Wednesday, June 27, 2007
la-la-la
when the right music is infused, it affects me, or rather, my mood and emotions.
looked through all my testimonials in friendster.
some made me laugh, some made me excited, some made me remember things, some relit my memories, some made me sad, and of cos, some made me happy.
i got quite affected by bei's testimonials for me when we haven got together yet.
nice memories, sad and bitter memories.. all came back to my mind.
i thought alot, alot alot alot.
looked at the years and dates of the testimonials and rethink wad happened during that period.
testi regarding my 1st ever hair dye, birthday wishes, thanks msgs for his bday wishes, kbox outings, and of cos, testis when we'd gotten together - those sweet sweet words and promises, which i know he will fulfill and honour.
when memories flow, it hurts and lit smiles at the same time.
phrases reminded me how i almost "lost" bei..
phrases reminded me how sorrowful my life was when all the depressing memories flowed.
phrases and phrases, all incidents edged vividly in my mind.
i got carried away, again by the music and of cos, valuable memories.
your "only for you to see, for you to be happy. [killua], [monkey king], [[[[[[YGNR]]]]]]" (part of the testi) made me smile, for i sensed my importance at the point of time, which was very precious.
after viewing all the testimonials, i msged bei to come into my room though he's just outside at my living room.
i hugged him the moment i see him.
emotions flowed, followed by tears.
the neverending tears.
my heart is very fragile towards those memories.
it hurts, and so i teared.
our hug tightened.. each time i wanted to cry harder, i hugged him tighter.
and bei knew i was crying even though he din see my face.
he started calming me down, and cracking jokes to make me laugh.
he really has a way with me.
and then, out of nowhere, he says he wants to give me a surprise on thurs.
i said "yah, the bag right?" thinking it was it.
but he said "no.. something which can make you sleep better.."
and the surprise seems to be well-planned by him already.
he knows where to get it, and probably, even when to get it.
very thoughtful of him though i still duno the gift.
but im sure it will surely help me slp better cos i trust him.
got to thank my precious boy here, cos some mornings ago, i told him i was experiencing insomnia at night.
"why din you call me?" was what he said.
i told him i dont want to disturb his sleep, his rest time, esp when i know he has been really tired out throughout the whole day of activity.
"next time when you cannot sleep, call me ok? i dont mind, really."
i knew he meant it with all his heart for i witnessed his sincerity and expression.
for that, im thankful for his really sweet thought.
i was touched, simply touched.
tears soon dry up, after all the jokes he played with my hands with those actions.
lol.. i forgotten the song name, but i know those actions relate to the song, that song.
see, in the upper part of this post, i was in a very sad mood, but now, i'm smiling.
bei has this power, to make me happy and sad.
this is possible because he is very important and precious to me.
i cant afford to lose him.
hear that bei?
i cant afford to lose you.
i love you.
i guess, sweetness really comes after all the bitterness.
my experience tells, and is true.
after all the bitterness, its the sweetness now, and will never end thereafter.
baobei, you mean alot to me, more than the world.
rmb what you say?
"i love you more than lee kuan yew loves singapore."
=))
this is a very good, in fact, excellent (and creative) analogy for expressing ur love.
thanks =))
i will always cherish you.
thank you for being here. thank you for loving me. thank you for all the jokes you crack everyday. thank you for being so important. thank you for allowing me to have infinity valuable memories of us.
together, we will prove eternity.
truckloads of love, just for YOU.
*MUACKS*Labels: intrapersonal comm - memories
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