Monday, January 15, 2007
la-la-la
now i know for certain, when bei's weak, i'll be weakened too. My poor boy is sick and i duno why i get so affected as well. I think i am sick too, not physically though, but emotionally. =((
early in the morning at 10am, i woke up, refusing to go back to sleep cos i was worried for bei. prepared myself and went out in less than half an hour. went to the market and bought luo2 han4 guo3 and ju2 hua1 cha2 for my sick boy. upon reaching his doorstep, i called him only to receive a familiar but weak voice at the other end. bei was, apparently, still in deep sleep. am so sorry for waking him up, cos i cant wait to see him. he was shocked to hear that i am just outside. but i know he was happy and touched at the same time =)) received his warm hug the first thing i stepped into his house. "i miss you so much baobei" were the words i got from him.
bei bei thanked me for taking care of him. silly boy.. that's what i should do ma.. just like how you always care for me whenever i'm unwell. i want to give you wu2 wei1 bu4 zhi4 de care also.. though he was sick, bei still went down to help me us buy lunch despite the heavy rain, while i was doing my tutorials. bei really dotes on me, he bought my fav titbits for me though i din tell him to do so and even bought me fish&chips. thanks alot bei. your care for me though you're unwell really touched me. i feel like a helpless baby in your care.
the dreadful part came when it hit 6.50pm and i must go home for dinner. really really really cant bear to leave bei. i really wanted to acc him til late, and at the same time, be able to take care of him. again, i couldn't control my tear glands and down they pour, so heavily. =( putting my hand on bei's forehead (to hopefully soothe the throbbing pain he's feeling) and watching him close his eyes upset me. my ke lian de baby.. tears were just flowing uncontrollably. until he opened his eyes and found out i was crying, he said "bei, bu yao ku.. wo mei you shi le. ok liao le" which i know he's lying in order to stop my silent cries. "bei, ni bu yao ku wo jiu hao le". i cried even harder. din allow him to walk me back home cos i was worried if he could even walk back home safely. hai.. really hope bei can recover fast. i want the naughty you!! (okk, i'm contradicting myself again). but, i hope the joker bei will be back, to make me laugh and be silly. i love you bei. eternity we shall be. =)
one happy thing to note is that, bei's appeal to go for attachment in the 2nd sem is successful! just hope that the deferrment process will go on smoothly. -prays-
*my love for life*
11:21 PM
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