You are the BEST gift i have ever received ;

Mixed Emotions

I can't believe time passes so fast
It was all good with you around
Times with you i could not describe
I felt as if my heart were alive
I hoped you could feel it
The way that i did
It wasn't my imagination
Or muttering some incantation
You made me smiLe, laugh and grin
Words can't explain, it was like cookies n` cream
Staring into your eyes, so deep inside
I was trapped, i needed light
You gave me a purpose, a goal in life
I'm amazed at how you can make me feel this way
The way no others could
Fate isn't playing on me again, like how it did before
And i'm so glad that all this is the truth
A lifetime of happiness assured

Priscilla

Thursday, October 19, 2006
la-la-la

sometimes people appreciate the presence of their siblings.. while some, may at times, want to 'get rid' of them due to some nonsense derived, causing uneasiness, unpleasantness, or any stir of negative emotions.

NOW, i really wish i was the only child in my family.. cos having 3 siblings is no fun at all! especially when all they give you are trouble and shit you really want to avoid.. why have them when you're so unhappy with their existence?

i've gone past the stage of whining.. cos whining, sometimes, may be of no reason.. like, ppl just whine bcos they are moody or are in low spirits.. i've got substantial facts to prove my dislike for having siblings right now.. though i know i'll prolly think otherwise in a few days time.. cos my hurt heart will mend by itself and perhaps be magnanimous enough to forgive and forget.

imagine you come home after a super tired and worn out day in school. and the first thing you see when u open the door are 2 big heaps (mine is a family of 6 mind you) of clothings/laundry unfold.. yes, that's supposed to be your job.. but, it's not like the others cant help, right? the worst thing was seeing the selfish and not-very helpful sis sitting comfortably on the sofa, not even wanting to help to fold. it's not like she cant fold while watching tv ya? the momentum will be affected a lil, but the impact wont be that great! i got so pissed and angry and felt so unfair. and, her exams are over! while my sem just started and needless to say, have countless of things upcoming..

it's not only about the laundry. but all other things that were undone which would most prolly result in mom shouting and yelling away of how "helpful" we are while she's slogging at work. why cant they just comprehend? or maybe feel a lil intimidated of my mum's fiery? WHY?

the brother is totally useless. so i shld skip his part. it's REALLY not worth complaining. cos, a leopard will NEVER change its spots.

if it wasn't a rush of time on my part (going to bei house for dinner immediately after my bath), i wouldn't have cared so much. cos i've long accepted this ridiculous and unjust fact. or you can say, i'm numbed. but the fact was, i was rushing for time!! so why couldn't she have offered to help?

all i asked of her was to help fold 1 heap of laundry while i fold the other in fast speed and get my ass out of my house to bei's house for dinner. warned her about the utensils at the basin. came back and found she din give a damn! not a single one kept into the drawers!! i give up, really!!

so, from tmr onwards, if i come back home and find her still not helping, i wont fold half of her laundry at all! which will be a great positive impact for me cos her share of clothings is usually the biggest amongst the 6 of us. yes, i will do that. she cant blame me.. cos she stepped onto my toe first.

i really wish i'm the only child right now. or maybe, give me an elder brother who cares about me and this family.

12:58 AM
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