Sunday, March 04, 2007
la-la-la
firstly, i wasn't the one who started shooting one another in my blog. if u remember correctly, you can refer to her first post. and she DID said i was a bitch. go look out for that sentence. if she can, why cant i? why cant i express my anger when i got accused and she can?! i was merely magnifying my anger by saying the word BITCH countless of times. but that's because i AM angry!!! angry cannot say these kind of words ah?!! my blog lehh.. of cos want to vent it out here laa..
and jarrel. you said u're being fair and not fully siding her in ur blog. but have you realised throughout ur entry, you're only talking about me and wen? where's the part on ur ex?! if she's at fault too, then why never say?
i also thought that having conflicts over mahjong is unnecessary. that's why i brushed my thoughts in one sentence saying that "fairness must be prioritised". i din name any names and want to blow the matter up, and that's why i nv complain anything in my blog. it's after i read ur ex entry, and i started to be angry. she can say i am a sore loser and a bitch. den why cant i?? she started this ok? please get it right.
ok nvm dat.. yes it's very disadvantage for me that guowen wasn't there that day. but he don't need to be there to witness the whole unfairness thing. even before that day, when we played with u and ur ex, we already feel that u're being unfair. it can be seen and felt one ok? if you want to insist you never be unfair, i also have nth to say. because you can pass it off as "no, i wasn't unfair". why i felt that that day you were unfair. it was far too obvious. when i commented things like "ehh, why you always feed her/let her win? guard her laa" u rmb what you reply?? you said "ooh, you want me to guard her ahh.. ok laa. i guard." this sentence already betrayed you. meaning, you haven't been guarding her all the while until that point, and that's why im angry. and yes, from THAT point onwards, you did guard. and i wasn't affected cos i see the fairness then.
to jolynn. now, whatever you said in ur blog just sounds so contradicting to me. firstly, however i directed my anger at my boy is NONE OF UR BUSINESS. so you dont need to comment on that. we're ok after every mahjong session. he himself knows i dont like to play with him on the same table, just like how jarrel tell you the same thing that "wo bu ke yi gen ni yi qi wan". IT'S THE SAME THING.
and, you want to tell me jarrel wasn't being unfair? i tell you, i would still insist that YES HE WAS UNFAIR. i can see it. we can see it. why dont u wanna admit? if u want to say about his fatique, i dont think that's our problem. he can tell us he's tired and postponed the game. we can do that. but using his tiredness as an excuse to say that he fed you because he was bu4 qing1 xing3, i dont think that's reasonable. if it was reasonable, then everything will become our fault. get it? because his tiredness is a valid reason for him to make mistakes.
when i never feed you, i wasn't bent on letting u lose. im not so vengeful ok? it's because like i said, when we play mahjong must guard what.. when i know you dont want whatever cards, of cos i'll throw. and it's coincident that i have the tiles that you want. not that i am bent on letting u lose, ok?
you can say that u blame jarrel 'for fun' when he won, or when you din win.. but ur expression then dont link with ur thoughts!! if you can say this, den i can also say i was angry with my boy FOR FUN. no meaning right? so you are trying to contradict urself! it was very obvious that ur anger wasn't for fun, when you said a string of vulgarites at him. dont deny, we all heard it. we can surely interprete ur tone of anger.
yes jarrel WAS afraid of winning with those 1 or 2 tais when you're playing very big (4 or 5 tais). whenever he won, he'll look at you and say "i really win liao". we can tell from his expression that he WAS afraid. it seems like he din wanna win because he knows that you'll be angry.
it seems like you just want to shift anything directed at you to something not so serious like saying you did that for fun.. or that jarrel knows that you're not angry etc. why say all these when you weren't like that? and when things have complicated to thus far, you try to want to cool it down, when u started it? i dont get it.
to jarrel. if you want to ask guowen how he will feel if you name me a bitch, den why dont ponder over ur ex post? have it occurred to you that, after guowen read it (her post), he's affected and angry as well? she insulted my character saying "if people say you (refering to me) ren pin hao, i would have to say KNS. you're downright selfish and unreasonable" now, how would guowen feel? she started calling me names.. so we were wrong in rebutting? we din want to start all these first ok? really, we din.
i dont understand why things become like that, when we weren't looking for trouble. if you still want to insist its our fault, we really have nth to say. since the major issue is you jarrel, and apparently, you ARE siding her. then, case close liao lor.. since whatever we say is wrong.
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