig baobei. LOL. be early laaa!!!

bei, au-to-ma-ti-ca-lly HOR?? lol..
*naughtyboy*

10:19 PM
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
la-la-la

POSEIDON

the first thing that came to my mind when i saw this word was TITANIC, a wonderful movie i watched few years back. but somehow i knew it will be different.

titanic focused more on the love btw jack and rose and how their love for the other was so strong that they were willing to sacrifice even their life just to be with their loved one.
while, poseidon portrayed a love more on a mother-child, father-daughter relationship. these are the diff. elements besides the love btw male and female which was evident in poseidon.

as the story progresses, it hit the climax in less than half an hour. it led me to wonder why.. i was thinking, the ship so fast sink, then wad will be going on next.. then i found out that poseidon actually shows how a group of 8 ppl struggle to survive in times of adversity. it was real tough to get all 8 to be together and ensure everyone's safety in their attempt to find their way out. but their mindset of not leaving anyone behind was adequate to push all of them to strive towards their one aim; that is to get to the top. its rather thrilling as the element of water and fire 'excites' you.. it keeps u on the track and will be constantly thinking "how? what will hapen? oh gosh!"

i also thought that it's a touching movie. the love btw the mother and son.. very heart-warming.. the love btw the father and daughter was especially touching. it was the part which caught my heart. very saddening that the dad had to die just to save all of them. shan't go into details laa.. watch for urself and u'll know!

anyone noe the title of the song that was played when the show ends tell me!!

next on, DAVINCI CODE!

10:07 PM
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
la-la-la

yday was such a CRAZY day~!!
haha..my house had a small party.. with mum cooking lotsa food and with lotsa ppl in our house..

seng and choo reached at ard 1250pm.. then, we started our MAHJONG MARATHON!
woo... we played all the way til 645pm. bei's siblings came over for lunch then stayed til 830pm where bei's dad came to bring them home.. they were so reluctant.. lol.. think they were having a great time ba.. bei's brother likes to see ppl play mj and make alot of funny comments..LOL. so cute lar!! he's so mischevious! get familiar with choo and seng le den played with them as if they were his very own brothers.. lol.. he was so uptight when playing the hei1 bai2 cey4 and ji3 5(in hokkien) ba4 with seng. so funny.. it cracked all of us into streaks of laughter continuosly.. bestie and guang came over too! so glad to see both of them.. at arnd 10pm, we CONTINUED our mahjong marathon again. from 10pm to 725am. OH MY GOD!! we are all so SIAO!! played for close to 10 hours leh!! we must have been insane.. lol.. but it was fun laa.. we seldom have chances like this to enjoy ourselves.. so it was great..

bei, bestie, guang n choo went home at 735am in the morning.. then, i went to sleep. too tired already.. ta boleh tahan. LOL. after not more than 5 hours, i was awaken by my sis and mum's calling... asking me to wake up and prepare to go for our lunch.. apparently, i was the last to get up.. i was real tired.. fatigue was overcoming me.. but after a refreshing bath, it was better. its mothers' day today! so, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO MY MOTHER! had prawn noodles at upper coast road. oh my, it was still as fab. then, we went to shop around harbour front where my dad bought a microwave oven, an electirc oven(for baking, grilling, toasting), a mixer, a bread toaster at offer price.. cos there's promo for mothers' day. dad bought a thumbdrive for me too.. it was so much cheaper compared to the one at popular. 512mb for $49.90. popular sells 256mb at $69.90. in the end, my dad spent a good $300 on all these stuffs. -heart pain-

had the famous ba4 chor4 mee for dinner at beach rd. needless to say, its nice.
and i bought my hp pouch!
YAY!

the thought of going to sch tmr just sian-ed me. wondering why the 3 days passed so fast.. totally sianed.

4 hours of german tmr!! how to survive!!

immissinghimafternotseeing
himforclosetoelevenhours.sobs.

10:27 PM
||Eternity It Shall Be||.

Friday, May 12, 2006
la-la-la

vesak day!!
thanks to this occasion.. we get to rest on a friday.. which happens to be the most "happening" day in sch.. yeahh.. im glad we missed the packed schedule of friday.

i sort of foreseen i wont have time during the weekends for tutorials.. so i decided to complete them today.. met up with bei for lunch den went to mac to do them.. im glad i finished them in 4 hrs time.. all of them!! so happy.. then, i can play throughout my weekend.. heh, that's gd! that lazy bei.. no more drive to do tutorials le har? LOL. sleeping while i was doing my tutorials.. forever my sleepy pig. LOL. but im glad he was right there beside me.. though he wasn't "alive", but his presence is enough. you know, sometimes he can get really silly and playful if he has nth to do and will start to disturb me.. making me distracted, which is his ultimate aim. so bad right? LOL.. so, conclusion: its better if he sleeps.. WAHAHAHAHA..

had a pre-celebration for mothers' day with my relatives at peach garden restaurant at 7 plus. we were super disappointed that there weren't dim sum lar!! but the food still pleased us in the end.. so, not too bad laa.. we had, err, i think an eight-course meal? yahh.. shld be ba.. had lotsa great food.. pig suckling which was super ex.. $150 for 1 leh!! beijing duck. superb!!! shark's fins.. tofu.. deer meat was ultra good! fish(i din quite like that), ooh the yummylicious vegetable with the salivary sauce.. noodles.. prawns!! nice and fresh.. all of us were bloated i guess... so much food! it was a great gathering.. seeing all my little cousins once again.. so tiny! LOL.. cute lar..

it has always been a "tradition" to stand outside the restaurant after we eat and the adults will start their never-ending convo. leaving the poor kids restless who in turn, turned to play catching.. etc. kids are so hyper!! fill with zest.. you see them running around with sweat dripping down to their shirts.. but, they just look so cute to u.. the feeling of seeing kids play by themselves is good.. you can sense their freedom and wildness..

of cos, the bigger us, dont join them in their sweat game.. we stood and listened to our relatives talk about their life.. hmm, one talked about her enjoyable experience being an air-stewardness for 5 yrs. and hey, she's very pretty even though she had given birth to a pair of twins! and yes, she's still tall and sleek. -envy- another one, talked about her "interesting" maid. really very interesting!! made us laugh until our jaws ache.. at least mine did. lol. sometimes, you really wont know what some ppl are up to.. they are just so funny. nonetheless, it was a wonderful time spent there.

tmr will be a busy day i guess. busy playing mahjong.LOL. choo and seng coming over to my hse for a mj session. eunice and guang will be coming to have dinner here. and bei's siblings will be coming over for lunch. LOL!! so qi1 dai4! then, at night, my sis frenz will be coming.. and my mum will be the busy one. cook and cook and cook.. that's wad she'll be doing tmr.. and we just play and play and play! haha.. hope we'll have a fun time..

missingbaobeitobits**

12:22 PM
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
la-la-la

the 11th.
simple and nice.

early in the morning, went to i-lotus to take my pay for the pathetic 2 days work. yaa, we almost couldn't get that mediocre $87.50. but yeahh, we managed. such a small amount also wanna give cheque... -_-" if it wasn't for the money, bei and i wouldn't have gotten up so early on a day where our lessons start late. nvm.. it'll be the first and last time.

sch was pretty ok.. lect was short. tut was slack! ohh my.. im starting to freak out thinking of having to go through blaw common tests and exams.. so many case laws!! how to remember!! -bonkers-

waited for bei to end his lesson at 5. wrote the "traditional". =)) much effort put in. was so sorry i actually forgotten about it.. hai.. but what to do.. life has been hectic for me.. at last, i saw the familiar face walking down the stairs. i know its him.

settled in delifrance for our dinner. the menu actually appealed us. but when the food comes and u taste it, u will sian diao. so not matching to the looks of it!! the quality totally sucks. i had ribeye steak while bei has lamb chop. i requested medium-rare for the degree of the steak. but when i tasted it, it didn't seem cook!! and i even had difficulties cutting them!! then, i wonder how the chef even get to pass his cooking practical. bei's lamb chop was better.. ermm.. at least better than mine. but i think he doesn't really like the taste of lamb. LOL. but, their mash potato is fab. ohh yaa.. not forgetting about the lobster soup. it was B.A.D. terribly bad. think it'll take them a million of decades to be able to compare to Jack's Place's standard. and the ironic part; JP only sells for $4.50. but deli sells for $5.90. -dots- we shld've gone to JP instead.. even the price would be cheaper!!! i will not go there for any of their meals.. except for their bread, MAYBE. the meal totally disappointed us. we din imagine it to be so bad. nvm.. treat it as an experience.. and we know we wont go there for meals ever again.

though the meal was bad, it din spoil our mood. its an impt day to us.. another 60 days and it'll be our 1 yr anniversary. =DD i cant wait for that day.. shopped ard.. and bei got his mother a bracelet i picked. very nice lar!!! really.. she'll like it for sure.. so dun worry =))

to bei,
happy 305 days to us =D. im glad u like the "traditional". and thanks so much for the sweet message in the monkey. i love to hear it! thanks for sacrificing whatever u can to please me, to make me happy. i am really happy to be with u. really. special day with the special you. it made my day good! look at the "traditional" and u shall know all my thoughts and feelings. =))

iLOVEyouLORRYloads.
adapted from mrtohguowen.
LOL.

10:33 PM
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
la-la-la

sch sch sch!!
tutorials tutorials tutorials!
the never-ending tutorials..
and hell, i hate class work!!

hmm.. i realise that i hate mornings alot.. literally ALOT. cos, ppl seem to be rushing here and there.. and kiasu ppl just piss me off.. i mean, yes everyone is kiasu. but the degree of kiasu-ness that some ppl have totally exceeded the limit! they just go around pushing you.. squeezing in before u do like there's no more trains to take them to their destination. i so wanna roll my eyes at them whenever i encounter sucky situations like this. it always spoils my mood in the morning. and it's(mood) very important in the morning! cos it sets the mood you're in for the rest of the days.. i know i'll just forget about them when i cool down and when i'm out of those kinda crowded places.. but, it still irritates me.

another thing. i simply dislike ppl who is lacking the skill of empathy. lets take for example the situation i was in this morning. this pair of malay guys just happily BLASTED their rock, heavy-metal, hard-core or whatever genre of music they like in the shuttle bus. it was SUPER loud can! soo inconsiderate.. cant they spare a thought for others? they may like those kinda songs, but that doesn't mean the whole world must accept those songs too. and that particular genre of music never fails to irritate me. my ears, especially, were agonized! and my mood was once again, being spoilt by those inconsiderate ppl. as if that wasn't enough, the grp of guys at the back just cant stop yakking about some nonsensical stuffs. total rubbish lor! think they got too much saliva already laa! talk cannot talk softly one! must talk so loud duno for what stupid reasons! so, you will realise i hate noisy places with lots of noise pollutants. it REALLY frustrates me. its like my mind cannot rest and be calm. empathy empathy!!

and the one at the receiving ends of all my bad temper, anger, frustration, is poor baobei. sorry bei.. if im rich enough, i would want to have a personal chaffuer. then, i can go to wherever places with peace. and most importantly, without spoiling my mood EARLY IN THE MORNING!!

tomorrow is thurs!! i love thurs!! super slack in sch.. just one lect and one tut. oooo... how cool is that!

yay. the 11th. =))
i will finally get my recording monkey tmr!!
best, with bei's voice in it.
hee.. =DD

11:10 PM
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Monday, May 08, 2006
la-la-la

opportunity cost..

as my bday fell on a saturday, my tutorials were left untouched until yday's evening and today's morning..
made an effort to go to sch early in the morning though my lesson starts at 1pm.
completed some..
so im quite satisfied..
cos normally, saturday is bei and my hw day..
but i cant possibly miss my bday celebration,
so gotta forgo the time for tutorials..
-sighs-
somemore, this week's tutorial all quite heavy..
ohh my..
the work load is increasing as weeks go by..
and yday totally no time for tutorials..
family day..went to see my hp..and yes! im finally getting it next week..
ENDURE!
at night went to Jack's Place to dine with family as a belated celebration for me..
oolala.. so yummy!

this coming friday is another holiday again!
wooo!! so shiok~
having a pre-celebration for mothers' day..
all my relatives will be there..
and i hope to see some promo going on for phones so that i can buy it fast!
i've got my money all ready..
just waiting for the price to drop, or my 2nd yr contract to end at 15th may.
either one.
and im set for a new phone!

i'll try to upload my bday pics..
cos my blogger just suck at uploading pics..
and whats nots, i cant copy and paste the pics like how my sis can!
meaning, i cant control the sequence of the pics..
UNLESS, of cos, if i can get hold of the method by trying repeatedly..
and hello, im an impatient person!

yay.. 3 more days.. -elated-
and bei's bday is coming in around 2 months time..
im sure i'll make it a memorable one,
just like how he made mine out to be.
i will~!
**lovesYOUtruckloads**

10:24 PM
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Saturday, May 06, 2006
la-la-la

its 3:16 am now..
i still dun wanna sleep..
i dun wan such a wonderful day to end..
cos when i wake up tmr, it'll be another day.
another normal day.
but still wonderful days with bei.
was telling bei that it will be great if everyday is my bday..
i love birthdays!
i feel that they're so special..
hai..
it will be another 365 more days before my next bday..
so long!
=((

bei is sleeping soundly now, i guess.
he must have been so tired..
waking up at 820am. got my cake at 10am.
out til 11pm. came to my house to cut cake with me til 1am.
kelian de little boy.
spent so much of his energy.
i really love u alot my precious!!
see you tmr!
yeahh, you're finally coming with us to changi to taste the yummylicious yu tang!
=))

3:19 AM
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its the day!!! finally it arrived!!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!

the feeling is just so so different from any other day.. and i totally loved it.. when i woke up, i smiled to myself, knowing that i will really enjoy myself today.. when i'm brushing my teeth, i looked out the window and smiled again.. i duno why.. i just smiled like a silly fool.. it's not that i thought about anything.. its just that, it came out naturally from within me.. its the true feeling of happiness and different-ness i felt.. oh yaa, and the moment i saw my mum's red packet, it made me happier!! haha.. thanks lots mum!

then, baobei arrived my house at 1030am.. and OMG, i saw a cake bei bought for me!!! a fruit cake from bengawan solo!!! my favourite!! thanks a million baobei!! u really know what i like.. =)) i put the present he gave me at home.. changed, den went out..

go to causeway first.. so get my stuffs at giordano.. cos got 15% discount on birthday!! so cool! rushed to yishun mrt station cos tot late to meet hui and choo le.. but in the end, they weren't there when we reached!! duno today whose bday hor! so hao yi si! LOL.

met seng and tai le den go cine book tickets for MI3. omg.. so many ppl laa!! all the slots we wanted only left first 4 rows.. wth! no choice.. so went to lido instead.. after settling the booking stuff, we proceeded to PEPPER LUNCH!! haha.. the other 4 guys all newbie to that place.. so bring them there go jian shi jian shi.. LOL. think most of their food not cooked lor! lousy right!! after demonstrating to them le still duno.. the reason being? COS THEY WERE TOO SLOW!! lol.. slowpokes lor.. then i think i was the one so anxious for them and their food.. den they so calm. ironic laa!! anyway, we enjoyed our lunch and chat about the voting stuffs.. so fun.. thanks so much guys for the wonderful time!

finally..went to catch our MI3!!! super thrilling the show!!!!! VERY VERY VERY NICE! 5 outta 5 stars! MUST WATCH!! GO GO GO! really very nice.. some parts quite sad and touching laa.. made me teared.. sobs.. and the whole time i was clutching bei's hand so tightly i think there weren't blood circulation on his left hand.. LOL. a very good movie. and their impossible missions really awed me! so cool! action-packed movies rock!

chilled at starbucks after that.. and i think we saw a bapok. LOL. so funny lar!! after around an hr, the guys went off and bei and i went to be in our own world.. LOL. went to gio again! lol.. then, went to my all-time favourite restaurant--JACK'S PLACE! arhhh!! the orchard one so nice! meat so tender, degree of rareness was perfect.. lobster soup was fab.. and the baked potato was irresistable! everything about there is just so gd! not forgetting the ambience, AND the service. -thumbs up- i wanna go back there again bei, got our wonderful memories. =)))) snapped alot of pictures there.. and bei bought a mango mousse cake for me cos he wanted to sing me a happy bday song! so sweet of u bei!! it was a happy occasion. but the moment i heard bei sang the bday song for me, i teared. cos, i saw how sincere he was, and also, how much he loved me. he really really touched me. and it striked me that i cannot live my life w/o him. really. he wanted to make this bday of mine so special and so memorable. and he put in alot of effort. really alot, and i can see baobei! from the present to the wrapping/beatifier, the card which contains those meaningful and heart-felt words.. all and all! it totally moved and touched me. i love you bei!! i really do! im so sorry i teared.. i just couldn't control.. it was tears of happiness.. true happiness.

reached my home and waited til all of my family members were home before we cut the cake bei bought for me. and at that time, my parents were watching the results of the voting.. my father so ji1 dong4! haha.. he was so enthu about the worker's party til he asked if we wanna move to hougang!! wahh!! haha.. my dad so cute larh.. and my mum had to hushed him down everytime he gets overly excited. LOL. whenever the opposition party won, he was so happy. lol.. anyway, my family of 7 members sang bday song for me. took pic and ate the super yummy cake. once again, credit goes to bei. =))

to baobei,
thanks so much baobei.. i really truly enjoyed myself. it would have been so much different if it wasn't you. it was you who made it all so special and memorable for me. everything you did just made me smile! thanks for the words in the card. i love every single sentence of it. and the happy bday wishes from u just seemed different somehow. REALLY REALLY THANK-YOU! thanks for taking so much effort in making this bday a memorable and wonderful one. thanks for the big sum of money spent on this day just for me. i really love you to bits!!!! muacks!! -forever my love-

not forgetting, those who had wished me happy birthday. THANK-YOU:
mum, thanks for the red packet and wishes!
ah hui, thanks for ur super long msg and long wished from u! i appreciate it. =)
christy, happy birthday to u gal!
wenwei, yes, thanks for remembering! best of luck to u and cherie too.
taiyun, =D
lijin, you remembered gal! im so touched! thanks!
chia yun, thanks for the nice msg and wishes! and also ur tag!
dad, oh my.. he sent me a bday msg in chinese. it totally touched me. i was just so gan3 dong4!! thanks dad!
younger sis, thanks for the present.
ellis, =))
meiyan, thanks for the hp msg and tag!
weiseng, ur last min msg din disappoint me! i tot u forgotten! haha. thanks!
jocelyn, thanks for the BIG BIG wishes in ur blog!
mic, thanks for the tag gal!
elder sis, thanks for ur wonderful hand-made card.. dun worry.. u're still very dear to me!
bro, he din forget!

THANKS SO MUCH PEOPLE! YOU GUYS LIGHT UP MY LIFE. =)))

2:17 AM
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Friday, May 05, 2006
la-la-la

it's the eve today!!!
hohoho..

eunice and guang planned smth for me at the esplanade.. thanks so much gal! so mysterious ahh! lol.. im very touched, really.. the mango cheese cake was fab! so nice!! thanks to u and guang!

so sad u cant be able to celebrate with me on the actual day.. but im glad we did a pre-celebration today! it was wonderful seeing my bestie once again.. we have not met up for a long time.. =((

thaiExpress-ed. as usual, the tom yum soup is nice, AND SPICY. enjoyed my dinner very much.. after eating, we chatted about lots of things.. started to "complain" about our own partner.. and we found out that actually our bfs are VERY SIMILAR!! right eunice? LOL. like, totally lar! so many common stuffs.. oh my.. and yes, the guys found both eunice and i similar too. LOL. of cos laa.. besties ma.. talked about so many incidents which made us laugh whole-heartedly.. talks with besties are always so nice.. so heart-warming.. i like the feeing alot. its like, talking to someone u'd known for 20 30 yrs. but our friendship is only 6 years.. and still going strong! we can talk about EVERYTHING. how nice is that.. soo comfortable engaging interesting chats with u.. =)))

thanks for the wonderful dinner bestie, guang and bei! i really love it. it made a simple meal so wonderful.. so meaningful.. so memorable. MILLIONS OF THANKS!!

bestie!! thanks for ur letter!!! it moved me to tears.. it touched me.. it lit a smile on my face... yes, i missed the times in sec sch too!! we were together almost every minute of the day except for our classes.. i really love those days with u.. it din took me long to find my twin soul too. cos, i have found you =)) im really thankful to have such a bestie like you.. and i know we'll grow up together and be a lifetime of soul-mates. I'M SO GLAD I HAVE YOU!! guang, better take good care of her okay! meet-up soon!!

=D

12:51 PM
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12:51 AM
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
la-la-la

YAY!! im so happy!!!
i received the letter!
woohoo...
sustained my achievement.
=))

today duno how come so blur.. after lunch with bei and BG gals, i tot my BLAW tutorial was at blk 72.. so i happily went the same way as bei, who's also having tut at 72.
then, i went to the wrong level.. so, went to 5th level and found that no one was waiting outside.. checked my time-table... and guess what!!!!! my lesson is not at 72, its at 56!!
arghh~!! duno why i so blur.. so i quickly rushed to blk 56.. but was still late laa.. lol...

when i reached, jocelyn told me our tutor called my name when i wasn't around, and no one else's. so weird i thought.. but i shoved the thought away.. and immediately after i settled down, the tutor called my name again.. i was blur laa! cos he speaks so soft.. den suddenly everyone looking at me, so i thought hmm yaa, shld be calling my name..

went over to this desk.. and holy!! he asked me to be his blaw rep! oh my god.. its not a big problem with me being the rep.. just that, i guess there's a communication breakdown btw him and us. yes, he's a caucasian(spell?). and that makes it diffcult for us to catch what he's saying.. and very often, we're kept loosely hanging in the air.. and can only depend on our deciphering skills to guess what he was trying to say. LOL. think the whole class shld understand what i meant.. the funny thing is, i cant figure out why he appointed me to be the rep when he doesnt know his students yet. and he even wished me happy birthday.. LOL.. bei, u're not the 1st already laa... HAHA.

anyway, being his rep is really very xin1 ku3.. imagine if i dun understand what he's trying to say.. cant possibly ask me to keep saying "i beg ur pardon? can u repeat urself?" right? haha..

im such an asshole laa!! think baobei was thinking why was i such a bother to KEEP asking him questions about THAT, right? LOL.. im a curious cat laa.. haha.. i just cant keep my anxiety within myself.. hehe.. thanks for the trip to and fro MS. i know u weren't feeling too gd(ur nose), but u still persisted in going.. -touched- thanks a million! i know i'll like it. =)) lucky i din go with u right.. if not, i will sure know the presentation of everything le.. LOL. i love you baobei.. thanks for everything.

bei, noonatic ahh?
WAHAHAHAHA.
cute larh u!

10:26 PM
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
la-la-la

ooh... i have been inquiring too much about it.
so inquisitive i am!
haha.. okk, i shall zip up my mouth and keep my curiosity within my mind..
guess all i want and imagine to my fullest...

"desert" has been settled yaa?
haha..
left with "appetiser and main course"
woohoo!!
-excited-

that's why i say, i love my bei to the max.
u've occupied a special place in my heart where no one can ever replace it.
=))

thank me for acc-ing u to thom thom?
LOL.
=D

10:51 PM
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
la-la-la

shld i release my grip?
i dun wan any suffocation..
i shldn't be meddling so much.
seriously shouldn't.
if not, everything just backfires.
the initial concern was seen as an ugly thing.
it really shows how one looks at things..
one thing, different views.
ends up in a state no one wants to be in.
i think i just should.

why isn't one attempt adequate to make u understand how things work.
again and again,
time after time,
u've been repeating the same logic to me.
how i wish my ears will automatically shut themselves up to not hear that.
and also, my heart.
it pains it. terribly.

restriction?
i guess not.
its the best way.
i dun wan any facade.
i dun need someone who has a machine-like thinking.

how can i make u understand?
how?

down`

11:07 PM
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Monday, May 01, 2006
la-la-la

I NEARLY GOT MY V3i!!!!!
arghhh!

went to tampiness mall with bei..
saw the promotion at hello!singtel.
got me all excited when i saw the V3i!!
its $50 cheaper lor!!

rang my mum up..
she said "$50 only!"
ONLY!!
wahh.. i helping her save money den she said only..
guess i can only get my phone either next week or next next week.
v3i..v3i..v3i

another nice family dinner with my parents, sisters AND BEI!
hee hee..
went to ponggol for its famous nasi lemak.
but i ate the claypot frog porridge..
i think its nice! cos i love the porridge..
bei ate so much.. haha
everything he finish up for us..
hope u enjoyed ur dinner with us bei!
ever since we're tog, i have one more family member.
=))

and in 6 yrs time, we'll have a family of our own
=DD
how nice!!

its sch again tmr..
sians.. totally dread it laa..
but there's another loonnngg weekend for us the week after next..
thanks to vesak day!
and mothers' day is around the corner too..
peach garden again??

i hope i get my scholarship!
-prays-

11:07 PM
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